Don't Call Me an Actor
New Place

I just nodded weakly. Is Mama Angga different from her child? I see Angga's mama is beautiful, she said softly. That fact makes me calmer.

"Ana. I'm sorry my mom's son. Forgive Angga, this is all mama's fault. If the past can be fixed, mama wants to change Angga's past." Mom Angga took a deep breath.

"The late father Angga was a soldier, he was very disciplined and hard in educating Angga. That's why Angga became like this." Mama Angga paused her story again. This time his face looked very sad and lost.

"As a child, his papa often beat up Angga. You know, a soldier who can pressure on duty. Bringing his troubles home. The victims were his wife and son. That is why Angga grows up to be arrogant, angry and often out of control. Ana, mama keeps trying to treat Angga's mental problems. Various types of therapy have been done for her. But until now it has not yielded results. It even seems like Angga's mental disorder is getting worse." Mama Angga sobbing.

"Ana. Mama was desperate. Last year Angga almost killed his fiancee. Grateful they failed to get engaged, so Ratih did not have to suffer. Apparently unbeknownst to me Angga married you. Make mama can't stop her cruelty to you An..." Mama Angga, back sobbing, she stroked my hair and kissed my forehead. A tear fell on my cheek.

"Ana... Do you love Angga?" Ask Sherly's mom to arrive. It makes me confused to answer. I'm speechless. A few days ago I did fall in love with Angga who treated me very well. But after learning of his cruelty to me, my growing love withered. Leave the pain that makes me can only hate Angga.

I shake strongly. "Our marriage was just a compulsion" I said desperately. I feel like Mom Sherly is smiling. I don't understand the meaning of his smile.

"Ana. You are lucky, at least you can easily leave Angga. If you stay by his side, I don't know what madness he'll do to you. If you think of me as a mother, you will listen to my mother's advice. Leave Angga. It's for your good. Mama doesn't want you to have a worse fate." Mama Sherly stroked my hair.

"Ma... How do I stay away from Angga? I was afraid, with his power he would easily find me. There are also my mother and sisters who I don't know where they are at the moment." I said with doubt that I could not hide.

"Mama will help you. Trust me and you'll be happy living away from Angga's disorder." Mama Angga's words gave me hope.

"Three more days, after you recover, you and your family will be sent to a place that Angga will not be able to find. Now you have to rest a lot. So that your body recovers quickly and is ready for a long journey." Mama Sherly kissed me on the forehead again, before she left me alone.

Here I return alone, staring at the sky-room. Considering all the events I've been through lately. This past week my life has been really like a roller coaster. There was a time when my life was raised so high with all the attention Angga gave me. And immediately felled me with Angga's cruelty that almost took my life.

"Non't sleep yet ?" greet the nurse as she enters my room. He immediately checked his blood pressure as well as his body temperature. All normal. The nurse smiled at me.

"Tension and temperature are normal. The blood test was good this morning. A lot of rest is non." The nurse is gone. I'm holding her back, because there are some questions I'd like to ask the nurse.

"Sust... how long have I been unconscious?" Ask the sister.

"Three days no, thankfully the lady got help on time." Answer the nurse.

"During these three days has Mr Angga come to see me?" I don't know what I'm thinking. Although I hate the treatment of Angga on me. I'm still expecting Angga.

"Only Ms. Sherly is the one who regularly visits the lady here." Said the nurse.

"Is this Sherly's mom's house?" Ask me to make sure.

"This is Sherly's villa in Bogor." The nurse explained.

"Miss, I'm going to let you go first. If I linger here for a long time, madam can get angry. Just take a break, Non." The nurse immediately went out of my room. I returned alone in silence. It's not comfortable to be alone without friends. This room has no television to drive away the deserted. I had to lie in silence. I was too busy with mind wandering aimlessly.

There were raindrops playing beautiful melodies. Makes me feel comfortable and sleep well.

In the morning I was surprised by the touch in my hand. When I opened my eyes, the nurse checked my blood pressure. "I'm sorry to wake you, miss" she said at once upon seeing me awake.

"No papa. I slept really well all night." I said trying to make the nurse not burdened with guilt.

"Miss, why are you trying to kill yourself?" Ask the nurse while being busy preparing for my needs. The nurse's question stunned me. I never had any suicidal intentions. Why should I do it? Does this nurse really not know that her master's son tried to kill me? Yes, it could be this to keep the good name of Angga.

I just kept quiet, didn't want to respond. I'm afraid of wrong talking.

The nurse held my hand. Channeling passion on me. I just nodded. I don't want to straighten out his misunderstandings. But Angga is still my husband. I don't want to spoil his name.

"Miss, how about I help you clean up?" The nurse offered her help.

"Thank you, it looks like I have to study independently. I can shower myself." I said reject her offer of help subtly.

"Well, if later the lady needs help, do not hesitate to call me. Press the red button. I'll be here soon." The nurse immediately exited the room after putting my change of clothes on the nightstand.

Today my body feels fresh. I intend to go to the bathroom because my catheter was removed. Last night the wires stuck to my chest were removed. It feels like feeling freedom.

I immediately lowered my legs from the bed. Not even my feet were on the floor, my whole body was shaking. Both my legs cramp and numb. I almost fell down, fortunately my arms were holding the edge of the bed.

I did not expect, to get out of bed just need to struggle hard. Both my legs are still shaking. I can't give up. With all my might I slowly step my legs. By continuing to strengthen the grip on the wall and all the things I can use the handle. I finally got to the bathroom.

My tears immediately poured down my two cheeks as I reached the closet and sat on it. Was this a success, when I did not die at the hands of Angga? All the uneg that had been stuck in my heart, I spilled it all. Hope all this bitterness is just a nightmare that will soon end when morning comes to pick up.

This morning was the first time I felt like my life was ruined. This destruction is because my love has been played by Angga. I was really down, there seemed to be no new hope I could regain. I do condemn my stupidity. I was too naive, trusting a big boss to easily fall in love with me? Why does love never take my side?

For a long time I was in sadness. I flushed my body with a warm shower. Want to dissolve all my pain and disappointment in Angga. Yes ... I'm determined to part with Angga for good. I'll get her a divorce soon, so I can live my new life. I'll finish my shower soon. My wet nightgown was drenched in the air shower.

When I open the bathroom door together the nurse also intends the same.

"Miss...why is Miss's shirt soaking wet?" the sister asked in surprise and anxiety at how messy I was.

"I'm fine. I'm just impatient because I'm having trouble taking my shirt off." I said I lied to her.

"Let's go, lady, help me get changed." She said while deftly helping me change clothes.

"Miss Ana is so pretty wearing this dress." Praise the nurse when she's done replacing my clothes and dressing me up.

"Thank you for the compliment" I said sincerely.

"Why don't you ask for help in the bathroom?" Ask the nurse to interrogate me again.

"Father, I just want to recover quickly and be independent." My word.

"Miss is beautiful, immediately eat yes non. was the mistress said, this afternoon the lady will leave. As much as possible, miss should eat enough and rest." The nurse's advice to me. I just nodded.

The morning menu is available at the table, rice and chicken soup. I'll eat my breakfast menu soon. Just one swallow, my stomach immediately felt sore. I grimaced in pain.

"Miss. That is why any hard food in the stomach will trigger pain. For a while miss has to really keep eating miss." The nurse's advice to me.

It confuses me again. I never drank insect venom, how could they find poison in my stomach? Don't-don't this work Angga really want to kill me? Did he give me poison after I was unconscious after he drowned me in the bathup?

I don't know for sure and it's actually free to find out. For sure this is all Angga because he is mentally disturbed.

I went back to eating chicken soup rice, after the pain in my stomach subsided. The nurse just watched me eat. He sat on the couch watching me.

"Miss, take care of your health. Going out there, don't eat. If you can eat porridge, also for the sauce and vegetables do not use spices that taste sharp, so that the stomach miss quickly healed." The nurse really. I'm nodding. Even though I just knew her, she never wanted to mention her name. I feel familiar with the nurse. That girl may be far below my age. But he looks very mature and is good at taking care of me.