FRIEND BUT MARRIED
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I don't know when I'll feel it..
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Is it because of destiny? Or just the fate of my life? Repeatedly kutanam seeds of romance, but never fruitful. All this time I was just a simple woman, never admiring all the beautiful things beyond the creation of God, which I knew the world was more beautiful than anything. Having a problem that often repeats itself, like D’javu that always repeats, bersemi then withered, withered and then bloomed again, whether until when it will be like this. People say I'm a woman who never appreciates the figure of a man, so how am I in the eyes of God? Do I have to survive in a story that makes me uncomfortable? Or pretend to be comfortable? Nah! I'm not that kind of woman, I can never be blinded by love.
One year after Zidan's departure from my life, I tried to open my heart again to Alex, but unfortunately, it turned out Alex was cheating! Then I left him, my relationship with him was only one month, after that, I tried to open my heart again to another man, the Son. Our relationship was quite long, but when I found out that Putra was a drug addict*ba, I did not hesitate to break our relationship. I feel tired of the name ‘Dating’, I want to get married.
I'm tired of being CAP as a woman playgirls by my friends and neighbors, they think I'm a woman who never appreciates what love is, but clearly, they don't know anything about my ugliness and kindness, only I and my God know. I thought to myself, is there no good man for me? Uh! It was my only negative thought, while my heart said that someday there would be a sincere man who would ask me in the hope that my life would always be happy. Amens.
I have received several invitation letters, only one more invitation letter that has not arrived on the day I have to come to the invitation. Zidan and Rani, Zidan was my first love, while Rani was my best friend, they were both so great, pretending to be good in front of me, it turned out that their hearts were rotten like jackfruit falling from the tree. I admit that Rani has everything, when compared to me, I am just a neatly arranged pebble in her yard, it is sad. Inevitably, I had to come to their wedding to congratulate them on their victory which made me a fool!
My clothes were soaking wet, after my return from the wedding reception building Zidan and Rani which was so luxurious and magnificent. “They are so happy, I envy my god.” I said softly clutching my knees while staring at the rain from behind the window, not feeling my tears fall and wet the surface of the cheeks.
Dret! Dret! Dret!
My phone vibrated a sign that a message was coming in.
“Goodnight beautiful, I know now you must be crying again right?” fill in an incoming message from Adi. Adi is my best friend.
“Where do you know?” repay me
“Obviously I know, I just saw you run from the wedding reception building Zidan jerk to the outside looking for a taxi with a sad face, right?” adi explained
“Hemm.. Only you know everything about me. Why don't you chase me? My umbrella to!, what to!”
“Lo the running already can nandingin the speed of the motor I know not! Just wanted me to pursue you have taken a taxi, of course I do not need to be an umbrella ojeg for lo Sa.. Hahaha” ledeknya which then makes me laugh and can forget the incident earlier.
“Hahaha.. Lo emang most can make me laugh Di, thanks ya” said me
“Ya, back love.. I love Lo” so honestly it makes me frown.
“Honey? Tumben really you talk rich gtiu to me Di? Haha.”
“Ya lupain aja Sa.. Oiyak sory yak I did not make the phone lo, the signal in my place is very ugly, just as rich lo.. Haha”
“Ikh, I'm beautiful tauuu.. A lot of guys like me. Huh!”
“Include me Sa.. Haha, lupain! Yes I've been busy this, see you Sania, bye” he said ending the conversation in sms earlier.
Sometimes I worry about my status being single, yeah! I am single now. I'm afraid no man would love me, love me, ask me to, and that's a nightmare for me, that bad? Do I no longer believe in God's promise that every person will be given a partner? Oh jesus.. I was so scared to forget all that, I murmured. I went to bed and began to sleep, hoping that I would not be afraid of running out of a kind man. Amens.
Everyone, especially for you all the young souls who have stayed tune for me in the afternoon, I am now the same handsome guy who is already beside me.. His name is Adi, you guys already know which one is the one, the second handsome announcer after me, hahaha.. Sehay dong for the handsome Adi, hayy Adi” babble Wili who started onair with Adi.
“Hay is also the brother of Wili who said he was the most handsome first before me, PD really lo, uh origin you know yes, I nemenin lo because Forced! You're lucky I've already metenin Wil, I defend not stopping by the house of the girl I like for the sake of nemenin lo!” obviously Adi, then I heard him wondering about the woman he likes.
“What? Real ones? Sory yes, I never meant you to make me nemenin Di, or lest you prefer me than the same girl, haha.. Not surprisingly yes buddy” exciting Wili makes the atmosphere more cheerful.
“Ahaha, amit-amit seven derivative! Yaudah rather than discussing the unimportant mending we open a theme today.. Is the theme is?” exclaiming Adi
“Resolution in this year, well young buddy, what is your resolution or hope in this year? Send via sms at 08557001083, or mention us on twitter @SweetRadio with hanstag Harapanku, okay. Well if you hope in this year what is Di?” ask Wili
“Gue has not much hope Wil, may my life be full of happiness, and may I not be Jones again, amin”
adi said, I laughed a little at it. The afternoon was getting late at night, I did not feel I was asleep. I let Adi keep chattering to accompany me to sleep tonight.
Hunger woke me from sleep earlier, I opened my eyes slowly, I stared at every corner of the room “HAH? Where am I?” I saw the layout of the room was like a hospital, and sure enough, I was in the hospital wearing all-green clothes. “Why do I have a hospital? You know, Adi” I saw Adi was sound asleep on the sofa, I approached him, looked at him, then slowly woke him up.
“Di, Adi wake up.. Adiii”. Adi woke up, saw me near him, then he hugged my body tightly with a face full of anxiety. Yeah, I can feel it.
“Ikh, release me! Why am I? Why am I in the hospital? Where do I look?” I was curious, and Adi explained everything.
“Night night you pick up the phone from me, he said your body hot, nyokap you know it because the door of your room is a little open, you ngigo here and there, at that time I was on your phone but I did not lift Sa, my truck went straight to your house and brought you here” he explained. I let out a small sigh, then hugged Adi back as a sign of gratitude. My hunger was gone after a few jokes Adi made me laugh.
“Hahaha.. You can make me laugh the most. Oiya, bokap same nyokap where am I?” much
“They I told go home Sa, because there is me who nemenin lo here” he said
“Thank you yes, lo emang the best for me” silent for a moment, suddenly flashed in my mind the words Adi when On air last night “Oiya, suddenly crossed my mind, don't you want to be Jones again? Wh why? Bored yaaa?” I teased him a little.
“Gue is a normal guy who needs a partner Sa life, if there is too long Ngejomblo that I am upset continue” he explained
“Oh, so all this time you've been upset.. Haha. Who is the girl you like?” I was curious like paparazzi.
“If you dengerin me on water yesterday afternoon surely you know who I like Sa” girl
“Gue dread really, the proof I know that you hope in this year do not want to be jones again right? Someone passed me, maybe I forgot my babble while remembering.
“Yes already Sa, lupain just don't need to be in line. If you can know, your expectations this year what?” yells. I fell silent, probing the answer that was in my heart.
“Eng.. I´m.. I want to marry Di, but I have not met the same guy who is sincere and want to invite me to marry”, my answer makes Adi a little surprised.
“What is the biggest hope lo Sa?” ask Adi
“Yes, I'm bosen dating, I'm tired of dating that has no end. I don't want to be hurt again. If if if the girl you like is ngajak lo marriage, what response lo Di?” I asked to make Adi smile knot
“If the girl I like is married now, I will do what she wants, because I am also not just looking for a boyfriend, but also a mother-to-be for my children. If you are both like and love, why not immediately marry, yes, Adi obviously makes me more amazed at him. But I took a breath and lowered my head.
“Hmm, so lucky that girl you like it in. And that means you will marry first dong Di? Don't you want to wait for me? We got married with aja yuuu.. Hehe” exclaimed with a spoiled tone. Suddenly Adi approached me, getting closer and closer, now our noses touched each other, then an event that I never expected happened before, Emmuuaach..! Adi kissed my lips, after which she hugged me and whispered one sentence ‘I LOVE YOU’. My heart skipped a beat, I felt hypnotized by the kiss, I could not say anything, which was clear at this moment I was feeling something amazingly beautiful. “Adi kisses my lips.. And I'm quiet, is this marked that I am too.?” thought wondering. Adi still hugged me, I felt the pounding of her heart as if she was afraid of losing me. I was still silent, Adi let go of her embrace, I looked at her down face, before long she let out a small sigh, as if the incident had caused her to lose a lot of energy. I wanted to say something to her, but my lips were frozen and I could not say anything except to keep looking at Adi and feel the touch of her lips still warm on my lips.
“Ma-sorry I yes Sa” he said suddenly “Gue has been rude to admit it to lo. I do not know anymore how to make you realize that I like and love the same lo” honestly makes me unable to hold the day and stem the tears that feel hot. Adi still lowered her head, then I tried to change the atmosphere that was quite tense to a little relaxed. I wiped my tears and began to divert the conversation.
“Gue do not know if this is a dream or really real, but obviously I never expected before if you dare to do the same thing I” said. Adi began to look at me and explain everything, even though without having to explain it I could understand.
“For the sake of God Sa, I love you so much. Sorry for me because I am so insolent high school, you have to believe that I am really sincere” explained Adi. Seeing her two eyes that started to shed tears made my heart melt and did not want to let her down. Sincere from the heart, I hugged her, and whispered fondly in her ear “I LOVE YOU TOO”.
A month has passed since Adi and I officially dated. Many are happy with our current status. Mom and Dad respect our relationship. Until the moment I invited Adi to dinner at home with my family, she was asked this and that, especially about the issue of cleanup. Oh my god, I'm so happy.
“So when will Adi want to invite this one om child?” ask papa in the middle of dinner. Strictly Adi also immediately answered papa's question.
“If I am ready anytime, next week can also. Stay waiting for the will of Saniana aja” exclaimed Adi slightly looking at me. I smiled in embarrassment.
“Sania, if Adi does not make sure you marry next week how? You want no?” ask papa who is smiling knots staring at mamah.
“Eng.. I don't want reward, mah..” I replied making everyone shocked, especially Adi, his face looks disappointed. “AKU DO NOT WANT TO BE DELAYED, Hahahaha” sahutku make Adi, mama and papa hangers half dead. Adi pinched my cheek, mom hugged me while papa stroked her own chest out of fear that I would let her down, and that was impossible for me to do, because I wanted to get married.
Tonight is a very special night. The wedding dress is ready for me to wear. Mamah looked at me with teary eyes, I knew what was on her mind, but I did not want to make the atmosphere too haru.
“I received marriage Sania Ramadhani bint Agung Ramdhani with dowry a set of prayer tools paid in cash!” exclaiming Adi said his Ijab in front of the penghulu and all who witnessed our marriage.
“SAH?”
“SAAAAAH” Sahut everyone. Praise the Presence of God who has united us. I found sincerity in a friendship that is now a true love.
...Sometimes we have to be more sensitive to what and who is now close to us, because who would have thought, the story......