Istikharah Unites Us
Embarrassment to Recognize

After I thought hard, I finally ventured to say everything that was in my mind.

I went inside my chat column and Bang Rizky.

"Assalamu'alaikum, Bang. There's something Aura wants to say." I wrote. After I looked at it for a few minutes, I sent the message.

Suddenly I felt stubborn, and then I put my salary next to me.

Ah, actually I feel so embarrassed to admit this. But how else? I should try to be open with him.

After 10 minutes of waiting, Bang Rizky finally replied to my chat.

"Wa'alaikumussalam, Ra. Go ahead, just say it, Ra." he wrote.

"Hurm.. I'd better go straight to the point." I said in my heart.

"Working as a chef?" my many.

"Yes, why?" inscribed.

"Aura's not really good at cooking, Bang. Since Abang is the chef, Aura becomes embarrassed."

"Thy? Why should I be ashamed? Haha."

"Yes, because Aura is a woman, but lost to you. Aura cuisine is definitely not as delicious as Abang's cuisine. Perhaps even Abang memorized many recipes, while Aura did not." I explained.

"No problem, if Aura wants to learn surely over time can be good at cooking." he replied.

"Yes, but for now Aura can't pamper Brother's stomach like any other woman."

"If Aura can't do it, it doesn't matter. Because I can pamper Aura's stomach."

"Then it gets overturned donk, Bang. It should be Aura who did that, not Brother."

"Did Aura know my favorite food?" tanyakanya.

"No." I replied.

"I really like stew and chili sauce" he wrote.

"Huh? Seriously, Bang?" my many. I was really shocked when I read the writing.

"Yes, because I think such foods are healthier. I also do not like coconut food, but if once at all it's okay." he replied.

Oh, my God, Aura is feeling lucky, hehehe. Allah is all-good, uniting Aura (who can not cook fancy food) with Bang Rizky who apparently likes simple food.

"Aura will not cook in our house" he continued.

"Why is that? Will you cook after work? Hehe." I asked.

"Not really." she replied.

"Oh yeah, Bang. There was one thing Aura wanted to talk about, seriously."

"Yes, tafadhol. I even like that Aura wants to be open and forthright with me."

"Yes, Bang. What will be after marriage we will live in the parents' house?" my many. To be honest, I was so afraid that this question would offend him. But how else? I need an answer.

"Yes, why?" his reply.

The deg! My heart felt uneasy when she answered yes.

"Why should you stay with your parents? Doesn't you want to be independent? Contracting home is no problem either." I wrote.

"Why indeed?"

"Aura is afraid." I replied.

"Fear what? Try Aura explain it to me. What is Aura afraid of?"

I'm confused, if I tell him in detail about my childhood trauma, is it the same as me opening the disgrace of Grandma and In-laws Kak Mea?

"Erm.. There's something traumatizing Aura, Bang. Aura could not tell everything to Abang. But the point is, there are in-laws who don't like their daughter-in-law, it makes her in-laws careless with her daughter-in-law." I explained, I tried to shorten the story.

"Oh, so. In the Lord, Ummi is not like that. Ummi is very kind to anyone."

"In the Lord. Brother is so sure."

"Oh yes, can Aura know why Abang wants to make Aura as a friend of Brother's life?" my many.

"There are many things I like about Aura" he replied.

"much? What is it, Bang?" ask again.

"After marriage I will tell you everything" she replied. "Ra, next month on the 5th, in shaa Allah I and my family will visit the house of Aura" he continued.

"Huh? Wanna visit? In what order, Bang?" my many. Instantly my heart immediately thumped.

"You proposed to Aura" he replied.

Oduuhhh.. My heart felt stronger.

"But earlier Aura apologized, Bang. Aura wants to perform Istikharah prayer first. Can you?"

"Yes, of course I can. After the prayer, if Aura feels confident with me. Can I apply directly?"

"Yes, Bang. Can." I replied. "We hope the chat is yes, Bang. It's night." Call me.

"Yes. Assalamu'alaikum." he wrote.

"Wa'alaikumussalam." I reply.

Aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh Iiibbbuuuuuuu... Aura must be Bang Rizky's dream to come to propose.

But, there is still a lingering feeling in my heart. Do I have to believe what Bang Rizky said, that Ummi will not be the same as Grandma and In-laws Kak Mea.

"Sik, let's help Mom close the stall." asked Mom as she approached me in the room.

"Oh, yes. Come on, Mom." take me.

Then we both walked to the stall together, we tidied everything up and locked the stall. When she was done, she closed the front door and locked it. No more buyers coming in.

"Mom" call me. "Mom sleepy already?" I asked Mom when she looked at me.

"Not yet, what's up?"

"here, Mom. Aura wanted to talk." I invited Mom to sit in the living room.

"What's the talk about?" tanyakanya. "Oh, I know. You want to talk about the proposal, don't you?"

"Yes, Mom. Then Bang Rizky said, in shaa Allah next month the 5th will visit here to propose." I explained.

"Well, God, that fast?" said Mother a little surprised.

"Yes, Mom. But Aura had told Bang Rizky that Aura would pray istikharah first." I explained to Mother.

"Yes, that's good. Pray and ask God's opinion first." said Mother encouraged me.

"Yes, Mom. Let's go to sleep, Mom. Tomorrow I have to get up early as usual, hehe." I said grimly.

"Yes." said Mother.

Then I went into my room. I lay my body on the bed. Usually I'll go straight to sleep, but tonight I don't.

I got out of my bed again, I went to the bathroom for ablution. "I pray istikharah first, then try tidu again." I murmured in my heart.

I finally prayed and asked God for guidance.

When I'm done, I lay my body on my bed. My eyes still can't be closed. I still remember Bang Rizky and that woman named Lucy.

Someday I will definitely ask Bang Rizky, who is that woman?

I noticed when Bang Rizky appeared beside me back then, her face changed. I could see from the look on his face and the look in his eyes, there was a deep liking for Bang Rizky.

The look and look of the face are the same as Luna's when talking about Yusuf and the same as the look of Icha's face and eyes when talking about Bang Abdul.

I am right with both. I'm pretty sure I wasn't wrong to judge that.

If it is true what is in my mind, may Lucy not be hostile to me, just like Lilian who actually supports the relationship between Icha and Bang Abdul.