Don't Call Me an Actor
The pressure from Aldin to Nara

We looked at the direction of the voice. "Emak.." we said in unison. The car stopped right in front of us.

"Ana, Nita, Doni. Let's get in!" Mother's order urged us to rush into the car. Still in disbelief, we got into the car.

After some time, I heard my mom's story. Only then did I know that the car was deliberately driven by my mother for our next trip. Heading to a place we never knew.

"Where are we Mak?" Ask me a curious. Because it looks like my mom has a plan for us.

"We're going to Batu Licin, there we're going to field. Planting cassava and vegetables." Said my mother steady. My mother was not a farmer. Can we survive there? I don't know, I hope there's a way for us there. The most important thing is that we can go as far away from Serly's mama as well as Angga. That's my one-on-one goal right now.

Our destination was quite far away. It was almost four hours drive, but not yet at the destination. The travel driver stopped his car at a simple restaurant. The restaurant was built on the river. The walls are made of boards. Also the floor is made of wood. We also followed the driver to choose his own table for a afternoon lunch.

Mom orders catfish soup, Doni orders fried chicken, Nita orders fried tilapia. While I ordered grilled tilapia. Just this time I ate a delicious grilled fish but unfortunately the rice tasted karau. Said the merchant, the favorite rice of the banjar people is indeed a type of karau rice. Such as siam unus rice and pearls. Even so I still devoured it.

Doni choked a few times. Luckily, Mom gave her a drink. So that he can continue eating again. All our plates are clean ludes. Both rice, side dishes, vegetables and sambal are not left in the slightest. Only the bones are left behind. Maybe because we were starving.

After eating, we went shopping. Mother shopping cleaning equipment, cookware, ranging from stoves, pans, frying pans, plates, and spoons. He also bought all kinds of kitchen spices, cooking oil, sugar, coffee, tea and rice. Fortunately, all the necessities are in the market near the restaurant. Until we don't have to look elsewhere.

Not to forget, we bought several pieces of clothing as well as two mattresses as well as sheets and blankets. When you see the farm store you go straight in and buy some kind of vegetable seeds. His word to plant in the yard later.

I just smiled to see my mother sorting through the seeds of whatever she would buy. My mother looks confused. I gave her input to buy everything. Who knows, there are no farm shops. It turns out my advice was received. Mother bought all kinds of vegetable seeds of all kinds. There were almost twenty packs bought.

After feeling all the needs have been purchased, we continued the journey. The Avansa car was full of our groceries. Makes the driver a little annoyed. But he also helped when we had trouble arranging it in the car.

This time our journey was pretty heavy. The road we took was no longer paved. There are only cobbled dirt roads, which are surging here and there. The driver impatiently carried the car carelessly. To make us shaken every time the car passes through the hole. Although the road was not good, he continued to go at high speed. The reason is chasing time so as not to stay on the road.

Whatever. Bump me in the heart, when my advice not to speed is ignored. Makes me want to take the car's driver. But it was just my wishful thinking, because of the fact that I could not bring a car at all.

I hid my irritation by turning my face to look at the scene outside the car window. On the left right of the road lay rubber fields and green palm. A beautiful atmosphere that soothes the eyes. Makes my frustration a little more manageable. The further along the road we take, the more sparsely populated homes become.

The journey ended after a three-hour journey. There is a small village. No more than twenty house boards. Scattered far enough apart. My mother told the driver to stop at the house where there was a thick rambutan tree in her front yard.

A white-painted board house became our goal. Mom knocking on the door to see if her goal is right? A father who is elderly but his body looks still fit, out of the house. He looks surprised.

"Who's looking?" He said with a thick Javanese accent.

"Is this Mr. Sugeng's house?" Ask mom.

"Yes, I'm alone." Responded Mr. Sugeng with still astonishment. He watched us one by one, perhaps remembering whether we were his family who had not met for a long time?

"Gini sir, Introduce my name Romlah, I got the address of the father of the truck driver Wawan. He said there's a house you want to rent?" Ask mom to confirm the info she got while on the ship.

"Yes. there is, but. his house is very simple." Said Mr. Sugeng hesitating.

"It's okay sir, what matters is we have a shelter." Answer the happy mother.

"House's at the end of the road, let me drive to see it." Said Mr. Sugeng as he moved from where he stood.

He took us to the house in question. A wooden house is almost similar to the house of Mr. Sugeng. In the front yard surrounded by bamboo fences.

The house seems to have been uninhabited for a long time. Seen from the grass bushes that grow at dawn in the yard of the house. Also when the door of the house was opened, many cobwebs on the walls and the plapon also thick dust stuck to the wooden floor.

"This is my son's house. After getting a good job at the company, they moved to the company complex. So his house is abandoned, no one occupies it. If you want to stay here, don't pay. As long as this house is cleaned and maintained it is more than enough for me." Said Mr. Sugeng with an overflow of happiness.

"Then, thank you very much Sir for his help. Let us occupy this house. We're gonna clean it up and tonight we're gonna start filling it." Mom is very happy to get a house at once without having to pay rent.

"An. tell the driver to bring the goods here. We'll clean the house soon so we can get some rest!" Mother's orders to me. I immediately ran to Mr. Sugeng's house and relayed my mother's orders.

The driver who was relaxed drinking coffee accompanied by Mr. Sugeng's wife immediately excused himself. He drove his car and took him to our house.

Before long, all the goods can we lower. All the stuff for a while we piled up on the porch. After the driver got his pay, he continued his journey back to the city.

Mr. Sugeng is still curious about us, he asked a lot of things. Makes us feel a little worried and scared. "You came here without a husband?" Ask him not to believe.

"Yes, sir, a few years ago my husband died. While Ana, my eldest son married a man who was not right. Her husband likes to hit, which is why when there's a chance we run away here. My daughter-in-law did not hesitate to threaten me as well as Ana's sisters. Until we had no time to bring anything, not even an identification card. Sir can you help us stay here?" Pinta mom with very.

"Well, I'll help. I am also the elder of this village. Later I will help make a new identity card so that your children can return to school and Ana can also find a good job in the company."

Mr. Sugeng's words are like drinking water in the desert. Really cools our hearts.

"Yes the same, we live in this area must indeed help each other." Said Mr. Sugeng again.

"It's better to be sorted out soon, the day is getting late. I will deliver the oil lamp. There's no electricity here, so it's just an oil lamp." Mr. Sugeng said.

"Yes, sir, thank you." Our word simultaneously.

Mom immediately divided the task on us. So that the event is sorted out the house quickly finished.

"It's your job to sweep the floor, bring the kitchen. Nita brush floor. Doni help mom clean the bathroom." We immediately did our respective tasks so that our work was completed quickly. Mom cleaned the bathroom and cooked rice with the oil stove she just bought earlier.

In this board house there are two rooms that we can use. Mom's rooming with my youngest brother Doni and I'm rooming with Nita. Fortunately there were wooden cabinets in every room so we could keep clothes that were not too much into her.

Work is done, we take a shower. Because the bathroom was just a wicker wall that had many holes, Nita and I took turns to stand guard. When I took a shower, Nita stood guard outside and vice versa.

Everyone has taken a shower, the house is clean and the food is ready. We also ate together. White rice with salted fish side dishes and sambal. The taste is delicious. My tears immediately fell at the end of my eyes. How long will the difficulties of life continue to be experienced by us?

"Ana... piquancy huh?" My mother rebuked when she saw me cry. I just assented. Right now I can only be grateful that God is still giving us life. And we can still get together with my family that I love. That is my greatest happiness.

Just after we finished eating, Ms. Sugeng came to us.

"Mom Romlah.This is me delivering the oil lamp." Said Sugeng ma'am while handing the lamp to mother.

"Thank you ma'am" said my mother with happiness. Hopefully the people in this village can receive us as well as the family of Mr. Sugeng. Sugeng's mother and mother had a friendly conversation on the front porch.

Nita deftly washes dishes and cookware. While I, keep the leftovers and side dishes in the cupboard in the kitchen. I brew tea for Sugeng ma'am, but when I want to bring tea to the front, Sugeng ma'am has gone home.

"Drink on An... My mother was too full to eat." My mother refused the warm tea I gave her. Finally I gave the tea to Nita and Doni.

"Mak... Ana rest first yes. it feels sleepy." My interest in my mother who is still busy tidying up the items in the kitchen.

"Yes, just rest." Answer mom. I immediately shed my body that was too tired. It didn't take me long to fall asleep either. In my sleep I dreamt of meeting Angga.

"Ana... Why did you leave me An? Don't you know where I've been looking for you?"

Ask Angga in my dream. There is no fear or hate. All I have in my feelings is a passionate longing.

"Ana... Why are you silent? You still love me, right?"

Urge Angga back. My tongue is gago. I could only shut up, I wanted to scream and declare my heart "I miss you so much Angga." My whisper is smirking.

Angga approached, giving a warm peck on my forehead. Makes my body feel shaken.

His hands were patrolling, giving touch to the sensitive parts of my body. We also approached each other and coiled together to give each other satisfaction. Until the peak of enjoyment we managed to get together. My body bounces, the pleasure comes out of my lips.

"Sir Ana, wake up!" Nita's voice intruded on my wet dream.

I opened my eyes, when I realized that the events just now were just a dream, making me instantly disappointed.

"Sorry Nit... Sister Ana's a nightmare." I said embarrassed. I saw that Nita seemed to be unable to sleep, did she not fall asleep because she heard me slumber during sleep?

"Sister... Nita sleeps with her mom. Doesn't Ana sleep by herself?" Tanya Nita arrived.

"Wouldn't we sleep with our sister?" Ask me wonder.

"We can't sleep." Nita said sadly. Maybe because this week Nita always sleeps with mom. So when he slept with me, he couldn't sleep. I impeached.

"Yes Nit. don't papa." I let Nita out of my room. Now that I'm alone, I'm damning my dreams. Why do I miss Angga? A monster who almost killed me?

No. No matter what happens I will never go back on her. But my heart is out of sync with my heart. I fell in love with that monster guy. "No. no. I will kill my love. I am not a weak Anarista. The old me is dead. Now I am the new Anarista who will close my heart tightly to any man, especially Angga." I growled in a whisper.

***

In the luxurious house of Angga. Angga looked back and forth in his room. He looks very upset and angry.

"Ana... Where are you? Be careful if I find you! I'll torture you until you kiss my feet for mercy." Angga's growls of anger.