Being the Antagonist's Beloved Sister
it actually all comes from you

my head hurts so much and my heart feels heavy to beat, my stomach feels uncomfortable and I don't know how to breathe making my condition feel so bad, I picked up the bell and shook it a long time later the cella and the maid who followed him entered my room.

"young master does anything make you feel uncomfortable"

"a lot of "

"sir duke will be here any minute please be patient"

"if I wait for my brother I'll die before he comes"

Five minutes later my leg came in with the doctor and asked if you were uncomfortable, the doctor examined me and spoke briefly with my feet after it left I could not hear what they were talking about because from where I lay and where they spoke far enough.

my feet came up to me rubbing my head and saying.

"the ice you asked for is next to your bed, get some rest" then leave my room quickly after my feet come out I look back and it turns out to be true, I wanted to get to him but cella stopped me and laid me back.

"rest, if the young master wants to play can the young master do after finishing resting"

"but I've had enough rest cella"

"no.sleep"

"come on cella" the debate lasted for a few minutes with the end of me who decided to pretend to sleep a while later I really fell asleep and woke up in the middle of the night, I found my room filled with darkness as the light of a magic ball or a candle left only the moonlight that illuminated my room between the curtains.

I walked closer to the window because I felt a piercing feeling directed at me if I turned on the magic ball or the candle was the same as surrendering to the wolf cage.

I turned towards her and found herself with precious golden eyes and night-black hair that made her look graceful in the moonlight, elves are famous for their beautiful looks and looks but I did not expect that they are this beautiful anyone would do anything for them if in my previous world but here everyone only respects who only the high-ranking, anyone who is beautiful and born from among the people of the nobles who already have wives and hundreds of concubines would want him to be by his side and for a good person would only be utilized until he's no longer useful, though, how to play the world is like that cruel here good people will only be utilized and beautiful people only made into toys in the world that I inhabit now more cruel than the world I lived in.

the way to survive is to be crueler and more ruthless, don't blame me for the world itself forcing me to do it.

"it seems like being you is fun, you have abundant possessions, people who love you, and who are unlimited" after being silent he began to open his voice.

"not really.the color of what you see is only on one side" back then when I didn't understand anything I was always jealous of whatever they had, I was jealous of what they had, I always thought that their lives were perfect but it turned out my mind was wrong, they were just human beings trying their hardest to make their lives look perfect…and I didn't like that but when I saw my reflection in front of the glass I knew something that I was just like them, just as they were keeping wounds and trying their hardest to smile happily.

it feels so sad, and I hate to admit the fact that I'm just like them.

"seen from wherever you must have no burden"

"you know nothing of me"

"from the time I was locked up in this room I knew everything, including you, who had the perfect life"

"you know nothing" I opened the window and let the wind enter my room.

"you know nothing of me, you know not how much I suffer because I am different, you know not how painful it is to be ostracized by someone you consider valuable, you don't know how hard I'm going to survive until I can laugh like this"

"i know exactly what you're saying, sorry"

"what's the point of hoping for something that obviously won't exist"

"well, it seems like you'll feel better because you have hope and hope will remain hope if you don't do something to make it real, if you have a goal, fight for it because your life depends on your choice"

"i have no purpose"

"i don't trust him~ if you really don't have a purpose then do what you want, do what you want, for example, living in a cage and living freely or enjoying the rest of your life there and eating well every day your choice is your goal"

"if I wanted to get out of here, would you open this cage for me"

"no.., try yourself to get out of there the cage is only made of iron but there is no magic stiffness at all"

"forget it. I can't open it myself, my powers can't because I'm a mixed descendant who has little mana and magic"

" you are indeed few and your magic power is weak but aren't you a descendant of light and darkness elves if they are united won't they be strong enough oh yes… don't make a fuss 'cause the guards at the door are gonna barge in"

"why"

"whatever's why, I don't understand what our purpose is to talk like this like We're talking about things that aren't clear"

"perhaps for a certain person what we're talking about and that's not me of course"

"so in conclusion we're talking about things we don't understand"

"maybe"

the sound of knocking on the door sounded I closed the window and curtains and then lay back down to cover myself with a blanket, wait if the knock on the door is heard clearly here means the sound from inside is heard to the outside, does her soundproof magic not work.

the magic here why is not complete makes me sometimes confused.

I saw the candlelight enter my room and disappear again when the door closed like he came just to check whether I was sleeping or not, lucky they only dared to open the door not to enter it not because they were afraid of me but they were afraid of my brother ever incident maid who entered my room at night and only the light of the candle dim to check me and at the same time my brother entered my room, my brother seemed to misunderstand and execute the maid in my room, I just pretended not to know and continued my sleep was terrible but I tried to assume that it was just a murder scene that would be shown in the cinema.

it was terrible to see the head and the blood splattered in front of my eyes and because it made me unable to sleep if I wasn't really tired, if I stop my legs I will get in trouble even if people's lives bet I won't take the slightest loss that's what I thought.

let me lie to myself that this is a game and not a reality.

after that incident the maids who were assigned to check me will only check me through the door and then go to fear the incident happened to him because the thinking of the people of the era who I live my own life is more important than the lives of others, because of the thoughts of people today I have a little difficulty because everyone plays tricks to get what they want, because everyone plays tricks to get what they want, unlike the world I used to live in, there are still people who get what they want with sweat and their ability there is help from money or insiders.

"they check whether you're sleeping or not but just by the door and the door is far away from your bed"

"you don't know anything about me 'cause I've been lying down comfortably I decided I'd go to bed and good luck if you want to get out remember my message don't make a fuss and use your muscle brain at the same time"

"brain and muscle cannot be separated and do not involve any feelings when you do it because it will only bother you or will even hinder you"