Loving My Husband's Son
Getting Mad

PoV Aldi's

Today Nilam has to start his first day of work in the company. I don't like the idea of him going to work there and it's not because I hate him. But I still can't accept the fact that she received help from my Papa even though I know that she was there with her own efforts. But I still see everything the same way.

This morning when she choked I forgot I needed to ignore her and act differently towards her. But I couldn't help myself because Nilam still had room in me and that's why I became jealous when I saw him holding Papa's hand on the table to calm Papa down over the fight our.

Even though it actually looks like the attention a girl is doing holding her Papa hand, I still can't help myself from getting jealous. I refused to take him with me to work. But when I saw that scene I changed my mind and wanted to take her to work. Of course, our trip was not smooth or romantic. As usual we ended up arguing and he asked me to stop the car and I did.

"You don't want to expect me to get off the CEO's car on my first day at work, do you? They're probably gonna make a rumor about me." Said Fara harshly.

I still can't believe that she still has some shame. It's just like Nilam I met and I know or whatever. It was the other side of Nilam that made me fall in love with him.

"Hah, it seems that Nilam Yuniarta Widuri still has some shame. But you have no shame when you get on my Papa's bed." I said to him while holding his hand tightly but he threw my hand very roughly.

"I have had enough of your words. But now I can't stand it anymore to ignore it." Her speech.

"What did you say?" I said angrily pulling him back into the car.

This time my grasp on him was even much tighter.

"Let go of me, you hurt me and what I mean is simple. You talk a lot to someone who doesn't know anything."

It was the last sentence from her that made me realize and I was a little silent after listening to that. He hasn't explained anything to me and I know that he won't. I always thought that Nilam was hiding something from me and right then and there I could only think that my expectations were getting me to hallucinate.

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"Damn you Nilam."

"Hey what's up? Is it all still about him?" Ruben said, and if he hadn't spoken, I would have forgotten that I was still in my office with him.

I don't even remember how I got here because my mind is still thinking about Nilam.

"Are you still thinking about him?"

"I wish that I could stop thinking about him. But I can't. Every time I want to believe that she's a bad woman or whatever it is. The reality continued to slap me in the face day after day." My speech.

"I think your attitude is because you haven't been able to move on from him." Reuben.

"I think so." I said with sadness.

I admit that it's all true and I have no choice but to keep thinking about him.

"I wish I could forget about him, but I still can't. Even if I close my eyes for a moment, I can still picture him in my mind." My speech.

"How about we go have fun." Reuben.

"I don't want to do that." I said and tried to concentrate on my work.

"If this isn't about wanting to or not. It's about helping you change your feelings." Reuben.

Sure was! It can actually help me change my feelings. So I accepted Ruben's invitation to go out to a VIP club. I hope by going there I can at least forget about my problems. But I didn't expect that I would meet someone familiar there.

"Hi Aldi, nice to meet you here. Do you still remember me?"

"Lila was such a coincidence meeting you here." My speech.

"It's a coincidence." The reply.

To be honest, I can't be sure if it's a coincidence or a God-given destiny. If it is fate, then heaven is not destined for me, because I am not allowed to have fun.

I chatted with Lila and it was a little interesting and a lot different from my shadow. But everything I got from him about Nilam is what I already knew. After a long conversation with her, I returned home. But Nilam hasn't come back yet.

"Aunt Ana, where's Nilam?" My toot.

"Young Lady hasn't come back yet, she..."

Aunt Ana did not finish her sentence because I had already left angrily. It was very late and he did not return. What hurt the most was when I found out that she wasn't with Lila. Then who is he with now? I really can't figure it out.

I kept calling her phone a few times, but she still wouldn't answer. I finally gave up calling her and chose to wait for her. I don't know how long I've been waiting for him. But it was late at night.

When I realized the slim figure of her body seemed to be walking inside the house, I started to follow her and saw her standing in front of her room.

"Oh this is Alex..."

The moment I heard that name, my anger grew and my eyebrows furrowed. But I tried to calm myself down and talk to him.

"You finally know how to get home."

My voice wasn't too loud, but it took him by surprise to the point that he dropped his phone on the floor. I don't know what the expression on my face is right now. But I just know that I'm so mad at him. First, because he didn't pick up the phone from me. Second because he came home late at night and I just heard him calling a man's name. And that was the reason why I kept looking at him with anger.

"I'll only ask you once. Where have you been?"

I finally asked him and after a while in silence, he took his phone off the floor. Not only did he take his phone, but he was also willing to leave and ignored my presence. I quickly closed the door and I almost clamped her hand with it.

"ah! Is it crazy? You almost clamped my fingers with the door." Nilam shouted and finally he looked at me and he instantly stuck with my body.

"The consequences you will have will be far more than this, if you continue to ignore me. You and everyone know what I hate the most. So don't test my patience." I spoke to him in such a cold voice and this time I knew he would not dare to repeat his mistake again.

But I did not expect the movement he made when he suddenly grabbed hold of the collar of my clothes and pulled me closer towards his face. Our faces were only a few inches away and I was surprised I couldn't even say anything.

"You and everyone know that I hate being ruled by others the most. So stop being so arrogant to me." Nilam.

"You....." My speech.

"I married your father and not you. So you shouldn't have the authority to regulate me. Didn't you say that a few days ago? I am your Mama now and you are my son. So you have to keep your distance from me, because you're not my lover."

He said that with no fear in his eyes. But I could smell the alcohol in his mouth. Then he pushed me hard and released his body from me. I have to admit that this side of him still makes me freeze but I like him a lot.

"Now if you don't want to say anything else, I'm leaving." Said Nilam swinging his long black hair and into his room.

Of course I want to say something. But my words couldn't get out and I really wanted to touch her, hug her very tightly in my body and also kiss her. There are many things I want to do with love for him right now. But I certainly can't do it.

"Damn! This woman really makes me feel even more self-conscious..."

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