I Finally Surrender.
In-law attitude.

Before returning to ride in my parents' house we had lived in a boarding house for a year.at that time I decided to get out of my parents' house, because I felt ashamed of my parents for the attitude of my husband who often came home drunk.

Like that night, it was twelve o'clock at night my husband had not yet visited Kemabli home.I kept thinking because when he came out of the house he did not tell me where he was going.

Until the clock showed at one o'clock in thirty minutes, I heard the sound of my husband's motorbike just arrived.I immediately came out of the room to approach my husband, when I was close to my husband I smelled the pungent aroma of alcohol from my husband's mouth.

"Where have you been all day??" despite being annoyed by my husband's behavior, I kept asking with gentle intonation.

"From a friend's house." lightly my husband replied, before entering the house.

Although my parents own house, but I feel bad with other family members, when my husband came home in such a condition.

Finally something that I was most afraid of all this time happened as well, probably because I could not bear to see my husband's behavior, for the first time my mother commented on my husband's attitude.

"Wid, is your husband not bored almost every day drunk like that?? honestly, I can't stand to see his attitude with you" said my mother who doesn't like her husband to come home drunk like this, because every time my husband gets drunk my husband often says harsh words to me. I can understand my mother's feelings, which mother would accept if her child was abused even though it was her own husband.

"Until when do you want to survive with a man who has no intention of changing his attitude for the better, if he has absolutely no intention of changing his bad behavior you better split up!!." just this time I saw my mother was so angry, that even I who could not say the word could only cry.

My husband has now entered our room in staggering condition.

On the one hand I want to obey my mother, but on the other hand I remember my son's future, I don't want my son to not get a father's affection.

I try to give understanding to the figure of the woman who has risked her life to give birth to me into this world.

"How can Widia be separated from Hardi mas when Widia has just given birth to Widia Bu's child?? it's not that Widia wants to be an ungodly child by opposing the decision of the mother, but Widia does not have the heart to see Widia's child have to grow up without knowing the figure of her father." broke my tears in front of my mother, until my mother also cried because she did not have the heart.even then my mother even said a sentence that made my tears increasingly not stop flowing.

"I'm sorry mommy son, because I've wrongly chosen a mate for you son. If it's your decision, I can't forbid it" finally the sentence was thrown out of my mother's mouth.

"Mother need not apologize, mother is not wrong, maybe this has become a decree of God that Widia must live with sincerity" I said so that my mother did not feel more guilty, so that my mother did not feel more guilty, considering before the husband came to propose to me, my mother was the one who chose him to be a husband for me. At first I also refused because I did not love him, especially when I was very young. but because my mother continued to insist, in order to obey the woman who had bet my life gave birth to me, I was willing to marry mas Hardi.

Unlike my mother, my father was a patient figure, he did not even comment at all. although I knew my father also could not bear to see me have to continue to live with a man who has absolutely no intention of guiding or making me happy. for my father happiness is not even material, but material, living the household heresy by looking for the divine ridho is happier, as simple as my father's wish, against his daughter-in-law.but unfortunately it is simple that can not be fulfilled by my husband, my husband, especially more than that.

Since living life in a boarding house my husband's attitude began to change, the husband began to stop drunk, he was more focused on making a living as a driver in a well-known company in the city we live.

I thought the test would stop there, but it turned out that I was wrong when my noble husband changed better, now even my mother-in-law always blames me. more precisely my mother-in-law is looking for my mistakes, so that she can continue to corner me.

One of them when my son does not want to suckle me, automatically I have to give formula milk to my son. By giving formula to my son alone has become a big mistake in the eyes of my mother-in-law.

If the reason he was angry for the reason of his grandson's health I might understand, but this is different, my mother-in-law was angry for the reason that giving formula to my son would only add to the burden for her son. even though I was forced to do it because every time I breastfeed, my child feels difficulties maybe because of the ******* on my breasts reluctant to come out until my child cries because it is difficult to suckle me.

I've been trying to pump my ASI, but over time my Asiku decreases and even a few months after Asi no longer out.

Almost every day my mother-in-law comes to our place, she comes even just to nag me while my husband is away at work.Small things can make my mother-in-law angry even seem to hate me.

Like that night, when I was putting my son to sleep, I was surprised by the sound of a kick from behind my door. It suddenly made my son open his eyes and cry.

"Open!!." shouted my mother-in-law as I was about to open the door.

"What's the matter?" I asked when the door was open.

"You if you use the motor behind dong, you think it's your ancestor's motorcycle!!." my mother-in-law's insults sounded so heartbreaking, yet once I still respected her.

"But papa's motorbike is not here mah, maybe again use the same mas Hardi" I replied.

With a look of disgust my in-laws passed away leaving our boarding house, having previously kicked the door rudely. Fortunately my son was in my arms, so that my baby was not surprised by the sound of a door kick.

Sometimes I feel tired of my mother-in-law's treatment, especially if I complain of in-laws' rude behavior to my husband, let alone try to give understanding to his mother, my husband even blamed me.

Actually I told my husband about the rude attitude of my in-laws to me, so that my husband can give a little understanding to his mother, but all that is just hope, let alone give understanding to his mother, let alone give understanding to his mother, my husband blamed me for not contacting him when his mother came, but he knew I didn't even have a cell phone, so how could I contact him.