Love Among Family Hostility
Rama is not Juna

Universe. One word that will have a lot of meaning if examined by many humans. One word can have different meanings if interpreted by other humans. The universe is a creation of God. The world is indeed temporary but it is enough to make one's life feel heavy and messy.

Not infrequently also if the universe makes others cry because of his jokes. Even if someone is joking, humans should laugh but because of this joke from the universe they even cry until they lose their voice.

"The world won't know what you want until you say it."

Those were the words that were immersed in Sinta's mind whenever the woman was silent in the room and had no work to do. The words he had gotten decades ago could still be clearly remembered, even the figure who delivered the sentence to him, Sinta also still remembered.

When Sinta's life is shattered, when the universe is not on her side, when every step is heavy, when she feels that she is left behind by people, she is left behind, the figure came as if giving a close hug so that the woman could eliminate the tightness that was residing in the chest.

A figure of higher stature than her with a forehead covered by hair, the man came to take Sinta who had already fallen into such a deep abyss. The abyss that made Sinta unable to get out of it even though she had already jumped like a madman. But the man willingly extended his hand pulling Sinta out of there.

The man gave Sinta a kiss, gave her a warm hug and let her clothes get wet from Sinta's painful cry.

The man was ready to give Sinta beautiful sentences whenever the woman felt that the universe was acting unfairly on her. The man with a warm smile, and the warm elusan that Sinta always felt, as well as the sense of security that was always there every time the woman was with him. That man, Rama.

"Always Rama, not Juna."

Sometimes the woman had to accept the fact that Rama was the person she loved the most in her life. The fact that Rama is the one he always looks for whenever he wants to borrow his shoulder and let him cry without a sound or hysterical though.

Like that time, when Sinta was hit all out by the universe. Sinta time is really made as if the original doll is the most cared for object then after they get bored the woman will be thrown away.

The incident made Sinta afraid of her own family. No, not when his family strongly opposed the relationship he and Rama. But when Sinta was humiliated in front of many people just because she was a daughter. In fact, bearing the name Agustama behind his name became a curse for Sinta. She was imprisoned because her name was in her name.

Agustama family is not a family that prioritizes the voice of women. Or you could say, out Agustama is a hard patriarch. Sinta is treated like a babu because she is a girl. Although Sinta is a smart student but her family never looked at Sinta, because for her family Sinta is a burden that will soon disappear if the woman is married. Therefore, Sinta has got a matchmaking offer even before she graduated from High School.

Sinta still clearly remembers how her family scolded Sinta because she insisted on going to college like her older brother.

"You girls, Sinta don't be a burden with further education!" snapped the Papa right in front of the girl until it made Sinta's eyes closed in fear.

"According to what Papa said to Mama, Sin. Don't be reckless," said his older brother.

Sinta ran into the room, crying like noiseless inside. Perhaps, if they said that on a normal day Sinta would not be this sick. However, they said that in front of many people, when their families were holding family events. Just because the sister found Sinta was looking for information about the world of lectures the woman was immediately yelled at and humiliated completely even by her own family.

Sinta never expected that would happen in her life. Since yesterday's incident that made Sinta embarrassed half-dead, both her parents and her older brother still did not apologize. They even again yelled at Sinta every time the woman wanted to touch the book to read.

A fact, Sinta is smart. Even smarter than her own older brother, but because in this family girls are a burden that can not be anything because they will end up being the wife of people, so Sinta's ability was never cared for by her family. They only focus on Sinta's older brother because Sinta's older brother is the successor of the company later.

In the middle Sinta does not get attention from home so there is no harm if Sinta seeks attention outside. When the woman arrived in front of Rama with a sweet smile there, after she and Rama planned to meet secretly after the family event at Sinta's house was over.

Sinta said, Rama is the one who knows Sinta better than anything. The proof, even though Sinta put on a smile at him Rama could still tell that there was something the girl was trying to hide from him.

"Aren't you papa?" Only one sentence came out of Rama's mouth but it felt like Sinta was already matchless.

Rama patted his right shoulder as they were already sitting on the grass in a garden. "Crying now, keep telling me the same story." Rama willingly gave his shoulder to Sinta. She kindly, let the girl cry in silence and her clothes got wet from Sinta's cries.

The man did not comment, he allowed Sinta to vent all the emotions she had. He just kept stroking Sinta's palm carefully as if a sign that she was beside the girl, always.

"Sin, don't ever think that if you yourself live in this world, there is me. There will be me, there will always be me, look for me if you are tired the same universe. Find my embrace if you want to complain, find my hand to cover your ear when lightning strikes, look for me when your condition is not okay, and kiss me while you're engulfed in peerless happiness."

Sinta failed, she cried again, for the umpteenth time she cried because of the same person. The beautiful memories of Rama are so many, that Sinta can no longer count them. The time Sinta spent with Rama was only about 3 years, but it was enough to drive the woman crazy and fall against the man who was now a stranger in her life.

The fact that the time he spent with Arjuna was much more than Rama made Sinta feel sorry for herself. He loves Arjuna because he is a man who is willing to accept Sinta in a state of pregnancy and willing to accept Sinta as it is. Arjuna shows such great love for Sinta but it takes a long time for Sinta to forget about Rama. But even so, Sinta never to not cry every time she remembers Rama. Be it the good memories with Rama or when Rama, left him alone just because he did not believe in the woman.

Sinta hates Rama, very much. But Sinta's heart can't lie if she misses Rama. He longs for Rama to be next to him, not Arjuna. Sinta needs Rama's shoulder now, not Arjuna's, even though the man is willing to give his shoulder. In Sinta's life, Rama will still be the winner, even though Rama is the biggest source of wounds in Sinta's life. Always, Rama is not Arjuna.