Cracks of Love
Hitakor

Someone we think is good, not necessarily good. Someone we think is evil, not necessarily evil. That's how I feel, the actor is my neighbor and also my husband's superior. The angel who always helps and gives food and also a vehicle ride for my husband. Because an actor broke my contract with my husband. A man I respect but he trample on my pride. Boiling my blood when I heard the story of their affair from my husband's office friend, I held back the anger and emotions for quite a while. 

Today I went to his house, 3 houses away from my house. I could no longer bear to hear the actor's relationship with my husband.

'Tok tok tok'

I knocked on the door of the actor's house but I didn't say hello to him. What do I think to say hello, he was also secretly having an affair with my husband.

The actor opened the door, his face when he looked at me with dislike.

“Hai, Mom, don't be nervous about my husband. Mother already has a husband in Sumedang, if you need a phone caress husband mother jagan ask caress with my husband,” I said to Bu Sukma. Emotions explode.

“What you said, hi ngaca dong. Your husband approached me. He said he was uncomfortable with you, he ran to me,” said Bu Sukma with a slanted smile.

“If it wasn't Mom who seduced him, my husband wouldn't have come to Mom. Men if given honey will eat honey because it is sweet,” I said.

“Everything prepare honey let your husband be at home with you,” Bu Sukma challenge me.

“Mother doesn't know myself, all this time I respect Mom because Mom is older than me. But Mother may not feel old times well.mu shame is the same age, my husband is young. Doyan who was young, remember the husband and son of the mother who was in Sumedang. Mom's son will be big and she'll think, if she finds out she's an actor, how's she heart, Mom? don't think there,” I said by insinuating him.

“If I don't care how it is? do you think I care about them? wrong big. Your husband is already in my arms, what can you do so that your husband is no longer in contact with me. Your husband is comfortable with me, if uncomfortable he will not turn away from you.” Bu Sukma looks like there is a victory because my husband has prostrated to him.

“Mom really don't know yourself well.” I shouted in front of him, I was afraid to hear his answer. My heart felt hot, my body instantly melted. I clenched my hand, I'd love to punch the face of this actor. He was openly challenging me. I berate him, he just smiles tilting his lips feeling a triumphant air that he has taken my husband.

“Male if not tied tight, he will come off and enter another cage. Don't blame me, if your husband falls in love with me.” The old woman was so presumptuous of her words, I had tied my husband to the sacred bond witnessed by our parents by reading the lafaz of God. If the bond is loose it is because there is a woman seducing him.

Lord my husband has been blinded by him, he no longer remembers his wife and children. Really changed, my husband seemed to have been bewitched by the actor, all I could do was cry alone. It is hard for me to remember the words uttered by the actor.

If I don't remember my three children, I'll ask for a divorce. But I have 3 children and they are the children of my husband who should be fully responsible is my husband. 

The actor complained to my husband that I hit him today and berated him. Naturally, I chided the actor because he did not know himself to approach a married man. Instead of defending me as his wife, my husband cursed me in front of my son.

“What the hell do you go to the house bu Sukma everything, caci maki him. Shame on you loe.” My husband completely changed, his eyes were already dark with the actor. I have no more calling from him. Call me you or your father no longer he said. He called me 'loe' very rude.

"What did you say?  I'm embarrassing? you're the one who's doing it and making me ashamed instead of me!" I started to get angry emotions. My husband defended the actor from his legal wife. 

"Gue told you, don't interfere in my business anymore. I don't understand it, huh!" My husband's eyes glared at me, his face was like a fidelity.

"You are a husband, a father. Do not show good deeds to your children. You've been blinded by that old woman." My heart grew hotter to hear my husband, my husband was not my husband. He's really changed, not like the old days.

Suddenly I was slapped, I was hit by my husband. My husband has dared to use his hands to hit me in front of my children. I cried so much, Cia hugged me, she hugged me tightly. Because of that incident Caca and Adam became Shock.

“Dad...already, don't hit Mamah again. Bad father..The evil father..” cried Cia to his father, Cia also joined in crying to see me fall because I was hit by my own husband, my lips bleed because of his loud slap.

My heart has not dried from their affair, even today my husband added the wound back. Many wounds were inflicted but now my physique is also injured.

It was the time of marriage that the hand promised before our parents and swore to God to take care of me with affection. Fulfilling the birth and the inner. But now that my mind was hurt, he hit me just because of the actor, the old woman.

My husband got out of the house and left in his car. After my husband left, my three children and I hugged each other. Oh my son forgive this weak Mom. Cia caressed my cheek and wiped the blood on my lips with a tissue.

“Mama, Bad Dad hits Mamah.” I hugged Cia tightly. Cia was crying in the arms. Seeing Cia holding me, Caca and Adam also hugged me.

“You do not leave Mamah well, you are the encouragement of Mamah's life,” I said, to Cia my first child.

“Mamah, if Cia is already big. Cia's gonna make some money for Mamah. Don't wait for Dad again. Cia dear Mamah.” Cia's words made me smile.

“Caca also dear Mamah.” Caca hugged me.

“Adam is also Mamah, very dear to Mamah.” Adam hugged me.

I couldn't hold back my tears, I wanted to scream but I didn't want to look weak in front of my children. The only encouragement I can endure is my children. Their embrace feels warm to my heart. They are very small but have already felt the bitterness of life, have seen a violence that they should not have seen violence.

The world is indeed very cruel, pursued he even pierced. Not being chased he ran after. The world looks like a stage. Intended to pursue the position in order to have a lot of money for the family, but that intention backfired in Syifa and Rangga households. His intentions look good, but kindness turns into a sharp stab that is in a row.

 Seriate

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Hi readers, not gemes? in this chapter a true story. Honestly from chapter 1 to chapter 5 I was a bit depressed writing it. Because I studied the cast of Kaila as if I stood looking at this incident.

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