Los Dol (Together With The Ex)
44 Attempted suicide

Along the way I was busy adjusting my heartbeat. I was misbehaving. I don't want Dilan to know, his eyes keep looking at me through the spy in front of him. He saw my slightly agitated face. Suddenly his left hand grabbed the hand I was playing with. Dilan put my hand on her stomach. I understand, Dilan asked me to hold her. Of course I hugged him because Dilan increased the speed of his bike.

I was in front of my contract.

" You live here" asked Dilan

" yes, you'll stop by first"

" when did" Dilan played her eyes, those naughty eyes. hinting she would definitely meet me again.

" Thank you for driving me"

" Don't forget to lock the door" he said.

" of course" I immediately entered the house.Dilan watched me until I closed the door of my contract. Dilan went with his bike.

What an exhausting day. I immediately threw my body in my bed and fell asleep.

This afternoon after work, as usual I returned the motor owned by mbak Yani.

" Thank you for the bike, without the help of mbak yani I don't know where to work."

" Don't hesitate San , you remind me of my sister in the village" said Mbak Yani

" do you have a sister?"

" have a sister, your age"

" when do you know me"

" of course" said Yani again.

After the stale talk, I went home.

" i went in first huh mbak" I said to our next-door contract, allowing me to ask for help on mbak Yani if need something. Mbak Yani is a very good person.

" What else ?" As usual, Dani asked on her phone.

" i'm tired" I replied

" what's up?"

" facing the reality of life"

" you are kidding me" he said

" I'm serious" I replied

" are you okay ?" Dani kept asking

" I'm really tired and, uh, I'm gonna take a break" I'm ending the conversation tonight

" all right, you just take a break".

A month has passed, my savings are dwindling, my job is uncertain. I can't possibly survive with an economy like this. I need a decent job, enough salary. To eat a day is very saving, only white rice and egg ceplok. Especially to buy other necessities. I don't have any money.

If only I were still with Jodi maybe my fate wouldn't be this bad. I realized I couldn't have easily gotten a man who would accept my situation like this. Physically there are many who queue but the fact is I'm not a holy girl anymore. I can't possibly get a good man anymore.Hiks hiks hyks I'm so sad.

I close my room in a meeting, I'd better end my life. I'm no longer useful. I no longer deserve to live on this earth. Just as trash, no one boasts of this extremely despicable me. I sprayed a bottle of insect repellent in my tightly sealed room. At first I only coughed as all the poison I inhaled entered my nose and throat. I also fainted.

From the outside, Yani smelled an unpleasant smell.

" It's like the scent of a mosquito repellent" he murmured.

The aroma was so stinging that it smelled out the contract

" it stings so much" said Yani, closing her mouth

" it looks like from Sania's contract" He kept talking to himself and started knocking on the door

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