Help Me Get Divorced
Quarrelling.

"What?" reply cuek.

Furious, I approached him and pulled the collar of the jacket he was wearing. I pull strong no matter our body jumplang both in terms of weight and height. My heart is already sick. Whatever it feels like I can face it. Nothing hurts more than this.

Think about. I sacrificed a lot. Giving up a lot for him. Leaving a job, leaving a family and sacrificing youth to be able to marry. Then this is what he loves.

By God, I don't accept it. I will not be able to understand his actions. Did my cage get him like this? Whaaat!

All this time I've always obeyed. Eating potluck. Never ask for this. let alone jewelry, underwear I never ask. if it can be repaired then I will fix it.

that's what I do because, baby. I can't bear him working all day outside. Not to mention if you make a mistake. He will be a target for superiors. I know that pain is why I never need it. I accept everything he loves. I thought we'd be happy later.

But what happened. He's playing spree? astaghfirullah. Unable.

"Honestly, as long as I'm doing well. Who's she?"

"Who? Who are you asking this?" it's the reply that makes me even more upset. I hit his chest twice. "Who is that demon!"

"When, what are you doing?" tanyakanya.

"Who is he? Who is that woman! What do you do until he saves your name my girlfriend?" cecarku yelling.

I swear, for the rest of my married life I screamed in front of him. It's because I'm angry. Hate to be betrayed while this has never been fulfilled. On what basis was he cheating?

What my lack. I'm loyal. Even when my mother-in-law told me I never took heart. I understood it because I thought her parents were my parents to be respected. I didn't think this was what I got after all these years of service.

My chest was pounding along with my face and eyes were heating up. Tears came down without me to hold. The pain reached the bone.

With a light look I looked at him. He seems to have misbehaved. Caught from the twinkle of a wild moving eye.

"Come, answer, Bang! Who's she?" yell again.

"What are you, anyway?"

My body was pushed automatically I fell with the back position hit the wall. It's hot, but not as hot as this heart. I never want to be betrayed.

"The Dervish!" my yelling. Caring for the devil if the neighbor hears.

"Nobody cheated on Nabila!" the reply screamed anyway.

Huh, she thinks I believe? Get him weird. The meager spending allowance and her diminished attention already showed that she had some one there. Have deposits.

I lift my chin and then hit him in the chest. Then pull the collar back. "Then, who is he? Who gave you your phone number with that name, Bang?"

I was back in the push. Only the difference this time the legs are not able to hold themselves. I fell down with my knees hitting the floor first.

It hurts, it hurts, but it doesn't compare to the pain and anger I feel right now.

I looked at Bang Darwis again. He took off his jacket and pulled me up. My arms are blocked and firmly gripped. Grumpily.

"You checked my phone?" ask him while giving the account a look of nyalang.

"Yes. I checked, who is he!" I'm mad. I hit Bang Darwis' chest many times.

But it seems not to be hard. Let alone complaining, winking. And this is for me a craze.

I let go and slapped him on the cheek. This is the first violence I have committed.

"Dare to be insolent" he replied and pushed. I fell against the wall. My head hit hard.

Dizzy, but I still hold on. The disgust for me is strong. I can't stand it.

I looked at him who was rubbing his cheeks. His eyes reflected hatred. He was ready to go berserk.

But I'm not daunted at all. Even when he came closer I was not at all afraid. I'm not scared!

"You're getting worse."

"I didn't run. I'm just asking who the fuckin' girl is! Who!"

"There's nobody!" yell again

"Liar!"

"Start your insolent. Here you are!"

I didn't even blink when he pushed my shoulder and pulled my collar. The feet began not to touch the floor.

"Bare you? I'm your husband, Nabila!" growled again

I'm not scared at all.

"Certify me!" I said full of intonation.

Eyes rounded. Maybe I didn't think I'd say this. I never asked for a divorce. Don't divorce, deny the talk never. It was proof of my love and devotion to her. But he was like this. The pain was immeasurable. So ill.

"I asked for a divorce.Take me back to my parents' house," I said

"What did you say?" his reply. My body is rising. It hurts even more when one hand grips the neck.

Yeah, I want a divorce. I'm not happy.

"Certify me!" I continued again even though the sound was difficult to come out.

Bugh!

I was lying down after hitting the door. My head's dizzy. Shrivelling. I was relieved to be able to breathe again.

I looked at him again. He came closer and pulled my collar. Body depends again.

"Try saying. Repeat it!" he said glaring. Red eyes. His breathing was also irregular.

Yeah, he's like this. If he is angry, he does not want to play with his hands. Not often, but if we were to bicker then his hands would lightly beat up. That's why I hold more often.

But not this time. I'm not strong. I still have parents. I can still raise Adel. You don't need a man like him. A liar! Cheating on!

My eyes are heating up. Feels like water running down your cheeks. Could this be a reply because I was against the old man for choosing him.

Ah remember my parents getting hotter.

"Certify me. Divorce me, Dervish!"