IMPERFECT MARRIAGES
Chapter 8 - revision

Sometimes I say I am so happy to live with Him.  In fact, it is I who do not want to separate. I don't know for what reason ! I'm hanging on with that rude guy. Sometimes I wonder, what is it that makes me give up this beautiful life, for someone like her? Will there be a future for my marriage? 

I kept thinking about her, twirling our ever-circling wedding rings in my sweet day, I was just thinking, what will one day, this ring will mean nothing anymore? Or after this me or him alone will release this ring. 

After continuing to drag on in my own mind, I was made to flinch from the daydream as my phone rang so loud. That's my mom, I don't think it's the right time to talk, but I don't have a choice, if I refuse, I'll worry. I controlled my voice as best I could, before lifting it up. 

"Hello Bianca !." Larasati

"Hello Ma'am..."

"You're okay, baby, what's wrong with your voice? ."Ask Larasati.

"My mom's good ? It's just that yesterday Aditya and I were in the rain, so a little unwell? ." Said I was lying. I can't possibly say this all because of Aditya, it will make things even more messy again.

"Is Aditya there? Are you all right? I'll make a potion to wear your body..." Barar Larasati again

"Don't mom. Aditya gave me medicine. It's just that he's in the office now. There's a job he can't leave there ."

"Bianca. You're not covering something up from me, are you? What Aditya..”.

“Mother...I'm kind. You know Aditya loves me very much. He'll be home soon. He promised me.” I don't know how many times I've lied to my mom like this.

“Bianca, I'm honestly really worried about you, there's too much negative news about Aditya out there. Don't you want to stop that at all? ."

"Bianca believes a thousand percent the same Aditya, ma'am. Everyone wants to drop it. But he was too strong to be dropped by anyone.”

"Mom was just worried, anyway You and Adit. You guys should be okay, baby."

"Bianca's mother didain the household yes, let Aditya and Bianca always be fine." My love. I even almost wanted to cry saying that, it felt so impossible to dream of a happy household again after last night's incident.

"Yes, I must be praying. Yes, then, rest. If you need anything you should tell me.”

“Iya mother.”

“Dah dear.”

“Dah Bu...”

Tit. Call ended.

Again I have to defend you Aditya ! Aren't you tired of making this mistake all the time…..

I don't know how many hours I've locked myself in here, the once bright sky, has now changed night. But I was still reluctant to get out of my bedroom. Is Aditya home now? Or is he not coming home tonight?

I'm not my room door slowly. In the current head, I just want to leave, this house is no longer good for me.

Crick.

I opened my door slowly. I did not take a step forward yet, my eyes fixated on something lying in front of my bedroom door. It was a plate of rice, a side dish and a piece of paper.

I'm sorry. Eat then.

Marked

Adityas.

Unknowingly tears just fell down my cheek. The first time Aditya said sorry, after I completely walked out of his life.

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The Flashback

A few hours before Aditya brought a meal to Bianca

Tonight was the first time since Bianca and I got married that she didn't prepare dinner for me, usually when I got home from work my dinner was neatly arranged at the dinner table, although sometimes I was reluctant to touch her, but it got me used to being treated that way by her. And when he didn't do it it felt like there was less here.

Even though I was worried about him, I did not dare to approach him.

I decided to put food in front of the door of his room, I left a letter there, as a sign of my apology.

Flashback Off

“Where are you going?.” Aditya asked, seeing his wife dragging a sizable suitcase out of his bedroom.

“I'll go. You won Aditya. I relented. Do what you want now. Pursue what you've wanted to pursue all this time. Have I not always been a stumbling block to you?. Give me a few days, I'll tell my mom's dad, that we're getting a divorce.”

“Then what are you going to say to them? You're going to say that I betrayed you?.” Ask Aditya to me.

“You don't want me to say it. Alright... Just tell me that I betrayed you. Just tell me that I love another man.” I said, continuing my steps to leave.

Taps. The cold hand held me.

“Wait for Bianca ! I didn't give you permission to go.”

I just threw my suitcase away.

“I will still go ! I can't live with a man who will forever hate me.”

“Cih. You said you loved your mom and dad. You also said you loved my parents. Now you're leaving. You don't think at all about their feelings Bianca !.” Aditya threw a mistake at me.

“It's precisely because I love them. I did all this. What by lying they will be happy? Lookat's us... This is not a wedding at all. You and I are not happy.” My crying.

“After a long time, you just said unhappy with this marriage. Why not just from the beginning, you said it !.”

“Because I know now. There is no reason to postpone it anymore. Now move aside let me go Aditya.” I shook Aditya's hand hard.

“Bianca...Bianca...Okey... Let's talk about this slowly. Listen to this carefully. L'm...L'm...I'm sorry.”

"I've forgiven you, but not about Kirana. I can't forgive the reason you hurt me just because of that woman. MOVE ADITYA” Jerk me.

“I won't step aside. I'm not gonna let you go. Kirana or anyone. That's not gonna change anything. You said the one who said the wedding vows was us.” Aditya again.

"Will not let go of me, nor will your women. You're not sane Adit ! I'd really go crazy if I kept hanging on with people like you.."

"Do you love me, Bianca?."

"No, I can't possibly love a mean person like you." Refuse me.

"But your attitude shows, your love for me.?."

"What's the point, it's too late?."

"Tell me, if that's true!." Aditya.

"Yes maybe... " I said, I don't want to look at Aditya at all.

"Only you will be my wife, no one, and no one will ever replace you. So stay here. You listen, I'm sorry. I'm begging you right now.” Aditya Pinta.

I don't know what reason made him say that. But it made my defense collapse again for the umpteenth time.

“You lied. I don't trust you.”

“No I promise you. We fix everything.” Persuade again.