IMPERFECT MARRIAGES
Chapter 2 - (Revised)

I haven't had time to decide anything, now Aditya has held my body, with just one pull, it has managed to knock me down on his sturdy body.

My heart was pounding irregularly, this was the first time I was so very close to Aditya. And if he is noticed this close it turns out he is indeed very handsome. It was only natural that so many women were so hoping to be hers.

After almost a year, I realized that now. Of course, it was because I never really knew her face, looking at her was a scary thing, because I knew she hated me so much.

Aditya opened his eyes slowly...

I don't know what he'll do after this. Especially if you see a person who is so hated by him, now is cool on top of his body. Maybe after this he'll kick me away.

I waited long enough for what reaction she would give, but my fear turned, into a question, as Aditya clearly mentioned the name of the other woman before me.

"Don't go Kirana! Kirana." Aditya. I don't know who that woman is.

Aditya hugged me so tightly by her side. Of course the hug was not for me, but for a woman named Kirana, who might be missed by her.

This was the first time Aditya had mentioned another woman's name and looked pitiful in front of me.

"Adit, realize I'm Bianca! ." With a little effort I tried to get out of his arms.

"No Kirana, you're my only one." Aditya, he kept mentioning that name.

"I'm Bianca. Aditya, let me go !."My love.

"Why are you doing this to me?." Aditya looked at me hatefully. He pulled my hair so hard that it raised my face.

I realized that Aditya may have created hell in my life. But I was the one who created hell for him. He was tortured because of this marriage.

"I'm sorry Aditya. If there's anything I can do other than marry you, I might do it."

I don't understand myself why words like that can come out of my mouth. Obviously this guy almost lost his consciousness, which he might care about my words.

Aditya threw his hand out of my hair. Then quickly replaced our position, this time I had to hold the weight of his body above me. 

"It's what you're doing." I asked, trying to keep her away from my body with both hands pushing her chest strong.

"Kirana, my dear !." Aditya whispered softly to me.

"I'm Bianca, how many times do I have to say.  I'm Bianca, Aditya" Shouted.

"Kira ! Bianca ! anyone help me, I miss him" he said. I don't understand who he wants, Me or Kirana.

"Adit ! Don't show me your grief, only I can be hurt, only I can be sick. You heard that ! Enough of me.” My toilet. I know he suffered a lot because of this, but I can't stop. No matter how much I suffer with it, I will not give up.

I feel like if I'm allowed I really want to hug you Aditya, put your head on my shoulder, calm you down. But you don't want me....

Aditya brought his face closer to me, closer and closer, until our lips met each other, Aditya began to kiss me. Such a soft kiss. Until I closed my eyes enjoying every second of Aditya's treatment of me. The originally soft kiss slowly turned very aggressive.

This was supposed to happen the first night of our marriage. If it happens now it feels so strange, almost a year you can only hate me and torture me, even you forget one important thing, that I am your Wife. Should I forget everything?.

I know this isn't the real Aditya, he's just drunk and misses that woman named Kirana. But I don't care anymore, just once, let me be selfish, isn't she my husband. She has the right to touch me and it is my duty to serve her, if she wants Kirana, I would be Kirana for her tonight. 

Without warning this time I offset the treatment of Aditya who was on top of my body, with breath hunting each other, we returned to doing our activities that stopped for a while. I don't know who started this time, this kiss felt so hot, long enough our lips intertwined. Now one by one wear has been dated from my body and Aditya. 

And tonight, I have given my most precious possession to my husband. 

At 07:00

“Ehem Deheman someone made me realize that I'm not alone here.

Jesus Aditya!  I just regained consciousness last night and opened my eyes. 

I vaguely saw the shadow of someone in front of me, until I clearly recognized him. Aditya he was sitting on the sofa which was right in front of the bed I was sitting on, while I was still sitting on his bed covering my innocent body which was still without a thread with his white blanket.

Slowly Aditya stood up from his place and approached me. I can already guess what he will do after this. 

Plaque.

One hard slap fell on my cheek, as I thought he would do. She pulled my hair with one hand of hers and the other clutched my lower jaw firmly.

"What sly woman do you think, huh?."

"Do you want to die Bianca? ."

"Based on a fucking whore, chuiii."

"You took advantage of the situation, for me to fuck you, it's amazing Bianca, I didn't think you'd get that far."

"Why are you silent? ANSWER ME!." Shouted Aditya to me, and tightened his pull and grip.

I felt like screaming for help and crying out loud, but I couldn't do it, it would make me look weak in his eyes. But for God's sake, it hurts so much, what answer should I give him to be satisfied. 

"Take me off, it's not my fault, you're forcing me on Aditya." I tried to defend myself.

"No you must be lying, a crafty woman like you can be trusted." Aditya.

I was still trying to fight back by brushing Aditya's hand against my hair and my jaw, but in vain, his strength was greater than mine.

"Take me off. You and I are husband and wife. That's not the wrong thing. If we do it."

"Suami's wife you said?  Do you want to be my wife now? Don't forget I married you just because of my Parents' request, not because of love."

"But this Bianca that you don't love is the one who's saying the wedding vows with you Aditya!" My speech. I don't know where I got the courage to say those words.

"Don't I love? But still want to sleep with me, think about how low you are now Bianca! ."

After quite a long time finally, Aditya threw his grip on me, it felt so relieved, if only he continued to do it maybe my neck and jaw could be broken made. 

"Don't you ever expect to be my wife. You are just a slave to me ! Even trash is still more valuable than you!  Get out of my room, before I do anything more painful than this" Aditya said. 

“Then why don't you just divorce me ? I'm not your slave ! Since we made the wedding vows. You are my husband. And I'm Bianca Christina ! I am your wife. I kept quiet because I was trying to understand how you felt. I know this isn't easy for you. But this is also not easy for me ADITYA ! And for everything, I'm really sorry. Maybe I've ruined your dreams.”

“CLOSE YOUR MOUTH ! AND GET OUT OF HERE.” Snapped Aditya with a shout full of hatred and wrath.

After being thrown out by her, I tried to get up as hard as I could, my body still hurting from last night's incident. But I had to get out of the way before Aditya came out and saw me still in front of his door. Or something worse will happen.

With heavy and half-limp steps I walked away from the place, returning to my bedroom. I lock and close the door to my room. Then I leaned myself behind it.

My tears can fall free now, without being witnessed by that cruel person. In my heart I screamed.

Oh God. What good am I to be in this world. You gave me life and now I'm wasting it, with someone like Aditya.

Why don't you just take my life. What is the point of living just to be trampled and humiliated. Either I'm blaming my God or I'm asking for His mercy.