Don't Call Me an Actor
Suspicion of Bu Sukma

"An. It looks like you're sleep deprived. Every chance to sleep, An. Afraid of her you're getting sick," mother advised me.

"Same mother, what do you want? Said the parents, if cravings are not obedient can mengeces later his child. Hehe," my mother's claw made me smile knot.

Right now all I want is to meet Angga. But this is an impossibility. What if I really met her. Trus if he does evil again to me.... I have a feeling of longing that makes me unable to enjoy every mouthful of my food. The taste I taste is just bland.

When I couldn't hold back the feeling in my heart, the instant the nausea came. Until all the food that just entered my stomach is pumped out. Until the thick yellow liquid came out leaving a bitter taste in my throat.

These few days, there's no food I can eat. My body feels very weak. My mother was very worried. He ordered a car to take me to the hospital. But unfortunately, the ordered car is being taken to take people to the city. So we have to wait some time. Right now I'm just resigned because I can't do anything anymore.

All day I could just lie in my room. Because every time I wake up, instantly my stomach feels nauseous. And at the ends, I'm gonna spit out all over the stomach. That's why I chose to sleep in my room.

This afternoon, he said there will be a visit from palm oil companies that will provide csr assistance to villagers. Mother from morning helped cook at home Mr. Sugeng.

Almost two o'clock in the afternoon, the group came in three cars. They carry a lot of basic food. Also the cash is large enough to be handed over to Mr. Sugeng as a representative of the elders of the citizens.

The visit ended with a lunch. Guests from the company were very impressed with the food menu. Mother managed to juggle simple food ingredients into elite food like restaurant-style food.

Moreover, they were amazed by the fact that the vegetables served were organic vegetables grown by their mother.

A wife of one of the bosses forced herself to look at her own vegetable crop. Also want to buy tilapia fish results of kermaba mother's cultivation.

I had to get out of the room to help my mother. Some mothers buy plants in a polybag that has begun to bear fruit. There were nearly fifty polybags all of them that the mothers had bought.

I started to explain, how to care for plants without pesticides and chemical drugs. When I explained there was a father with a thick mustache and black eyes, attracting my attention. I think I know her.

My heart is beating so fast. The man remembered me to Angga. Is it really Angga? My mind suddenly became confused. Until I suddenly fainted.

When I woke up I was already inside the company clinic. My mother was waiting beside me.

"Mak... Where is Mr Angga?" I asked spontaneously when I woke up from my fainting. I felt pain in my right arm that was stuck in an infusion tube.

"Ana. It's just a little like Ana. You calm down, son. You should be healthy soon." My mother's advice calmed me down a little. But my feelings said, that man is Angga my evil husband but I miss him.

Mother feeds me, strange this time the food I eat tastes delicious even though the mother said the food in the clinic is less seasoning. But in my mouth the food was delicious. Until not how long a plate of rice ludes not left.

Doni and Nita were left in Mr. Sugeng, because this afternoon when I fainted all panicked. And it's very unlikely to bring my sisters along. As a result, they were left at home.

That mustachioed man looks like angga, I'm pretty sure. I don't know suddenly the taste of kangen is getting. Even when the tall, well-built man in the bushy mustache visited me in the room. I'm absolutely sure he's Angga, my husband.

When the man came to see me, my mother was out for a reason. The man asked me about my situation.

I couldn't hold back any longer the feeling in my heart.

"Female... You came looking for me? Will you hurt me again?" Ask me in the stuffing.

The man was very surprised, he opened his sunglasses. Show me the eagle eyes that once made me fall in love.

"Ana, I've been looking for you for a long time. I finally found you. You know, I'm like the crazy guy you made me. Why did you leave me?" Ask Angga with a poignant tone.

"They almost killed me. Do you not remember? You drowned me in the bathup and then poisoned me. Even your mama Sherly was planning to drown me and my family at sea." Ana cries sobbing.

Angga immediately approached her, then hugged her tightly. He does not want to part with her anymore. However there are things that must be cleared up before Ana really returns to her side.

"Ana. I love you. Especially when I found out you were pregnant with my child. There are people who conspire against me. They infiltrated in such a way, making me unable to recognize them. Their goal is to destroy me and the people I love. An.. I asked to pretend that I didn't know me so that no one would try to harm you." Pinta Angga with very. He kissed my forehead.

Angga handed me a cell phone and put it under my pillow. Also an envelope with a lot of money. "Save yes so that we can keep in touch, also for the needs of our children. Ana take good care of yourself, I'll come back to pick you up." Angga said while clasping my palms together.

Angga was already walking out when mother came.

"Ana.... Are you crying son?" Ask the worried mother.

"So Mr. mustachioed came to see me, he was very kind and considerate. He gave me a cell phone and cash." I said while showing a money sample and mobile phone given by Angga.

"That's great, that father. Last afternoon when you passed out, the father also carried you." My mother was filled with admiration.

"Where was that from?" Ask me a curious.

"So she was called the director's mother, she said tomorrow morning she was told to cook." Said mom proud.

"Oh.it's good. Mak, Doni and Nita don't papa left at home alone?" I asked to remind my mother.

"May they not papa, mother also feel bad to leave them alone at home." Said madam galau.

"May Nita and Doni be fine at home." Mother's prayer I soon observed.

Mom opens the door. How surprised we were, seeing Nita and Doni being ushered in by a man.

When he saw us Nita and Doni immediately scattered. My mother hugged them like they had been separated for a week.

"I take the children of mothers, pity them if left alone." The man explained.

"Thank you, sir, for taking my kids." Said the mother with relief in her voice. We were worried about Nita and Doni. Thank goodness we got together.

"Buk, as well as the children staying in mes. So that Miss Ana can rest enough." Mr. Ari said, the driver was polite. She takes Nita and Doni to a house where they are staying tonight.

I was left alone. My eyes are not closed either. There is a lot of burden of thoughts that bother me. My meeting this afternoon with Angga was very unreasonable. Was it true that the man with the bushy mustache this afternoon was Angga?

I felt my pillow. Right, under the pillow there is still an envelope of money as well as a mobile phone. This proves that the tall, big, glasses and thick mustache man this afternoon was my husband's Angga.

"Ana.." call a voice. That man was standing near me. I was shocked to not realize his arrival at all.

That man is Angga, the man I miss so much. I spontaneously threw my sweet smile at her.

Angga approached my ward. He flung his body beside me. His sturdy arm was placed under my head. Become a pillow for me. I could feel the warmth of his body instantly making me feel comfortable.

"Ana.., I'm sorry, it's made you suffer all this time. I promise you after it's over. I'll make you happy." Angga's free hand caressed my stomach. He also tightened his body making me feel comfortable. In an instant I fell asleep in his arms.

"What...this?!" Mom's shrill scream surprised me. I gasp awake. Angga also hurried down from the bed.

Mother's eyes glazed over, she looked shaken when she saw me and a man she didn't know sleeping in bed.

I was still confused to find a word to explain to my mother. Until I can't say a word.

Angga approached the mother who looked upset. He opened his fake mustache.

"Sir. This is Angga." Angga's explanation made my mother more frightened.

"Mak. don't be afraid, Angga has no evil intentions. Angga loved Ana very much, the past incident was a mistake. Angga ain't that bad." Angga said trying to explain to mother.

Mom walked to a chair. He sat down and breathed deeply.

"Son Angga, we are poor. But we are also human beings who deserve to live as well. Please don't bother us anymore." Said the mother in her stool.

"Mom, I've explained everything to Ana. I'm just asking for your trust. When that time comes, all the bad guys get caught. I'll bring you guys back. Please hide for some time. Take care of yourself. Take care of our son An. I don't have much time. This morning I have to go back to Jakarta. Take care of yourself, An. I hope we can meet again." Angga said while kissing my forehead.

My heart rippled, I felt that something was going to happen to Angga. But I can't possibly hold it.

That morning Angga came back to Jakarta to take my heart to fly with him. After my meeting with Angga, the more pain left.

Within two days he brought my joy. But immediately it also made me feel like I lost hope when he had to return to Jakarta.

Mom was contracted to be a cook for the company staff. So we were given a decent place to live in the company. I also work as an office girl. A job I've been doing for a long time. So that there is no significant difficulty for me.

Nita and Doni attend a company-supplied school. No need to walk far if you want to go to school.

My gestational age increased, my stomach was already looking enlarged. I was finally able to finish the early trimester of pregnancy well. Even my cravings are not so problematic. My appetite has also improved.

My work in the office is not too heavy but there is someone who makes me feel uncomfortable during my work. His name is Mr. Hardi, he is a marketing manager. Several times he seduced me, intending to make me his mistress.

Every chance he always lures big spending money if I want to serve him. I did not dare to blatantly refuse, fearing that he would trouble me later. So all this time I could only avoid.

That morning I left early because there was a task to record the financial statements that were not finished yesterday. I was focusing on work when a pair of hands suddenly hugged me from behind. I gasped and tried to avoid it. But unfortunately, my feet stumbled on the chair as I avoided the nosy hands of Mr. Hardi. Until I fell down. My stomach hurt very much. Like kneaded.

I remember, there was a baby in my stomach. Could something happen to my baby? I endured the pain and tried to walk. There's wet liquid seeping in my thighs. It's fresh blood. My body trembled, my joints as if they were separated from their hinges. My feet cannot support my body. I went back to drowning.

I was terrified, while Mr. Hardi smiled widely with his cruel grin. He just stood watching me. No matter the pain I have to endure because of his snobbery.

"Please...please!!" I shouted hoping someone would help me. But the sound that came out was just a sigh of pain that I had to endure. Before I fainted, I saw some people enter the room.

Things turn dark. Silence immediately seized me. Makes me cramped and hard to breathe.

"Ana...why are you that reckless? Is this really you intentionally killing my son? Just tell me you don't love me. But don't you take away my son!!!"

Angga's voice boomed. I can't see it. I just felt a hand clutching my neck. Strangled me. I was trying to escape. The chuckling tightened up making me out of breath.

The atmosphere was dark again, the silence suddenly locked me back in.