Don't Call Me an Actor
Impeached

The chicken steak I ordered tastes like flip-flops. Really, I can't enjoy my first lunch with Angga. All this because of the inclinations of Bu Dita who constantly teases my husband.

I want to pull Dita away from Angga. But it's impossible for me, because I'm just a mistress. It could be said to be the secret wife, Big Boss Angga. I could only grunt furiously inwardly, trying to remain calm before others. I started thinking, how long do I have to pretend like this?

Pretending there is no connection with Angga, making the odd women like flies that come swarming Angga. Tempting him without sin. Angga also seemed to enjoy when I held back jealousy because of the actions of those women.

I need to be more patient in order to do my part well. At home Angga is my husband, but outside the house he is my big boss. I can't do weird things. Because it can make people suspicious of me. So that they will continue to pry my truth. And this will put me in unnecessary trouble. I'd better get out of here before I make a mistake. But there's no loophole I can use as an excuse. So I can leave this foodcenter, make me uncomfortable and go awry.

I can only pretend to enjoy my lunch, even though it feels like swallowing a thorn. Several times Bu Dita wiped the lips of Angga with tissue. Pretending to help clean the lips Angga is not really dirty at all.

Seeing the inclinations of Dita, made me want to explode. But I strengthen my heart, this is all for the happiness of me and Angga later. Ms. Dita spread her smile on me who was fixated on seeing her courage. I feel like Dita ma'am is saying to me. "Look.I managed to lure Mr. Angga, you should know yourself, hey lady of low status."

I opened my eyes, trying to throw away any thoughts that intimidated me and made me feel insecure. I tried to steal a glance at Angga. He was so friendly with Dita's jokes. Really pisses me off. Does Angga not realize that bu Dita deliberately approach him? Or is this what Angga likes?

There was a pain in my heart. Is this the name of her jealous? No. I can't show my jealousy. I don't want to be looked down upon for daring to bully Angga. I believe, Angga will not betray me.

My phone is ringing. Call from Angga. It makes me careless, even though we are sitting face to face. What does Angga mean call me? Maybe he meant to kick me out of here? I immediately stood up and asked them for permission to take the call.

"I'm sorry, sir, Dita's mother.I'm sorry if you're allowed to receive a phone call" My pamphlet told them. Angga only nodded faintly, Dita's mother smiled meaningfully like she had just won the competition, while Deni smiled widely, seemingly deliberately teasing me. I walked out receiving a phone call from Angga. From behind the glass I watched Angga who casually called me in front of Dita and Deni.

"Yes... Honey why call me? Want to take me to lunch? Here I am again having lunch with my employees." Angga nyerocos himself.

"Darling.....? What's up?" Ask me confused.

"OK.. I'll pick you up!" Angga ended his call. I really do not understand, what the hell Angga mean. Suddenly I felt like urinating. I'll be going to the toilet when someone greets me.

"Ana... Are you here too?" Greet a man when he meets me. Her voice is familiar. I seem to know that soft, deep voice. I immediately turned my head to look for the source of the voice that called out to me.

I was glued, not believing in my vision. The man in front of me is Rio, a high school friend. More precisely, my first love. Unfortunately, at that time I was just clapping my hands. I expressed love during the school farewell, but Rio rejected my love.

That was the first and last time I dared to talk about my feelings for a guy. Scared me to open up to any man, afraid of heartache again accepting rejection. Also a shame that seemed as if I had no self-respect anymore.

"Let's... You forgot about me?" Rio asked again. Makes me stutter, aware of my daydreams.

"Hey. i. yeah I remember, I'm in second division." I was confused to choose a word.

"Ehm. Yeah like this." Answer me stiffly. It was an awkward meeting for me. Although thirteen years have passed. I have not recovered from the shame of that rejection.

"I didn't expect, you're getting pretty An." Rio said full of regret. I was caught off guard by Rio's praise. I lowered my head, played my fingers, trying to ward off the awkwardness that suddenly interfered.

"Have you married An?" Rio asked in probing. I was confused as to what to answer. I just shook weakly. My marriage is a secret that should be closed to everyone. No exception Rio. Because if this secret is open, I can get in trouble myself.

As I shook my head when Rio asked if I was married, there seemed to be some relief radiating from Rio's countenance. I doubt my vision, maybe now Rio's laughing at me. Because so far he thinks I can't move on from him.

"I've only been transferred here a week. Thankfully, we finally met. Makes me not right myself." Rio said with relief that was not covered up. He showed off his sweet smile. The smile that used to be like water was soothing to me.

"Have lunch?" Rio asked while pointing at the food center behind me. I realized, there was Angga inside and was probably observing me.

"Ehm.. I just finished eating. Oh yes, I have to go back to the room immediately. See you soon." I said as it passed. I'll step foot fast I have to go to the toilet right away. A natural call I can't stand anymore.

"An... Ana...." Rio's call made me reluctant to respond to him. But he managed to catch my hand and hold it tightly. It forced me to stop. Slowly let go of his hand. I'm afraid Angga sees me and he misunderstands later.

"Yes ... What's wrong?" Ask me impatiently.

"An... Can I have an hp number?" His love with his sincere gaze. A look that captivated me years ago. Whenever there is a task difficulty, Rio is always ready to help me. When I am sad, he is also willing to comfort me. He was also always encouraging when my lesson grades were not good.

His special attention and treatment to me, made me misinterpret his kindness. At that time I thought Rio loved me too. Turns out I was wrong. He just thinks of me as a friend. All I knew was when he rejected my love.

My first love ran aground and withered, as the flowers in my heart were blooming.

I have a husband that I love now. So I no longer need Rio. So I subtly rejected her request. I don't want to share my phone number with him. Because I already have Angga, and that's more than enough.

"Sorry, I can't share a phone number with you. Sorry..." I quickly walked away from him. I'm afraid those painful memories are coming back.

Rio kept calling my name. But I don't mind. I really did fall off. I want to hurry to the bathroom. I want to calm my painful heart. I just realized Rio's rejection at High School really incised a wound that was too deep. Until now it still feels pain when he comes back in a way I did not expect.

I took my pain out by crying. Yes. I cry for Rio. I spent some time in my tears to satisfy my grief. After my heart feels relieved, I immediately fix my make up and tidy my hair. I feel fresh back. And decided to meet Angga back soon.