Mission to Save the Heart
12. Zeev Can't Know
ALTHOUGH yesterday my heart was burned by the fire of jealousy that successfully devoured my whole tribe until the end of the pulpit, now I have resolved to forget everything. Though my mind and heart can never truly forget. However, I tried to believe that there was nothing more important right now than being a best friend to Zeev, getting rid of my greedy desire to try to demand a status beyond that. For the sake of the smooth running of my secret mission, I don't mind sacrificing my pent-up feelings for Zeev.
“Chemical task I have sent semalem, right?” I asked, just a small talk to start a conversation with Zeev this morning before the first class started.
“Udah. I read it too, though! Thanks, yes!” she said, singling my best sun through the curved line on her lips.
“Mmm... What about Sispala? I can come, right?” my investigation, considering that Zeev still hasn't informed me of the next information.
“Oya, I forgot to sign you into the Sispala group!” my OSIS chairman shook his head as if he was punishing Zeev's unusual recklessness. “Lo can join, really! Every Sunday, we usually have activities. Well, coincidentally this week we are most just a meeting to notadain climbing activities! You are, new member! So, if you can present for all dapets at Sispala.”
“OK! Then get me into the group now! Later be afraid you forget again!” I asked without giving special emphasis because I did not want to make Zeev feel depressed at my request.
Zeev who always gave the best response then took the device out of the pants pocket to finally invite me to the Sispala group which currently consists of twelve people after I officially joined. He also did not forget to remind me to greet the other members while briefly introducing myself, considering that I only know Zeev and Theo and must be able to familiarize myself with other members.
“If I use emot smile lope-lope at the end of the sentence will be considered familiar, Zeev?” I'm afraid to make mistakes on first impressions.
“Ngak. They won't have such rich minds, kok!” Zeev tried to convince me not to worry about such a small thing.
“But, the effect is too much no, if there are lope-lope? Mending emot a regular smile only times, yes?” I was still hesitating so I needed the most valid answer.
“Yes, gapapa. Origin do not emot middle finger aja.” Zeev replied with a plegmatism.
“His usual mending smile or smile while bristling or smile while bristling at the same time shy?” cecarku, while looking at Zeev's face with the most serious look.
“The power is all the same, deh!” zeev's toilet with the shadow of the letter W emanated on his forehead.
“Deda, dong! Emang if I send emot that smile devil means I am friendly, yes?” timpalku, make Zeev silent a thousand languages. “Oh! Do I use emot smile back and forth time so as to be considered playfull and friendly that?”
“After I thought about mending his introduction if I met him directly. So, you can free expression without the need to bother thinking about emoticons doang.” Zeev gave his best advice along with a smile sign of satisfaction.
I know Zeev is giving the best solution to all my questions. However, somehow I did not feel satisfaction at the suggestion of Zeev. In the end, my thumb prefers to pin a smile-shaped hugging emoticon before finally pressing the button with a picture of a paper airplane embedded in the device.
It would be very suspicious and would probably make Zeev annoyed if I would follow him to get home every day, right? Therefore, I have no choice but to always remind Zeev to be careful, especially on two-wheeled vehicles when he wants to go home. I can only accompany Zeev with a prayer that I secretly whisper in the seven layers of the sky, hoping that my desperate prayer can become the most powerful protective magic for Zeev.
“Tuh, angkot lo has come!” concluded Zeev, the young man sitting next to me on the bench, near Barisfer Academy.
“Let's go, huh! Wait for the passenger is a bit quiet.” me when I find an angkot with passengers shrouded in distress.
“Gue inget-inget, kanya lo always lewatin angkot lo before I get angkot first. If not because it is too full, you also say males wait ngetem if the angkot is too quiet.” he said, making my small brain work hard to find the most reasonable excuse that can be accepted by Zeev's brain.
“Yes, but that was just full, right? The driver was aja strange still want to transport people even though it was already too stuffy rich so.” reply me, though, unknowingly this pair of netra was not brave enough to look at Zeev so he turned to look at the highway full of vehicles back and forth.
“So, it's not because I'm waiting, is it?”
The tail of my eyes caught Zeev's faint but detailed shadow for me to understand that Zeev was currently looking at me intently. “Nno! Why am I waiting for you to doang?” all my lips are blurred from the filtering process of the brain that works.
Zeev then nodded in understanding. “Good, deh!”
My heart and mind that were unprepared for that terrible answer then awakened my curious soul. I re-circulated my gaze to the figure of Zeev beside me in order to meet the satisfaction standards of the reason behind Zeev's recent remarks.
“In fact after the incident on the field at that time, I can't really be ordinary just the same lo, Nar. All your behavior is not uncommon for me to guess what your intentions and goals really are. And now I can be sure that the incident at that time was really just a mistake, right?” Zeev looked at me intensely without the slightest smile emanating from his face.
The question obviously brought my mind to its knees without a fight. The fact is I do like Zeev, the chairman of OSIS with a myriad of fans who always follow him. And my bad feeling is just a classic first love story that claps one hand. This cowardly enough me was unable to get the rejection that might have impacted my relationship with Zeev into tenuousness.
“Lo is quiet Zeev. I'm not rich with rumors that spread, kok!” kelitku, trying to convince Zeev that I am not included in the list of fanatical fans that Zeev should avoid. “Gue likes you. But, it was just a rich feeling of admiration to his idol doang. I admire your leadership spirit and your intelligence. Yeah, now who the hell, who's not impressed with that side of you? And my feeling of admiration is just that.”
“OK, I understand. But, next time do not repeat again because your actions can be wronged with others.”