If You're a Mate, How else?
Regarding Confession
And here we are, after Nico came to me. In a small cafe located not far from the funeral home.
Nico deliberately invited me to go to have a one-on-one conversation with me. I'm actually sick of it. But the other side of my heart was wondering why Nico would leave me without a word.
"Healthy Ko?" I said pleasantries because from earlier Nico was still silent.
Nico just nodded his head slowly. His eyes were puffy, his body looked lethargic. Maybe he hasn't slept all night.
"Which, I want to apologize," she said in a slightly raucous voice and then cleared her throat.
"Make?" manya curious.
"Make everything I've done to you" he said.
The atmosphere dominated us. I don't know what to say to Nico. To be angry, it feels stale. Especially now that I have allowed new people to fill my heart. And to ask for an explanation, I could not power after Ma'am Retno had whispered that Nico Boy's girlfriend. I swear, I can't believe it. It feels like you don't mince Retno's mouth, gossiping not about.
"Are you okay, Ko?" my many. Instead of discussing the past, I was concerned to see his condition being a little messy.
Nico looked at me, I saw clear water beginning to bathe his eyes. Nico hurriedly blinked while looking the other way.
"I've been mean to you, but why are you still good, Yang?" the murmur I still hear.
I took a deep breath before answering Nico's words. "Ko, honestly I'm angry. I'm disappointed. I hate. L'm... I don't know if I should talk to you after what we've been through together. I think we have the same taste. In fact here, it's only me that's sky-high in despair like you, Ko. I'm shy. All this time I thought of Koko as a special person to me. I even oppose my family who disagree with our closeness. But it turns out—"
"Sorry," Nico cut off while looking at me. His face was still handsome as usual even though the look of sorrow was so noticeable there.
"I'm sorry, Yang. L'm... I can't refuse the other side. As much as I tried to resist, the impulse was stronger" he explained.
Refuse what? What impulse? Don't tell me that what Ma'am Retno said was true.
"I love you, Yang. L'm... I don't want to ruin you with me like this" he replied.
"How is this?" many finally.
Long Nico fell silent. He plays on the table like a confused person. I just stared at Nico's behavior without speaking.
"I'm..."
"I..."
"I'm bisexual, which. I'm sorry. I—"
I pinched my temple slowly. I can't believe he admitted that he... God, what kind of madness is this?
Nico looked at me disappointed. "Sorry, Yang. I suddenly disappeared because I honestly couldn't bear to say goodbye between us. I'm very comfortable with you. I love you, very. But I also do not want to destroy you with me who is already dirty," he explained.
"Who is your Bf, Ko? What —"
"Boy," his great-grandson was weak. "I'm close to you. But I've been in touch with Boy longer," Nico looked down. He refused to look at my bead.
"Crazy! Why are you the same with me, Ko?" ask me in a low voice. I clucked while throwing my face away. I swear, I still can't believe it.
"I love you, Yang. I realize I was wrong. That's why I'm out of your life."
"Keep boy—"
"He knows everything, Yang. Sampe Boy closed his eyes yesterday, he's the one who supported me" he admitted.
Support what? Support your dumping hole? Gee whiz... I'm really crazy to be crazy like this. Fucking nico!
"I'm sorry that I wasn't honest with you from the start. I thought, I could change until Boy himself pushed me to change. But it turns out I can't. And Boy needs me more than you do" he said.
"So all this time, I was just your backup? Your affair? That so?" my ketus. Nico just kept quiet and didn't answer.
More than crazy like this. Djuancok is Nico!
"I'm Denger Boy hit—"
"I'm clean, Yang. I checked into the hospital" Nico always knew what my heart was. See, there's no need to say much, he knows exactly where I'm going. This is what I like about him.
"Seriously?" my many.
Nico nodded, "I brought the letter, really. If you don't believe me," Nico opened my handout slingbag on her birthday yesterday, then pulled out an envelope with the logo of one of the hospitals.
Without me opening, I trust Nico. He seems to know that I'm afraid of getting infected. And I'm so grateful that Nico didn't get the deadly virus.
Pantes alone all this time Nico often kissed my temples, cheeks, and head if we were both again. This also includes the scenario.
I don't judge anyone else who has a sexual disorder. I don't care even though my heart always asks 'why can?' But I never got my heart to ask that. Although long ago, Boy had told me that it was his destiny. I don't know, I don't get it. It can heal or I don't know. What is clear is that I simply listen to people's stories about the disorder, without deepening it to look for the disorder. But if he is also related to me like Nico, who is not uncomfortable? Who is not afraid? All my life, I didn't expect to get zonk like this.
I think Nico's a normal guy. From the movements, behavior and even his habits did not show that he had abnormalities. But it turns out....
"I'm sorry, Yang," Nico said for the umpteenth time. "I'm sorry," his voice came back raucous.
"I'm being asked by another man, Ko," I replied, not connecting with Nico's words. I play the ring that's on my sweet day.
"I know," he answered.
I looked at Nico. He was also staring right at my bead, "i saw from earlier the ring," he said with a smile.
"I thought you knew him!" my ketus. I swear, I'm afraid Babas is even flirting with Nico as well.
"No. Who is that guy? I know you too?" tanyakanya.
"If you know, you'll move on too, Ko!" my ketus.
Nico chuckled softly, his eyes missing as he chuckled. "Let's not. I've been the same Boy and you. Nothing else," he said back seriously.
"I should be angry, kesel, hate you! But I can't" I'm honest with Nico. I feel sorry to see it. Who knows in his little heart, Nico also wants to be normal like other humans.
"i know's. The one I know is angelic" he said with a smile.
"Kc... No need to gimbil. Not bad!" my ketus.
"Seriously Which. Actually, from the beginning I wanted to admit this to you. But I enjoyed our moment so much that I fell asleep. Finally Boy got sick and I had to leave you alone. Every day I am haunted by guilt. And now, when Boy isn't around, I can just be honest with you."
Nico again smiled, "I'm sorry, Yang. Will you apologize to me?" tanyakanya.
"To be honest I'm still in a sniffle. But yes," I sniffed.
"Thank you, Yang. Sorry if I let you down. You're angry, you hate me, I accept. I was wrong" he admitted.
Clearly it is wrong! Crazy, my rival turned out to be a bar. Not a pretty girl I envy.
"And... Congratulations, Yang. Congratulations on finding the man you deserve. Even though I don't know anyone, I'm glad to hear it. But, he's not an escape, is he?" whiny.
Basic tengil. Still a puck.
"No! Just crazy. It's a heart, not a playground that people can play as they please," my ketusku seemed to hold my chest.
Nico laughed softly, "thank God. I'm really calm right now" said Nico.
"You... Don't mean to kill yourself, do you?" tanyaku.
"No, Yang. I'm not that crazy." she answered to me.
"Boy's been sick for a long time. I'm taking care of it, Yang. We also had to move to Bali so that Boy can calm down while treatment there. But Boy finally asked to come back here, two weeks before God took him. I have been preparing myself for a long time when this happens. And... Yesterday, right after she took a shower, she..."
"Patience, Ko. Everything will come back to him. Just wait for your turn," I said to cheer him up.
Haaaah... Is there anything more crazy than me? Did you know it was an abnormal male escape but I still support it?
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