INFINITE LOYALTY
DARK SHEETS OF PAST WEDDINGS

Radja immediately stood up from her seat, when she saw that Riani had returned from the toilet holding and stroking her stomach with a face full of sweat and looked like she was holding back pain.

"Are you okay, Dek?" radja asked with her worried face.

With great care Radja rubbed Riani's shoulders.

"It's okay mas, this is the only baby grandpa really agile, don't want diem..." Riani will sit back.

"May I hold and talk to our baby-to-be Deck?" ask Radja while helping Riani who looks troubled when she will sit down.

Riani smiled and nodded.

When Radja touches Riani's large stomach, suddenly the baby moves back in response to the touch from his father, looking silhouette of the baby's hands and feet.

Radja was surprised to be happy, without him feeling the tears should flow profusely wet his cheeks.

In the soft smell of the silhouette many times.

"I'm sorry your father, son...Because you can't be a good parent ..." Radja lirih.

Hearing Radja's words, Riani's heart is very sad, there is a feeling of unwillingness to remember that one day his son feels the love of his parents are incomplete, and the love of his parents is not complete, but he also realized that there were other children who needed Radja more.

His feelings were mixed, at most his face to hide the tears that were ready to flow.

"Dec...I'm sorry, I can't be the husband and father responsible for both of you..." Radja said with a trembling voice, full of regret.

"I've sincerely accepted everything Mas, so you don't have to feel too guilty..."

"I'm sorry..." The regretful cry of Radja.

"I have forgiven you Mas, let the dark sheet of the marriage past, we bury it deep, will never be revealed again, because it will only open old wounds"

Radja just nodded, still drifting in his regretful cries.

"So...I beg of you, give us both space, because we just want to live a quiet life without being pressured by the past problems of our marriage, so that our son will grow up without burden"

"Well Deck, I know what's best for our son, and that's the way we parted, even if it's a very hard decision for me, and not willing to give up our marriage, but what's my day...?"

"I understand how they need you more..." Replied heavy Riani, trying to be sincere, slowly Riani's hand stroked the back of Radja's hand, as a form of support.

"Why am I so stupid...So not realizing that I've hurt you so much, I don't deserve you, and I'm sure it's Teddy who deserves to continue my responsibility to take care of you and our son..."

"Mas...Without a surrogate father our son would be happy, because he was surrounded by people who would love him..."

"I'm also sure of that Deck, but...As her real father, I also did not want to be selfish and realized that I could not give her my full love, so I'm going to make her feel the full affection of her two complete parents even if it's not from me..."

"I understand what you mean, you should go home now"

"Umm...can we last walk to the Mall to buy our baby gear?"

"All right..." Riani replied that she could not bear it, even though the baby equipment had been purchased and ready since two months ago, but to keep Radja feeling, Riani agreed to the father's request from the prospective child.

.............

Arriving at the baby clothes store, Radja seemed confused and immediately approached Riani who was sitting back tired.

"Sir, is our son a boy or a girl?"

"Our daughter's candidate is Mas..."

"Is your tired of it gone?"

"??..." Riani only showed her puzzled expression from Radja's question.

"If you are not tired, we should look together with baby clothes and equipment for our future daughters, because you must be more understanding about this"

"Alright, then let's both find and choose"

"Come on! just walk slowly Dek..." Gently rub Radja's hand on Riani's shoulder.

Once again Radja gently stroked Riani's stomach.

Riani just smiled and walked in Radja's footsteps.

...

After an hour they struggled in the baby shop area, Radja finally paid for all the items they had chosen together at the cashier.

After that Radja immediately brought Riani back home in his car.

After chatting for a while with his mother-in-law, Radja was ready to go home, with Riani getting to the car.

"Be careful, Mommy..."

"Yes Dek, you also take care of your health and take care of your content..."

"Yes, emmm...The day after tomorrow it looks like I can qualify you third Mas..." Said Riani quietly and brought her mouth closer towards Radja's ears.

Hearing Riani's words, Radja who had started the car immediately turned her car off in surprise.

"Be...Is that really Deck?!" radja asked stammeredly with her bright face.

Riani just nodded with a smile.

"Now come home, tomorrow the day after 8 am pick me up"

"O...Okay fine! well, later..later tomorrow after tomorrow I come to pick you up, now I'm home huh Dek?" radja answered with a happy feeling.

Riani nodded her head.

"Assynoltom..."

"Wa'alaikum hail..."

Radja restarted her car and then drove her car away leaving Riani still standing in her stomach.

Through the rearview mirror of his car Radja saw his wife enter the house.

Radja does not know whether she should be happy or otherwise, after hearing Riani's decision earlier, on one hand Radja is happy because she can finally stay together again with Riani even if it is only for a moment and for the last time, but on the other hand Radja is also sad because it means Riani wants to be separated from him immediately.

Radja breathed a heavy breath, with his feeling of being upset on the car drive towards his old house, which was a house owned by him with Riani.

Arriving at the house Radja parked his car, then he took a mobile phone in his pocket and called the number listed by the name Lorenza.

Lorenza's voice from across the street answered Radja's call.

"Well, where are you now?"

"I'm in my old house, Za...Tonight I'm not coming home, I want to calm down, please you talk to Gala and tell her that tonight there's no need to wait for me, just tell her I'm working late"

"Yes, I'll talk to him later and give understanding to him, you are calm and okay take care of your health Mas"

"Okay, thanks Za, then I'll finish the phone"

"All right, Mas"

Radja turns off her phone then she gets out of her car and slowly opens the door of the house.

With a slow walk and a look full of sadness on his broom one by one corner of the room.

His memories returned with memories of the times they both lived together, there was happiness and sadness they had gone through.

But eventually Radja's misunderstanding and jealousy that led to his affair made Riani give up and leave home.

Until as an outlet for his frustration, Radja again made mistakes, infidelity for the sake of the affair he did.

Until God punishes him by presenting his ex-girlfriend in the past before he knew Riani, he was named Lorenza and what made him more aware of his sins was when Lorenza came along with a boy who turned out to be his offspring, his biological children and he had a dangerous disease of leukemia.

It is only fair that God has punished him, because it is not enough that only, God also repaid his sins by making him feel his pain in his side, when Radja sees Riani kissing Ethan on the beach.

At once Radja realized how much pain Riani felt when she cheated on him many times.

Tears of remorse flowed down Radja's cheeks as she recalled her sins and the bitter memories she had inflicted on Riani, in her household.

His eyes were fixed on the frame of his wedding photo with Riani perched on the wall.

With trembling hands Radja took the picture frame, with sadness in her swipe many times the wedding photo.

His increasingly swift tears flowed, falling soaked the picture frame he was holding.

Then in his arms tightly frame the photo in a deepening cry of regret for his sins and a very painful loss of heart.

Radja realized if the photo he embraced at this time, will only be a memory in the history of his life, sweet memories as well as bitter memories that will always be etched in his heart and memory.

Radja's cry grew, her body shaken, her voice held back which drained all her energy and mind and left her drooping in a sleep of exhaustion on the cold floor, with his hands still tightly hugging the photo of his wedding with Riani which will soon only be a dark sheet of the wedding past...

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