Cracks of Love
Fall Talaq

My gestational age has now stepped on 35 weeks, my waist is hot, my spine is already painful. My sleep has gone awry, I'm holding this myself. My husband really doesn't care about me. 

This house is like a villa for my husband, only to sleep at night and in the morning he leaves. I need a crutch when my condition is like this. There's no way I'll be alone for my son's delivery. In Bandung, I was alone. I wanted to go home to my parents, but I was afraid that I would increase their burden. Because I will definitely bring my three children. Ah how is this? If I told my parents, they would be sad. Mother, Abah forgive Kaila.

With my stomach growing bigger, I still drove Cia to go to school. I hold my waist, thank God Caca can play Adam. It was my children who helped me all this time, sometimes Cia massaged my legs at night, Caca rubbed my waist. Grateful I had them, I walked hand in hand with Cia. Sometimes he gives me a smile looking at me.

“Mamah, today I am happy. Can be alone with Mamah,” said Cia.

“Of course yesterday-yesterday was not happy?” my many.

“Happy too Mah, but today I'm even happier. Moreover, I can hold Mamah's hand,” said Cia, with a beaming face.

“You can hold Mamah's hand until you grow up and get married,” I said by giving a smile to Cia.

“Still old Mah, I want to be with Mamah just yet. I don't want to marry a guy like Dad. Who is always angry, make Mamah cry on.” The babble made me choke, this little boy had already thought that far.

“Mamah pray for you, so that you will have a perfect partner in the eyes of God. Sometimes perfect in our eyes is not necessarily perfect in the eyes of God,” I said advising Cia.

Cia has a more mature mind than her peers. She'll understand my words, Cia my first child who is beautiful and smart. Her face was so auspicious, I did not expect to have a child as beautiful as Cia. 7 years ago I held her small hand, today I hold the small hand. Time seems to pass quickly.

“Mamah later Cia go home alone, I can kok,” pinta Cia.

“Don't Cia, Mamah pick up,” said.

“Mah, trust me, just 10 minutes on foot. I don't want Mamah with a hot baby. I went home alone Mah,” pinta Cia.

“Truly you can go home by yourself?” my many.

“Iya Mah, God willing I can,” replied Cia.

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Arriving home after I dropped off Cia, my husband was home. I tried to get close to him.

“Daddy, can you drop me check up?” ask my husband.

“And I told you, I don't care about the boy,” said Rangga.

“This is your son too, you've never taken me to check up and see the results of USG,”.

“Do what I nganter loe, I males nganter loe,” said Rangga full of emotion.

I tried to touch his hand, he parried my hand.

“Don't touch me again, loe emang budek hah! I don't care about the kid, you're the one who runs,” he yells at me.

“This is your son, your flesh and blood. You really don't want this kid. You are an irresponsible man, because of the old woman. Your brain has been washed, and it's possessed by demons. So that your attitude is like a demon now. Me and the kids are your family not anyone else,” I said full of emotions.

“Oh so I'm a demon, keep loe holy that is. If I'm a demon, don't get close to me anymore. From today I'm talak loe, go home there to your parents' house. I'm sick of seeing Loe's face. I've been males close to loe,” he said with a lazy face looking at me.

In my heart I still do not accept this farewell. The thoughts that had piled up and raged were moved into one. It was a dream today, a nightmare. My first love journey of 8 years was ruined, as devastating as it was. 

That love makes a person stupid, crazy, even doing in a way outside of Islamic law. You must think I'm a fool, try to be my current position. I had no job or savings, I was from a simple family, and I didn't want to make it difficult for my parents. It was enough for them to take care of me until I got married. And I married by my own choice not a matchmaking. I'm akhwat and he's brother, but don't think getting married without a date is not good. It's just my destiny to get a bad man.

It is true that the hadith that I have learned about the danger of being alone with the opposite sex because it entered among demons. My husband who is always alone with mother Sukma every go and go back to the campus to study.

They not only add knowledge but also add sin, ah they remember sin! When lust speaks, Satan acts.

Why not report their affair? wanna know? because that old woman threatened me to destroy my family in a subtle, subtle way.

I know the background of this actor who plays and dances in the world by associating God. Love grows then black magic acts.

My intention to report them was I paused because of the threat of the actor, but I did not want to let go of my husband. Without the divorce deed my husband cannot marry the actor. Because PNS is prohibited from polygamy without the permission of his legal wife. I decided today that I would go home to my parents with careful consideration. I took my three children with my big belly, I dragged the suitcase to the terminal. Before I left I sent a short message to my college friends whatsapp group.

Kaila \= |“Friends, I'm out group. I'm divided 💔.” |

Kaila immediately had a sign out of the group.

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Princess \= ["Kaila, what's wrong with you?"]

Ratna\= ["Well guys, Kaila's out of the group,"]

Siti \= ["What the hell is Kaila? A divorce? real timing? kan Rangga kalem's son. Ah joking this time,"]

Tiwi\= [" Eh guys, profile photo fb Kaila replaced. The status is very upset. Try checking,"]

Vira \= [“Iya nih, I see her status Kaila. very upset,”]

Lili \= ["The day Kaila divorced, her children were small. When I went to Bandung rent a villa from Rangga's office they were fine. But it's a little strange, Kaila was no longer in Bandung at that time, he had ordered ‘Bilah use the kitchen I just to cook, to be iron sorry well. I wasn't in Bandung when you were there. Later say aja to Rangga.’ but strange guys Rangga do not reply whatsapp me or call me to ask permission to use the kitchen Kaila. I brought rice and other ingredients. Well, I've had previous communications with Kaila. Has Rangga been playing behind Kaila well ever since,"]

Ratna ["Lili, you want to camp with rice all haha,"| Ratna replied.

Lili \=["In order to irrit sob, take my brother's family too. Indeed, it has been planned from far away for the holidays together, the plan I connect Kaila so that the villa that the price is sloping, eh even given free well even though the last day of the incident is not sure anyway. He was told to move rooms because he said the room I placed there was a rental, had before me. My mood changed because I was pregnant with my second child.I hope Kaila and Rangga are all right. The kasian's children are small,"]

Vira \=["Haha want a free one anyway, which is free that's it. Not good at the end,"]

Lili \= ["Haha know only Vira, we wish them well,"]

Group whatsapp cecan (Cewe-cewe Gorgeous) is increasingly crowded discussing Kaila and Rangga. Both are students who do not have much behavior. Kaila is a quiet girl who does not like being close to men. While the male Rangga is calm, does not talk much. Friends did not expect this couple, divorce because of the third person.

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