HIGH SCHOOL RELATIONSHIP-SHIT!
Ungkapin Feelings 61

I turned the door handle, and opened it slowly. I gave my eyes to that large enough room. I'm gonna miss this room.

My steps went in and sat on the bed that Arsya used to sleep in. Although the only thing I remember is how he slept with Vita, but in my mind still keep good memories in this room. We learn together, draw, sing, chat, and much more.

I walked, again paying attention to the room that I had actually memorized. I saw pictures of little Arsya with mom and dad that she accidentally put on the closet door. I opened it slowly, and found our pictures from childhood behind the closet door.

The corner of my lips went up. I remember why he put it inside. He said not to get dirty quickly. Hm...

I saw Arsya's charter from every kind of Olympics he'd ever participated in.

He's a great kid. She's clever. I'm amazed by Arsya who remains that low.

What made me stay here for so long? Am I waiting for Arsya to come home and say goodbye to her? Obviously not.

I just don't want to regret, if one day my feelings improve and can accept Arsya's decision with Vita. I didn't want to regret giving up what was supposed to be his, because I wanted to give it to him from the beginning.

I sat down at Arsya's study table and looked back at her neat book arrangement. Diligent learning, yes. Sorry, I haven't been able to see you. I'm weak, my feelings can't be lied to. But I will miss you anyway.

I pulled the drawer and put something in there.

I couldn't speak directly, so I wrote to Arsya, so she could read. But don't read it immediately. I'm not strong if it turns out you followed me to the airport.

When I finished, I went out and found Mother and sister Dance in front waiting.

I smiled and hugged Sister Dance. People who always care about me even though they are chatty.

"Thank you, brother. Sorry Ari was stubborn all along."

"Yes, you're stubborn. Hicks." Sister Dance cried. "Why sudden, Hm? You don't let us get together for the last dinner before you go.hiks."

"Sorry..." I closed my eyes and let my tears flow.

Me and sister Tari often fight small. He always bothered to take care of me and my living expenses all this time, because papa and mama sent money to sister Tari. And now, he won't bother anymore because of me.

After that, I hugged my mother.

We cried for a long time without a word. I hugged my mother, who I considered my own mother very tightly.

"Thank you a lot, Bun. Ari was lucky to meet my mother. Ari dear to mother." I said with a sobbing.

"Mother loves Ari too." Mother rubbed my back. "So good boy, yeah. Studying really. If you miss, Ari just come back here. The house is always open to Ari. Yea?"

I nodded, then let go of my mother's embrace. "Sorry Ari, I have a lot of ngerepotin mother."

Mother took my hand. "There's nothing nerepotin. Ari the mother's son. You should take care of Ari."

So sincere. I always thought, why wasn't I born from the womb of a woman like my mother? I'm sure I'll be as happy as Arsya who has a warm family.

"Sir Arii." The children who had gone home from school ran and hugged me. They cry, like a ritual that always happens if there are members of the parlour who leave.

After saying goodbye, I waved my hand and the car took me to the airport.

Heh. Fatiguing. Today was exhausting.

Papa clasped my hand, "All is well?"

I nodded and Papa smiled. Take a look out the window.

Honestly, something's not right. My feelings. Something stuck up and I really wanted to get it out. If I could, I would do it. I want this overflow deflated so I can breathe a sigh of relief. When can I do it? I don't know. Maybe later, after I get to Russia...

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I haven't actually calmed down since. Like not wanting to leave this city, but also not wanting to linger here. I was confused even though my choice fell on Papa.

This changed man is my father. I don't want to stay away, especially the warmth I want to continue to feel. Indeed, there must be something I sacrifice, namely the school period that began to be beautiful with 3 of my best friends. By the way, Karin has opened her letter yet, yes.

My lyrics clock. I leave in half an hour, and I expect something. My eyes wandered around looking, who knew someone had come to take me.

But who? Arsha? Yes, it is impossible. Earlier, said mother, Arsya to the school fulfilled the call of the principal with papa.

Mother did not explain anything about it, because mother also did not want to remember the incident again.

"Ready, baby. We're going in." Papa said to me. Then he went back to chatting with his friend who drove us.

"OIMGAAAA!!"

EH?

I saw three people running and looking all the way here. Karin's voice sounded again calling my name.

I got to laughing. Oh my, they ran away from school?

"Your victory?"

I nodded at papa.

"Yes, you wait upstairs." Papa dragged the suitcase aided by his friend and I then waved at the three. They also ran towards me.

"Ariva. Ariva, where are you going?" Karin asked, holding both hands.

"Follow to Russia."

"Huh?" The three people looked shocked. "Holiday, right? You didn't move, did you??" Karin asked again with a panicked face. Sweat appeared on his forehead, they must be tired of having to run around.

"Gue. move, Rin."

"Sorry, I didn't tell you guys. I'm.."

I stopped my words as Karin hugged me.

"Gue already has a very rich theme lo, Va. I am sad that you want to move. But I also understand, that you're very heavy."

I returned her embrace tighter. "Thank you so much for knowing.."

Sad yeah. Why haven't we met before, Rin. Actually I thought about this. I'm hard to break up with you guys, but I'm not strong enough to stay here either. Besides, I also need papa beside me.

Karin let go of the hug, then Kai stepped forward. He was holding the letter I put on Karin's desk earlier. A letter saying that I'm going to Russia at 12.

"Bo, I. I want to say something."

"You know, I bought a drink, Rin." Hajoon pulled Karin's hand and moved away from us looking for a drink machine.

This time I stood face to face with Kai who looked different.

"W-we sit down first, yeah."

Kai and I sat down. For a long time we kept quiet, confused by the suddenly awkward situation.

I looked up as Kai sighed. Then he sat down to face me.

"Lo.. will you go back, Bo?"

I shook my head. "Neither know, Kai. I'll netap there."

"So.. you really left us?"

I don't know if I'm going back. If asked, I must be confused but realize I will miss this city.

"Ariva, actually, I want to tell you something."

Kai said my name. Something strange in my hearing.

"Gue knows maybe this is not the right time for you. But I don't know when I can say this honestly, because I've long felt something different."

Kai, what are you really saying?

"Ariva, I. like you."

Wh-what.

"Gue know this sounds weird, because I don't know why this could happen."

I had a big lip when I realized I was gaping for too long. These.. Kai's.. Confess again?

"Gue know my behavior so far has not shown that I have feelings for you. I purposely hid this because I don't want you to be comfortable with me. I also don't know when this started to happen, but for sure now, I don't want to mess around because I've already harbored this especially you want to go."

"Kai, I-I"

"Sttt!" Kai put his index finger on my lips, making my eyes widen.

"Don't answer. I didn't ask you to answer. It's just a saying I want to tell people I like."

I was silent with my heart beating. I don't think, I really don't think.

'Hello 'Hello. Passengers of flight 56K76 bound for Moscow with stops in Doha, please boarding from gate C2, and please have your boarding pass ready and make sure that you have collected all your carry-on baggage. Thank you.'

Airport Announcement has been heard, asking its passengers to immediately enter gate c2.

Kai stood up and retreated slowly as the other friends approached. I haven't been able to say anything yet, and Kai smiles at me.

It was time, I stood up and held my bag.

"Kabarin us if you've been there, Va." Karin came over and hugged me again.

"Thank you for coming."

Hajoon raised his thumb and smiled sweetly. "Safe flight, Ariva."

I smiled because I was still very confused. But Kai, he looks so ordinary.

I took one step up to the escalator, and the stairs were running.

The three of them waved their hands as I slowly climbed upstairs.

I'm lambaian their hands. Sadly, I almost cried.

Once again, I spread my gaze across the space below, looking for someone I somehow expected to come to.

Nonexistent. He ain't coming. I can't take any sugarpin.

I. can't hope for anything.

TB

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