If You're a Mate, How else?
About the Heart

"For the first time, I felt a different beat when I saw the girl. A feeling I haven't felt in years. Debaran that makes me want to chase and have it."

"Once again, the universe surprises us by bringing us back together."

"Honey seems to be in a big shock. She refused to marry him, to the point that I was ashamed."

"Based on unique girls, usually other women like to get a surprise from someone. But he's angry. Makes me even more anxious and curious."

"First time staying up just to wake Yayang worship. Although I know, he's really just an excuse, but in my spirit I follow the path he makes."

"It's useless to go home a day ahead of a task if I can finally be one step ahead to have the girl."

"Yeahahh..." My head felt like it was about to break when the Babas' writings danced on the head.

My feelings are so mixed knowing the contents of Babas' heart. There was joy, sadness, even though I was so scared at first.

Why does he like me that much? While I myself had a crisis of confidence in the man who claimed to like it from the first meeting. How to believe yes, people who have known for a long time can make me disappointed. Moreover, dealing with new people, I must be more vigilant and not easily trusted.

It all started with my bad experience with Nico yesterday, teaching me not to put my heart on the opposite sex so easily. I didn't know Nico for two years. Several times we even involved a project together to make us more familiar. So familiar, Nico and I have memorized each other's characters. From starting something you like, until something sensitive for each of them does not need to be explained again. Anyway, I'm the same Nico understands each other. Clops fill each other up.

In fact, our communication is like a person who has a special relationship. Just the same him, the partner brawled and fondly repeated over the past few years. Just a couple of times Nico and I were in a gossip account because we were that close. But because of my love for Nico, I didn't think of it as a burden. In fact, I am proud to be able to enter a gossip account with people I love.

In fact, that's not enough. Nico suddenly walked away and disappeared without news to make me curious. I called him a few times, but nothing. Nico seemed to change the number and completely disappeared without a trace.

If I can be honest, until now I still wonder where Nico actually is? Why did Nico suddenly move away? But we didn't fight. We met intensely again. But why did he leave me when I was so comfortable with him?

Lying that I haven't missed that damn guy. At least, we had salt acid together. We shared grief and laughter together despite my family repeatedly warning me to stay away from the man. But I ignored their warnings. As long as I am positive with him, why should I stay away? Again, probably because I'm bucin.

And it turns out, the man I cheated on my heart a few years back — even without the declaration of our relationship status to people. It was he who broke my heart and changed the way I looked at love, whether it made me hard to believe or maybe... I'm already numb. To try to move on I still fail to continue, even though in front of others I always look okay. But not with my heart.

Then, meeting Babas who suddenly married, made me like a dazed person. I'm afraid he's just playing with my heart like Nico. Although people say do not suudzon, just live first. But it's not as easy as they say. Isn't that a form of self-defense not to fall into the same valley?

So naturally dong, I continue to reject Tian raw because yes indeed do not believe in such a man. Moreover, the Babas classified as aggressive by approaching my family first. It makes me uncomfortable and uncomfortable.

You know, if something is less srek and makes it less comfortable if forced how? Ask each other's hearts. Because everyone has a different perception of this. Let alone complicated heart things. The matter of eating rice Padang use a spoon or hand is still a debate until now. Both eating.

But after reading all the Babas' notes about me, what should I do? How do I get this book back to its place? How should I behave? Everything's getting more complicated.

Undeniably, I now believe Babas's words to me thanks to this notebook. Although several times he lied with the intention that I understand and accept it. Like the incident of gudeg and krecek yesterday that he actually did not like both, but still forced himself to devour it until the toilet. Also about the fast I was going through even though he actually knew I was just grounded. But everything became a separate revelation after I read the note.

"Honestly for two weeks without communication with you, I'm sorry Yang. Mas nyesel why ask you to think again about our relationship while Mas tormented with his own longing."

And now, you torment me, Mas. You tortured me with guilt. Why is it here, as if I was acting as an antagonist who rejects the kindness of a young man extending his hand? Though at first, I myself did not believe enough that the man would actually hold me or he just pulled and then released me until falling back like Nico did? Again, the note again broke all my negative thoughts about Babas.

^^Tumbas Tabas :^^^

^^^The new shampoo hotel, Yang. I was looking for McD first because of the laper. Turns out it's good to eat junkgood at night if the laper again huh? Thanks for the recommendation, Yang. Unfortunately, I'm not with you. Have a good rest, Yayang. ^^^

Instantly my heart rippled to read the chat from Babas. God, why is he still so good after I decide?

Unintentionally, I pressed the phone button and was shocked when Babas picked up my call on the first ring.

"Mh.. Sorry for the squeeze," I replied nervously.

"Oh. I thought I called Mas on purpose," he said.

"So. Just squeezing. Was it until Mas? Have a good rest, huh..."

"You too" he answered short.

"Yes, I'm closing, Mas" I'm confused to say anything else.

"Yes..."

"Yes?"

"We're still friends, right?"

My heart's getting worse, "for sure. Mommy..."

"If friends... Can I still go home?" tanyakanya.

"Boleh Mas. Wasn't be saying goodbye to Mama," I quipped.

I know from there he smiled, "sorry... I can't say to your mom. Maybe—"

"Casual Mas. We are not divorced. Don't be that formal" I replied. I don't know why I'm relieved too.

"Yes yeah? So then.... Mmm..."

"What?" soft ask. Enjoying the baritone voice of Babas who may be in the future I will rarely hear.

"Thank you, you don't hate it." Babas' heart made me stifle. Instantly my voice felt dull.

"Ehm... Me also. Thank you for always being so good with me. Sorry for my impudence on—"

"Oh no. You're not at all insolent, Yang. Everything you do, it's very natural," he said as if understanding me.

"I'm sorry I get so angry, Mom," I regretted.

"Yes..."

"Yes?"

"You're sweet when you're tame like this."

...Eeeeeeeaaaa.... Babas is still a flirting bestieeee......

...Weesss... Bubbahar... Yayang Babas is done. Hehe...