For the Sake of Heart
What do we do together if we hurt each other.

Aini all night can't sleep. His mind was in a terrible state. His job helped a little. Her husband's finances are unstable. Since returning from Dubai, it has been the same. Salary benefits are insufficient.

"My uniform's already broken is ugly." His eldest son reported that his uniform had to be changed.

"Your son said to your father."

"Iya suda ami, but papa says he doesn't have money yet." Her son made Aini full.

Hearing that Aini could not resist sadness. If he doesn't help how his son can have a new uniform. Silent quiet Aini asked in sending money from her friend to her husband's account.

"This is enough money to buy a child's uniform, you will bring children to the market." Aini handed over a few pieces of five thousand enough to buy her son's school supplies.

"Where is money from ?" ask husband.

"See me" replied Aini.

"It's good" answered her husband. In her heart her husband kept thinking how Aini could have money while she did not give any pocket money. Since his sister has continued to slander his wife since then he has not given any money.

Her husband took her son to the market to buy a school uniform. How happy the child is to get a new uniform.

"Monday, cut my salary with what was transferred." Aini told her co-worker.

"Well, that's good."

"Bak so far how the development there is not last month he said not to go?"

"It doesn't know how it goes yet."

"Trus how's our job? Is it stopped too?" ask Aini.

"For a while, I'll call you back."

"That's when I really need the job," replied Aini lirih. If it stops, where will he get the money again. His heart was a little worried about hearing his friend's explanation.

"I understand that maybe the fans are less or the economy is sluggish again" explained his friend.

"Well even so I thank you there are also deposits, if not many. But good," replied Aini.

"Maybe we'll be home next month so the office here will be closed" he said.

The job offer that had been in Aini turned out not to run long. Because those who have the effort experience less interest losses. They all finally returned home.

Well want how else at least Aini ever earn if only work through hp at home.

"What can I borrow money for?" ask her husband.

"Make what?" answer Aini full of probes.

"I need to go home later."

"Make me already give money to buy a child's uniform where there is my money again, "Aini replied flatly.

"I know you have money, lend it," asked her husband again.

"If you give me money? If you are still there," Aini said.

"Not an online job" answered her husband.

"Now no longer because the business has no way." I don't want to be weak. He was determined to make his money just for his son's needs. Husband's business needs money should be ashamed of his wife. During this time, her husband did not give her pocket money.

"Oh" answered her husband. He thought his wife would gladly close it was not. Allegedly wrong.

"You are looking for work" replied Aini. This is all your responsibility.

"Well I know but my luck is not good work there is not enough salary," replied her husband.

"Whatever else I did you didn't want to hear my words for" replied Aini.

"Can't you? Don't you reveal the past anymore? Now I am not the same as before, if now I have money I will love it into your hands" replied her husband at length.

I don't know between believing and not hearing her husband's words. In the past, her husband did not want to hear his wife's words about anything including finances . Now her husband is sorry. But as her husband's words are less honest sound. As forced so that Aini would break her heart. Again that made Aini doubtful. It is hard to believe because it is not the one time her husband's attitude is like this.

How to help her husband. Later if helped again even more painful. Indeed, the money from the salary of one and a half years is stored and it Aini intends to take care of all the documents he and his children.

He wants to go home to Indonesia. But his heart still had a sense of not being able to separate the child with his father.

It's hard to imagine her son growing up without her papa's affection. Well maybe in Indonesia he has all but a father figure for his son will not be easy to find replacements.

But their lives here have not changed. It's hard to try anything. Not to mention the pressure. What makes you sick is that guests are not invited often come as they please. Not just concerned about adding to the burden.

In her late husband's notice this often ketus talk. Even tend to be rude. Her husband is stressed about work and insufficient salary. When asked, the answer is rude. How not to worry, no one wants to help.

Today, her husband is not working. Last morning went in told to come it was just help free not in the love of money. Go home with a grim face.

"I was anxious about work" answered her husband. Because it is difficult to meet the needs of life with the salary of workers here.

"Have eaten first" persuaded Aini. Aini still has a conscience.

"Where's the food from?" ask husband.

"I bought it" replied Aini flatly.

Her husband ate very well. But Aini can feel that her husband is actually her mind is very upset. He did not want to add to the burden of his mind.

"Dear." Then her husband stopped breathing deeply.

"yes." yeah." Aini was stunned too.

"I want to talk you hear well" said her husband.

"Mmhh speak," said Aini seriously.

"I will go again to Malaysia" her husband replied.

"Trus," answered Aini.

"However I will try again, try to ask for a loan with your friend if there is," replied her husband expectantly.

"I don't not let you go, but all this time you don't entrust money to me, if you later hold my money please go let me take myself from the bank," said Aini a little upset. Because indeed her husband so far is not directly the hands of Aini money work.

"I don't trust my family anymore, now nobody wants to help me , my son's child is difficult my wife is difficult now if I go I just think child and baby," replied her husband cirih.

"Why don't you think about it before, even if now you realize you have nothing," said Aini again.

"Honey believe me" answered her husband.

"Which is there as long as we hurt each other, we are husband and wife but more we hurt each other, and I also sometimes think it is better we just separate," replied Aini loudly.

"Do you not think the fate of children if we separate?" asked her husband astonished by Aini's attitude just now.

"Well it's their fate" replied Aini flatly.

"Trus you don't think sayakah?" ask her husband to wash.

"Why I have to think so far you also do not think of me, we together like forced not to want from the heart, well we can find other women who can fit your customs, you can find other women, can fulfill the wishes of your family, so it is as customary as your brother," replied Aini again.

"Why seek again I have children and quite la you," answered her husband lovingly. In his eyes Aini who was still upset. Honestly, he was wrong.

"Hahaha since when have you had this kind of thought?" aini laughed when she heard her husband's words.

Though from the time he came to the country of the husband he felt his husband was forced to be with him because of the children. And now it is precisely they hurt each other on the grounds that custom is always cornered.

Aini sometimes thinks letting go of her husband might be best. But the conversation just now with her husband Aini could capture the deep regret by her husband. Maybe the chance to be together again should be given.

And hope her husband really open his mind. Not like before. Who always cornered Aini. Now maybe her husband is starting to realize his mistake all along.

"All right I will let you go" replied Aini.

"Please borrow from a friend or anyone" her husband replied.

"I don't dare. Then sell only what can be sold," replied Aini.

"Plz this time believe me dear," said her husband wistfully. Because this is not an easy thing. Looking for a loan who believes it? Difficult .

"Well, shall we see what you say, believe it or not?" answer Aini firmly.

"Our child will grow up, must want more money. The cost is getting expensive," explained Aini's husband again.

Today is the same as before. Change means. I tried to get a loan, but it didn't work. One brother can not count on our turn hard all away. Their turn is hard all docked.

I don't know if only God knows. I hope God helps ease this problem. I asked all my friends who knew anyone would help me. Apparently there isn't. All reason the same.

And Aini doesn't want to try anymore. If God opens the way there, there must be a way.

"Feminine.. What was? Why daydream?" ask son.

"No dear, you've made PR" asked Aini again.

"Not Ami. My notebook's out to buy a new one, ask for Ami's money," he asked.

"Alright take this," replied Aini while thrusting a sheet of hundreds.

His eldest son rushed to the nearest store. Buy the desired notebook. She understood her mother was very sad this late. But as a child, he did not understand. And he doesn't want to ask too many questions. Poor mother will be more sad his heart.