Just A Professional Relationship
Episode Thirty Thirty Thirty
“Huh, you're still the same. Weak-headed. Protecting yourself cannot. Let alone others.”
Juna's figure slowly went away after giving a condescending look. Leaving Axel lying helplessly on the ground moistened by the mud.
Axel tried to get up, but only his head could move. At that time he realized that Nadin was standing not far from there. Witnessing all the events and his pitiful figure that could be easily dropped.
“Sorry. I hate weak men,” said Nadin cynically. He also stepped away. Heading towards Juna who awaited him not far from there. Then the two held each other and began to kiss. Very intensely, and more and more filled with lust in every second.
Axel awakens from an excruciating nightmare. His head was already filled with sweat, and his breathing was wheezing.
The room was still completely dark, as the time was still two o'clock. But Axel already does not want to go back to sleep, so there is no need to get a similar dream.
“It's good you guys split up. Why should I meet in my dreams, anyway!” his gerrick.
***
“You why from earlier nguap continue?”
“Lack of sleep.”
“There may be unemployment lack of sleep,” taunted Ramos.
“Who is unemployed!”
“Iya, yes, Mr. businessman.”
Axel sipped his black coffee until it was not left. But the drowsiness has still not been successfully eliminated.
“Don't think I don't know why you. It's gotta be Nadin again, right?”
“Kak Ramos knows me the most, deh...” replied Axel while pretending to cry like a child.
“Why else, anyway? The feeling that no one has stopped you make him deketin. Wait what?”
Axel confirmed his sitting position, and thought seriously. “Know, Brother. Wait what yes..”
“Why did you become unstable after coming out of Hybrid. Already back to Dion?”
“It looks so.”
Ramos exhales. Slightly anxious, as well as understand that his friend is indeed difficult to express feelings to people who really like.
“Rather than waiting for something unclear and suddenly sorry, better to be honest from now on. The result is only two. Accepted or rejected. If rejected you can still be friends with him, right.”
“It sounds easy anyway, Brother. But somehow every time I met, I hesitated to say. Brother Ramos is also the same, if you meet the roang you like it must be heavy to reveal feelings. That's why Kak Ramos is still single until this old age.”
“You want to die huh?” ramos comments while still smiling, but gives a piercing aura. “Already, I don't care. Don't let you whine anymore at me if there's anything.”
***
Axel stepped up uninspired. He had exhaled a few times sluggishly. His head was filled with shadows about Nadin. For a long time he always wanted to express his feelings, but his guts had not yet been collected.
“Arggh! Why is it so hard, anyway!” grunt, while ruffling the head that does not itch.
*‘If Nadin suddenly appears in front of me, it means a sign that I have to express my feelings! Yosh! Spirit!’ *talk it in the heart while strengthening the heart.
Destiny also shows the game that sometimes tickle. While walking through a cafe, Axel accidentally caught the existence of someone who was sitting there. On the chair beside the window, so that his presence was clearly visible.
‘Nadin?!’
His chest suddenly thumped so hard. And he stepped into the place after taking a few deep breaths.
“Ngapain alone?”
“Lho, how are you here?”
“Feeling. I think I thought you'd be here.”
“Ah, ngaco!” sahut Nadin laughs.
“New to. Here, I just need a message. What do you want? Let's all.”
“I just ordered. What do you want?”
“Neg. This time I'll buy you.”
“Hm. Coffees. Black.”
“Didih, already like gents.”
“Ya is a prospective father-father.”
“Ya already, wait ya.”
Axel felt that the time for him to express his feelings had come. It seemed to give her full support. At least for a while.
Before going to order, Nadin forgot that he had not closed the screen of his phone lying on the table. When the object vibrated because of the incoming message, Axel accidentally turned to him spontaneously.
‘I asked, but no one knows when Juna will be home. All this time he looked at Japan, anyway. Some say that in fact she has already broken her contract and joined a modeling agency in Japan.’
Whether the message came from who, Axel clearly knows that Nadin is still finding out about his former lover. That made Axel's confidence, which had originally accumulated, suddenly disappear instantly. He even regretted reading that message—though accidentally.
Axel also pressed a button next to Nadin's phone to turn off the screen. And act like you've never seen anything.
“Please have a coffee, sir,” said Nadin while putting a glass on the table.
Axel so unable to focus and observe every movement Nadin did. Especially when the woman grabbed her phone, and read something from inside. The change in expression on his face was obvious.
“Why?” ask Axel.
“Hm? It's okay, really. Just read my friend's chat.”
Nadin put his phone down. But Axel can still catch that the woman in front of him is being worried by something that is definitely related to Juna.
“You still find out about that guy huh?”
“Who?” Nadin looked confused by Axel's sudden question.
“Juna.”
Then there was no answer for a while. Nadin turned his eyes in the other direction. He seemed hesitant to answer.
“Please, Nadin. Your goodness. Please stop finding out about anything related to Juna. And... let me replace him for you.”
Those words seemed to be spoken without Axel being able to hold. Maybe he himself could not bear to see Nadin continue to hurt himself.
“Maybe you already know, but I never said this in person. I love and love you. And, for so on, please make me the only person you will always think of. Not anyone else anymore.”.
Nadin caught the look full of seriousness from Axel's face. He knew the man meant it, and all of that was evident from his treatment all along. From the way he looked after her, looking at her…
Nadin should have known that he found the right figure to give new happiness in his life. Only, his heart was still too heavy to open.
“Xel... I.. actually heavy to say. But, sorry... I am not ready to start a relationship with anyone for a while,” he said slowly.
Axel slightly smiled wryly, feeling sorry for himself. “It turns out there is no chance for me huh?”
“Not so! Please don't misunderstand me. Not that I don't like you. But I'm afraid that being in a relationship when my own feelings are still like this, it will only hurt you. I don't want to like that..”
“Iya.. I understand, Nadin. Thanks for being honest.”
Nadin was silent for a moment. “If for example, I ask you to wait, do you want to? I'm not forcing. But I can't be sure until when. So, if one day you suddenly meet a much better person, you do not have to force to wait for me again.”.
Axel smiled and nodded. “I don't mind waiting. As long as it's for something or someone that's best for me.”
“Still yes, already want to understand..” reply Nadin, while giving a smile.