Los Dol (Together With The Ex)
39 dreaming

I hugged Jodi.

" Don't leave me again "my whine

" I'll continue with you Sania" Jodi rubbed my hair, with her hands. The door opened again.

" Don't move, you're surrounded" the police went into the room with the gun.

I was shocked, Jodi immediately let go of my embrace.

Jodi was dragged by the police.

" Sania help me Sania" cried Jodi

" Jodi"

" Jodi"

"Jodi"

I was shocked and woke up from my dream. My breath was puffing, I was dreaming. Jodi, how you doing there. Do I have to see him?

Yes I have to go there! but I don't know where he is. I was afraid of getting dragged into the case. I don't want to be interrogated by the police. I'm scared!.Jodi needs my support but I have to. I'd better leave town soon. I was also afraid that Eril would find me again.

This morning I woke up from my sleep. After thinking long. I decided to go see Jodi. Jodi just lowered her face. I was quiet too. Until Jodi finally spoke.

" I'm sorry Sania, I'm not who you want me to be. I'm just a ba**ngan guy. I don't deserve you. "

" What should I do?" I don't feel my tears dripping

" Go on, continue your life. You don't need to wait for me. I'm not worth the wait. Find someone better than me."

" But I accept you for who you are"

" you won't be happy with me" he replied

" I don't need you anymore" that's Jodi's last word, Jodi stood up and then left me. His words are heartbreaking.It hurts so much. I cried so much that the guards asked me to leave the room.

What a sadistic word Jodi I heard, after he sucked his sari and dumped him. That's a proper word for me. I feel like this self means nothing more. With my bare body I stepped out leaving Jodi, leaving behind all the memories of the two of us. I have to survive in this great city alone. Living with filth.

I was at Olivia's. It's not comfortable living here. I have to find my own place. I don't want Eril to find me here, I hate him too much. With Olivia's motorbike I went around looking for the nearest contract. And I got it, the not-so-big contract was just a bed and a kitchen. There's nothing I need to buy.This contract has wasted the contents of the house that I need. Not much, just a mattress and tools for cooking.

I unpacked my suitcase. All the important documents I keep there. I prepared my job application letter. There are some brown envelopes I've prepared. I opened a few job sites. Nothing fits my educational criteria. I went around the store maybe there was a vacancy for me. There are some places I have been. The cake shop, the flower shop, the garnet, the convenience store, all rejected me.

"maybe you need someone at the cashier, I need a job sir" I said begging the owner of the cake shop.

"sorry, we're looking for a woman who can make a cake instead of a cashier"

"But I can't make a cake sir" I replied honestly.

" then I can't accept you working here" I'm denied.

" maybe one day you need a cashier I'm ready to call sir. This is my job application, my phone number is here sir"

"alright, let me keep this cover letter" the store owner retrieved the documents I provided.

"thank you sir." I left the cake shop.

Other place.

" i'm sorry, but we're looking for employees, not employees."

" but this job fits my educational criteria"

" right mbak, but here the workers are all men" said the man

" so yes" I gave up this is my third place rejected.

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