INFINITE LOYALTY
THE LOVE STORY OF ROLLAND AND ISABELLA

"ISABELLA VANBELRG! it's only fitting that for years I've been looking for you but couldn't find you, it's because you're with your new identity" Rolland said as he walked towards Widya who was walking out of the hospital and stopped his steps after hearing Rolland calling his name and the big name of his family that he had left behind for 33 years.

"Because I'm comfortable and happy with my new identity" Widya replied and returned to her feet.

"Let's sit down and talk" Rolland asked as he walked quickly following Widya's steps.

"Didn't everyone speak clearly last night?" widya replied coldly while still stepping without looking towards Rolland who was walking beside her.

"But I want to be clear about our son Riani?"

At once Widya stopped her steps, which made Rolland a little surprised and reluctantly stopped her steps.

"Have I not been kind enough to give you a chance to be next to her so that you can see and take care of her?! widya asked with her tone of voice that she was trying to suppress because of the emotions in her heart.

"Yes, yes I know, but can we sit down somewhere and talk about this again, please...I beg Bella" Take Rolland in her soft voice, she tries to persuade the woman she still loves so much.

He knows that he is currently emotional, because he knows his character.

"Please Bellas...We'll sit down and talk, okay?" persuade Rolland again while holding gently Widya's shoulder, because the woman who had made him fall in love was still silent without any answer.

Widya just took a deep breath.

Seeing Widya's reaction, Rolland smiled and immediately took Widya to the parking lot where her car was.

Arriving at the parking lot Rolland opened the door of his car and allowed Widya to enter.

After that their car drove away from the hospital to one of the beaches around Jakarta.

.............

After taking a long time, finally their car arrived at the beach that holds memories of their love story first, Rolland parked his car, then he took Widya to sit on the beach.

By reasoning the mats they had rented from the previous rental place, they sat down and continued their conversation.

"Why are you taking me to this place? and what else do you want to talk to me about?" widya asked less comfortable, because this beach made her recall memories first.

"Because this place is a witness to our love story first, and also I want to beg you can I say and admit to Riani that I am her real father?"

"I've given you a chance to get closer to Riani and on condition that you don't tell her your identity and you agreed to that last night, but now you still want to ask for more?" widya asked with a cynical smile.

"I beg Bela, give me a chance to pay him 32 years of debt..."

"If I knew you would be like this, last night when I first found out it was you, then I would never make a deal like that and take Riani away from here"

"Is that what you hate about me, Bel?"

"Sure you know the answer without me having to answer, right?"

"Then what do I have to do to make amends to you two?"

"Just follow the rules we agreed on, never reveal your true identity to Riani, and if you break the promise then I will take Riani away and disappear again from before you"

"Isn't this too cruel for Bella?"

"Sammy said?! because of what I had been forced out of my extended family, and because you trusted her more, I was in search of shelter and a home for my baby!" said Widya who began to get carried away by emotions.

"It's my fault for believing her words too much, I'm sorry..." Said Rolland while trying to hug Widya's body.

"Wasn't we doing "that" I once said if I was pregnant, then whatever happens I will keep our baby" Widya explained trying to dodge, avoiding Rolland's embrace.

"I knew it was all my fault, until I realized and followed my heart that the news was a lie so I was trying to find you" Rolland again tried to hug Widya.

"But it's too late before you realize Rolland..." Widya's cry in Rolland's arms.

Rolland only cried bitterly and hugged the woman.

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"What really happened when you disappeared and I heard that you died while you were about to have an abortion?" roland asked as Widya's cries subsided and broke free from her embrace.

"I was going to have an abortion, but at the will of my extended family, but because I wanted to keep my baby, I managed to escape from the hospital and maybe to cover up the shame and keep the good name of the big family, finally spread the news that I had died" Widya said.

"That's what I heard about you from the woman's mouth" Rolland said in a furious tone.

"Was that woman Cristina, my cousin who you'd marry first?"

"Failure, but I never loved her and never agreed to the match, you know for sure that the woman I have loved until now is only you Bella..."

"It's my fault that I can't take care of you until your heart turns away from me, but I don't mind, because anyway she's the one who's willing to take care of you and Riani..."

"He not only accepted me and the baby in my womb at that time, but he also gave me a warm family"

"But Bel, can you give me one more chance to have your heart?"

"I'm sorry, I still love him so much, because he's the only man who makes me feel that life is meaningful, and teaches me what it means to live by introducing his religion and God, that I may believe in God, who is God..."

"Are you a Muslim now?"

"Yes, so is Riani"

"Thank God, if you have found peace with your religion now, because I am also interested in Islam, it's just that..."

"Don't you ever convert to Islam if your heart is still doubtful, nor will I force you, for it is your right to determine your faith"

"I know that, then..what about my desire to reveal my true identity?"

"I still don't approve of Rolland, please you understand... Riani's current state is unstable, and for her sake I forbid you to do that, you think if she knows your true identity how shocked she is, you know, because all this time he knew his real father was the late Alfiz"

"Well, I'll follow all your wishes, I'll do anything for the good of our son"

"Thank you for your understanding"

"But...I still hope that if later Riani's situation is stable and improving, I can tell her who I really am, I beg Bella..."

"I can't promise you that yet, nor can I guarantee that, when you reveal everything, Riani will accept you as her real father, because from the womb until he grew up he never met you and also I never told him about this"

"Why didn't you tell me the truth when he was growing up?"

"Because of all this at Alfiz's request, he doesn't want me to tell him everything then he will question why his biological father is not with him and find out where you are, Alfiz was worried that all of that would affect the development of his soul"

"What a noble heart your husband, baby...I haven't had a chance to thank him"

"That's why I still love her so much and can't forget her..." Widya's eyes are empty and teary looking towards the end of the sea line, suddenly feeling very missed her late husband.

Seeing Widya's facial expression like that, made Rolland even more desperate, because he felt that there was no longer a chance to regain Widya's heart.

He cannot blame and impose Widya's feelings, however what happened in the past is all because of his mistakes.

It would look selfish to Widya if she overextended her desires over her feelings.

"Hhhh...Alright, I will not impose and demand any rights from the two of you, as long as I can be beside you and see Riani happy I willingly, even though I should be a stranger to you both" roland said finally with a heavy breath, after both of them had been silent for a while.

"Thank you Rolland, and one more thing I want from you, I beg you...Don't ever reveal our past again, I want you to think of our love in those days as a memory, because if I remember that my heart will hurt a lot because of the wounds of my heart at that time..."

"All right, I'm sorry Bel...For making such a big hole in your heart, once again forgive me..." Rolland cried while tightly grasping Widya's two hands and kissing her many times.

"Already, it's Rolland...I've forgiven you, now let's open and start a new leaf as a friend how?"

Rolland just nodded slowly, he was no longer able to speak anymore, especially when he heard Widya's last words, who wanted their relationship to be just friends, only, but what is the power to refuse the wishes of the woman from her child.

Then Rolland immediately hugged Widya tightly, as if it was his last hug.

Widya just silently let the man who once filled her past tightly hug her body, she thought just think of the hug as a sign of her separation from the man in her past.

.............

"Looks like we've been here too long, we better get out of here, Rolland..." Widya said after Rolland let go of her hug

"Well, where are you going, shall I take you?"

"I have to go back to the hospital immediately, afraid that Riani is worried looking for me"

"Alright, come!"

Widya just nodded and got up from her seat and followed Rolland's steps leaving the beach.

Arriving in the car the two immediately went inside and the car drove up and walked off the beach.

The beach they used to go to when they were in love, the beach is full of memories of both of them.

Now...The beach is only part of their memories and bears silent witness to the love story of Rolland and Isabella in the past, a love story that ended in pain and hurt...

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