Don't Call Me an Actor
Back to the City of Cemara

"Have you finished your lunch An ?"

Asked Sherly's mom to surprise me. From the morning I was looking forward to my departure, to be with my mother and two sisters. I just finished eating when Sherly's mom came over to me. He helped me clean up my old dinner plate.

"Yes... Ma's... Ana's done eating." Answer me while throwing a smile full of thanks to him. I was also amazed at Mama Sherly who did not hesitate to help me tidy up the dinner plate.

"Ana. You go now, remember no one can know where you go. There's a new identity. Mama will give you money to survive in a new place. I hope you can be happy there." Said Sherly's mother with a faint smile. I saw Mama Sherli's smile not a happy smile but a cold smile that instantly made my heart was. But I immediately ignored him. Maybe I saw it wrong.

"Ma. thanks for the help so far. Ana will always remember the kindness of mother to Ana, Mother and sister Ana." My word is sincere.

"Yes, mama will be happy if you go far away from here. Um. I mean mama, you're free from the threat of Angga."

7Mama Sherly handed me a thick brown envelope. It must have contained quite a lot of money. I wanted to ask Sherly's mom, but she seemed to know my thoughts.

"Ana. You don't have to thank me, Mama who should apologize and thank you. Mama can't take you, just say hello to your family."

Mama Sherly said with her soft soothing voice. I spontaneously hugged her, mama Sherly has occupied my heart on par with my mother's place. I can't deny my heart, I've loved Sherly's mother like a mother to me.

"Have left immediately, under there is a car waiting for you. Remember, don't do anything that attracts attention. So that Angga can't track you or your family."

I nodded, but my heart was painful. I never dreamed I would be an escape. Who must hide for the safety of the menace of her own husband. Although in a small heart there is still a little love left for Angga. But I have to let go of her forever. In order not to be months and the impingement of Angga's cruelty.

I'm doing a disguise. My hair was black and long, this morning it had been cut short by a boat and painted a light brown color, with short bangs covering the forehead. Makes me very different, looking fresh and young. The nurse was apparently good at cutting my hair in such a way.

The shirt I was wearing was a white t-shirt with the image of an eifel tower. A tourist destination that has been my dream for years. Which is not even realizable. Equipped with matching light blue jeans jacket with pencil jeans. And white sneakers. When I looked up, it was as if I was back in my teenage years. I smiled satisfied with my appearance.

Not to forget, the brown envelope containing the paper money given by Sherly's mother I kept in a black crackle bag. I was afraid that on the road someone would suddenly take my money.

As I headed to the courtyard, the place where the car was waiting for me. I was confused, on the page there was only a box car bearing the famous brand of Bread. Am I going to ride in that bread box car?

"Non, let's go in, please" a man in the employee uniform Bread opened the rear box door. I'm stunned. "Fast non, don't slow down later we can be late to the port."

The man in uniform told me to hurry. I also have no choice, because this is the only way so that I can be free from Angga. I quickly climbed into the box and the man locked the door behind me.

In the darkness I fumbled for a seat. In a gap between two stacked cardboard boxes I chose it to be my seat that was quite comfortable. The smell of bread is very fragrant. Instantly I overshadowed the delicious legendary bread of my family's favorite.

Box cars run very fast, many times the car shakes when passing through the road hole. Makes my body feel slammed. Is the driver in front crazy? how could he run his car like a fidelity. It does not matter that he is in my situation in the back box like an item that is thrown around because the speed of the car is not constant, and tends to speed like being in a hurry.

My stomach was so nauseous, I fumbled around looking for something I could wear to my vomit spot later. It would be unwise for me to vomit the bread. There was no paper or plastic bag. Fortunately, I remembered the pocket of crackle where the money. I moved the money envelope into my jacket pocket.

My stomach feels like it's being stirred. The journey was long and uncomfortable. The dark place, the tightness plus the shaking of the car as if there was no stopping to shake my stomach. I can't take it anymore, I'd like to throw up. It felt like I was hours, in a box car. In the dark and very painful. I fainted, probably because my physical condition had not recovered properly. Facing a long drive in a closed box car.

Countless times have I vomited my stomach. His taste was all drained away. Without me knowing my plastic bag was still safely in my hand. I shuffled away from my vomit marks. I'm looking for a new place, where I don't smell my own vomit.

In my new place, palpated by me an open cardboard box. I took two loaves of bread. One pack I put in a plastic bag, and the other I eat. My stomach is starting to sting. Fortunately, a loaf of bread was able to relieve the pain in my stomach. Unfortunately, there was no drinking water, making me almost choking on the pieces of bread that I was difficult to swallow.

I'm trying to find a gap in the light, to see where I really am. The box car I was riding in, had already shut off the engine from earlier. But strangely I still feel swaying. Is this my fainting factor in the car?

Back I was trying to find a gap to peek out. But there is no gap I can reach. It makes me sit back in despair.

I heard the car box lock was opened from outside. I immediately prepare myself.

"Non.. hurry out, I'll take you to where your mother and sisters are." Said the man of the bakery.

I immediately rushed out. I spread my eyes around the box car. I was confused to see a row of various types of cars parked neatly. I was on the ship's deck?

The man told me to follow him, and I followed him. Some time we were near a box car, exactly the same as I was riding earlier. The man opened the car box. From the inside I saw my mother and two sisters. My mother immediately recognized me and immediately hugged me as I was about to catch up with her in the box car.

"Ana.. Are you okay, son?" Ask my mom to worry about me.

"Ana, all right. Mom, Nita and Doni are you all right?" I asked worriedly to see Nita and Doni pale.

I looked at the man who had brought me.

"Hurry up, and don't make a fuss!" the man pushed me into the box of cars. He took the bag I was holding. And lock the door lock as soon as I get in.

The state of the bread car box where my mother and sister were not much different from where I was. Smells a pungent smell of vomit. Also the smell of piles. I fumbled to pass on my Mom and my sisters.

Nita's voice was weak, she asked for a drink. I immediately put a bottle of mineral water on him. I heard Nita sipping water a lot. Maybe he was thirsty from earlier. Finished drinking Nita giving me the bottle back. I passed the bottle to the mother who immediately drank it.

I let out a heavy sigh, I deeply regret what happened to us.

"I'm sorry Ana, because I have to suffer again." I said while crying.

"Ana, don't always blame yourself. Believe me, the difficulties we face today are the path to our happiness in the future. There must have been a rainbow after the storm hit" Mother said to strengthen us.

"Now we can only pray, ask Allah SWT to guide us." We also pray for help from God.

"Oh my God, show us your way. Help us, O God. Protect Mother, servant also Nita and Doni. We are far from danger. Save us, God. Amen" I solemnly offer my prayers.

Doni clung steadily to his mother's arms, his voice inaudible, probably because he was asleep and very afraid of the darkness. Nita was closing in on me. I immediately shifted the bread boxes, to give enough space for Nita to sleep on my thighs. I massaged his stiff nape. Nita began to calm down, she no longer vomited.

"Nita, do you still feel nauseous?" Ask me to make sure Nita's situation. Our dark place makes me unable to see Nita.

"Sir.. hyks..." The sound of Nita's soft stuffing, made me even more worried.

"Nita... What's wrong? Do you feel pain? In which part? Tell brother Nit." I said very worried. I'm so scared something bad happened to Nita. Also I couldn't see it at all, making me even more anxious.

"Sir Ana, don't go again, sister." Nita said with deep sadness.

I was stunned by Nita's words, was she in so much pain right now, that she was afraid I would leave?

"Yes, sister will never leave mother, Nita and Doni. We'll be together forever." I said I was trying to calm Nita down.

"Nita... tell sister, which one is sick Nit?" My hand fumbled on Nita's cold forehead.

"Sister.the beautiful mother named Sherly is evil." Nita said slowly. I sharpened my ears not believing in my hearing.

"Nita... What are you talking about?" I'm trying to get an explanation from Nita.

"Mother Sherly, my sister is a beautiful woman evil." Nita's words puzzled me, did she mean the Sherly mom I knew? I immediately dismissed my prejudice. Mama Sherly is very friendly, gentle and loving. Nita must have meant someone else.

"Yesterday Sherly's mother came home, talked a lot with her. When he came home, he accidentally dropped his ring. I saw the ring fall. Trus Nita goes after him to give Sherly's ring. When I was about to give her the ring, Ms. Sherly was talking to someone on the phone. So I'm waiting for her."

Nita paused her story. He tried to get up to hold my hand. When I told him to lie down, he wouldn't.

"Sir Ana, Miss Sherly is so mean." Nita hugs and cries, making her worry.

"Nita... calm down, son.we must be patient." Said mom trying to give her peace.

"Sister, Ms. Sherly said that she failed to kill her sister with poison. And he told people to drown us. Sis... Nita's afraid..." Nita inching in my arms.

I hugged Nita tightly in my arms. I was shaken, I didn't expect that gentle Sherly's mama to be that bad. I started to gather the information I had been getting all along. I just remember Angga drowning me in Bathup. But the nurse told me I was poisoned and not drowned?

The pieces of the mystery became increasingly bright.

"Nita, when you eavesdrop on Sherly's mom, do you know?" Ask me to try to find out.

"Yes sister, Sherly's mom realized my whereabouts. He was surprised to see me standing behind him. I pretended not to hear her talk, I seemed as if I had just come and immediately gave the ring. Ms. Sherly looks very relieved. He gave me a hundred thousand dollars. Also Doni who followed me was also given money. Are we going to be drowned in the sea, brother?" Nita hugged me tight.

"No, it's not that simple that people can do evil to us. This time we have to fight, never give up." I said comfort Nita.

My mind feels big. I didn't think Sherly's mom was that bad. Good thing I know Sherly's mama's plan, at least we still have a chance to survive.

'Clothes... ' There was a sound of metal falling. And the voice swearing of a man followed him.