Don't Call Me an Actor
The Happiness of Nafa in Syafana Boutique

Nita was shivering coldly, her lips were extremely pale. I immediately carried her, took her to my mother's room. Along the way Nita muttered indistinctly. I was scared to death. I'm afraid something happened to Nita. The skin of her hands that were coiled around my neck felt very cold.

I ignored my body which was actually very tired. I force my feet to keep going. Take Nita to the mother's place to get treatment immediately.

I immediately rushed towards my mother's room, and she woke up as we came. Doni seems to have slept well. His compress was released from his forehead.

"Nita. thankfully you met my son..." Mom helped take Nita down from my sling and immediately laid her on the extra bed. Nita's body still looks shivering. Mom immediately compressed Nita, and told Nita to drink the paracetamol I had bought. Nita's appearance is still quite conscious. He whispered to my mother.

"Mak... Nita's hungry." Said it slowly.

Mom sat Nita down, and fed her food. Just two spoons eaten, Nita protested that the food she ate was bitter. Mother patiently gave understanding to Nita to keep wanting to eat, her food.

I was too tired, my body and legs felt sore. My stomach is also uncomfortable. I decided to lie down next to Doni. Not long after I fell asleep.

My mother woke me up at breakfast delivered to our room.

"An. wake up, have breakfast, son. So you don't get sick." My mother said as she opened the rice box for me.

"Mak... Ana hasn't had a bath, hasn't washed her face." I said reject the rice box that my mother gave me. I really don't lust at all. My mouth was bitter and the nausea kept tickling my stomach.

"Yes, wash your face first, then eat right away. The rice is still warm do not let it cool later not kemakan." Mother said remembering.

I nodded and immediately went into a fairly narrow bathroom. I just washed my face because I didn't have any toiletries. I plan to buy it this morning. So that my mother and sisters can also take a bath.

"Where are Nita and Doni Mak?" Ask me when I get back from the bathroom. I've seen Doni and Nita not wake up yet.

"Their fever is healed, just let them rest first to restore its state. They've never been on a boat before, but Mom's afraid of Doni and Nita getting drunk." I nodded my mother's words, and immediately ate my box of rice rations.

I want to spit out my food. It all tastes so salty and bitter. Does this really feel like this?

"Mommy, aren't your vegetables salted?" Ask me to find out.

"Neither Ra. Here's cobain, mother's bribe." I opened my mouth to take my mother's bribe. The taste is the same, very salty and bitter.

It seems like my body is wrong. Is this a sign that I am going to get sick? No, I don't want to get sick now. I need to get healthy fast. I don't want to trouble my mother. How could you take care of the three of us? That realization rounded my resolve to spend my rations.

Not long after the food I swallowed went down to the stomach. Suddenly nausea instantly attacked me. I also ran to the bathroom. Nausea I can not stand, until my stomach contents drained. Leaving behind the last vomit, a yellow liquid felt extremely bitter.

My body is weak. My head feels so dizzy. This is how I finally got sick. Maybe my mag relapsed again.

"An.... Why are you, son? Open the door. This is you bringing eucalyptus oil." Mother's voice from behind the door, resuscitated me. I opened the door giving way to my mother to help massage my dizzy forehead. Mother also helped apply eucalyptus oil on the stomach, back and also my temples.

"Mak... Ana wants to be alone. Ana's so dizzy, mak." I couldn't stand the feeling of lightness in my head. I was afraid of falling unconscious, so I had to lie down on the bed immediately.

"Come on, slow down. Hold on to your mom's shoulder." My mom took me to bed. It feels good to be lying on the bed.

When it hurts like this, it feels very uncomfortable. What else at a breakout like this. What if we get caught. And those bad guys hurt us? Or even kill our lives? No. I don't want that to happen to us. I need to get healthy fast, so I can get as far away from Angga and Mama Sherly's reach as possible.

But what power, at this time I can only fall down because of my pain.

"Udah An. don't mind too much. Trust that God will help and protect us." My mother's words made me calmer. I started to close my eyes. Trying to forget the nausea that sometimes still bothers me.

I felt in my stomach something warm. It made me feel comfortable and I fell asleep.

Sleep well with strange dreams. There is a small ball bouncing, while the reflection is getting higher and the ball is getting bigger. It was like hearing voices echoing. And suddenly the big ball bounced and hit me. Until I got hit by that giant ball.

Instantly I woke up. Nita and Doni sat by my bed.

They screamed happily when they saw me starting to wake up from my sleep.

"At last Ana woke up. Sis, my mother came out saying she wanted to buy something. Brother want a drink?" Baraw adek ku Nita. And he brought me a bottle of mineral water.

"Not drink yet." Nita did not give up on my refusal. And this time I can't bear to see Nita waiting.

I received the mineral water and drank it straight away.

My body feels cold shivering, especially when something wet sticks to my forehead. I almost threw it away. But when I see, it's a compress cloth, then I let it.

Yes, it turns out that it's my turn to hurt. I'm resigned to this situation. I'll use the time to really rest. Before the ship leans in the harbor.

Doni and Nita painstakingly took care of me. I am so grateful, even in this state of decline. We can still be together to strengthen each other. My tears just flow. I still can't accept why our rice is this bad. And all this because of me.

Am I the cause of all this misfortune? From the moment we were evicted from the contract, because of my stupidity. The presence of Angga in my life, also because of my carelessness. We almost drowned, because of Mom Sherly's hatred for me. And we're the ones who have to be the escape of a lifetime, because of me.

"Nita, what happened to you last night deck? We're so anxious looking for you deck." I said while looking at his bead that had started to sparkle.

"I saw it when brother, mother and Doni were looking for me. I'm following behind." Nita said happily.

"Why are you silent Nit? Though we were so scared that we couldn't find you!" I said angry.

"So don't be angry, let Nita tell me. Okay!" Nita's words spontaneously made me fall silent. All this time I consider Nita my sister is still a child and often kuomeli for all her mistakes. This time the opposite, replace me who fell silent to his scolding.

"When I fell down, I saw a man deliberately opening the ship's door. He also left our box car unsecured. Nita realizes that the man deliberately made our car drown. I wanted to tell my sister, but when I saw my brother, mother and Doni get out of the box car, it made me feel relieved. But just as I was about to get close to my brother, the bad guy walked close to me. So I hid. Trus, when I look for brother and mother is no longer there. I tried to find nowhere but didn't meet. My body feels cold and my head is dizzy. I was hiding under the stairs. Thank goodness when I opened my eyes, my brother was already holding me." Nita's story is long. Makes me feel amazed at him.

"Thank God Nit. You're okay deck," I said gratefully.

"Yes, sister now just rest. Is the water in the bottle cold? here let Nita replace with a new one." Nita said while pointing towards my stomach. It instantly made me realize. Apparently it's the bottle that makes my stomach feel better now. I took a bottle from under my shirt.

It was a shock, because the one used to compress my stomach turned out to be a vodka bottle. But I understand that maybe that's the only bottle that my mother managed to find. I looked around the room. I didn't see mom. While Doni still sleeps soundly in his bed.

"Nit... Where are you going?" Ask me to express my curiosity.

"Emak left for a while, he said he'd buy some toiletries." Nita answered while busily filling hot water from the dispenser into the bottle.

"Oh yes, sister, I told her she was told to eat." Nita took a Styrofoam cup and approached me. I reached out to grab the cup. But Nita didn't give it to me.

"Emak advised, you can't get up first. So let Nita feed brother." Nita said while looking for a seat close to me. He fed me painfully. Our age is far away. But our relationship was very close as a brother and sister.

"Thank you deck..." I was so proud to see my sister who was so attentive to me.

"Tringgg.." The speaker in the room rang. Surprised I also woke up Doni who was previously in deep sleep.

"Consideration for all passengers, in order to prepare their luggage. And head to the exit. Because soon the ship will dock at the port of Trisakti Banjarmasin. Losing valuable things is not our responsibility. Thanks." Thanks."

The loudspeakers stopped making noise. But it makes me very confused because my mother has not yet returned to the room. Don't-don't something have happened to mom? Immediately panic swept through my mind. How'this? What if we were separated again?

At times like this I need to calm down. It should not be rash because the impact will be on the safety of all of us.

I breathed a lot of air, I immediately got up from my sleep.

"Come.we are all ready, we have arrived at our destination. We're going down here." I said try to stay calm.

"Sister... How's mom?" Nita asked confused and looked very anxious. Makes Doni follow worried.

"We're gonna wait for my mom in the harbor." I said with complete confidence. Mom can take care of herself. Mom must be okay. But in my little heart there was a beam of anxiety that I pressed deep into his bottom. I'd like to suggest to my sisters that they don't worry about mom.

"Tok..but.tok..."

The sound of knocking on the door gave me hope.

"She opened the door, was it my mother?" my orders to Nita who is still sitting on the edge of my bed.

A man was standing at the door. The man was wearing the uniform of the ship's officer.

"Good day deck, the ship's already docked. Please get out of the room immediately, and please check his luggage not to be left behind." The man reminded.

"Yes, thank you for being told. Sorry we fell asleep." Answer me for a reason.

I immediately got ready and invited my grandfather to come out. When the officer left us.

I breathed a heavy sigh in my heart. "Where's mom? Oh, my God, don't separate us again." My prayer in my heart.

Even though my head still feels heavy because the dizziness strikes me again. But I'm strengthening myself. I can't fall. The safety of my sisters now depends on me.

We also packed up with other passengers. To get off the ship. Both me and my two sisters tried to find their mother in the middle of the crowd of passengers.

When there was a woman in front of me who had the characteristics of a mother, I immediately pulled the hands of my sisters to walk faster. They were looking for a way to get close to the woman. But when we got close to him, we were disappointed.

That woman is not my mother. We were out of the boat, a lot of porters and touts were pulling other passengers. My heart trembles. How can we face them?

Nita took over, she barged out of the way until we got out of the harbor. We stopped by the highway. I'm flustered. How about this, where should we go? What about mom? Where is Mom, whether it has gone out of the ship or not - do not still remain in the ship.

Oh my God, I'm really desperate. Don't know what to say. I was crying in my heart. And I pray to God that we may remain united.

For a long time we sat on the sidewalk covered with acacia trees. I don't know what we should do yet. So we just wait, waiting for a miracle from God. Suddenly there was a voice of a woman calling us, from a car.