Mission to Save the Heart
17. The Warmth Enveloped in the Void
Today the Lunar may have managed to save my life from danger. However, it is not surprising that the warm Lunar crib actually brought new calamities to the bottom of my heart. Although I have confidently proclaimed that romance is not on my current priority list to Theo. However, the fact is there is something in this heart that demands his young desire to be satisfied. I just found out that the sensation of being romantically drunk can make a human like me a dilemma.
I'm trying to refocus on solving physics. But unfortunately, my common sense was not able to act as it should because the contents of my head continued to be filled with a caledoiscope of shadowy events about the Lunar, especially when the day on which I had to follow the National Mathematical Olympic Selection.
Lunar was very strange. All day long he kept talking using your I-pronouns and kept fussing over things that ratio sometimes found hard to accept. Then suddenly the next day he went back to his usual attitude as if nothing had happened between us, it made me confused when I digested what was hitting the Lunar skull so that it became very different from usual.
However, no matter how hard I tried to find out, even when I took the initiative to find answers through Lunar. In fact, Lunar just gave an excuse that he took the wrong medicine. Then should I believe the shallow alibi that the Lunar lays out? Or maybe Lunar actually has bipolar or a mental disorder like that that affects itself in determining behavior?
Oh, naw. Even understanding the Lunar is much more difficult than understanding this set of physical problems.
Geck! Geck! Geck!
Someone suddenly knocked on my bedroom door not too hard.
The woman always came with a glass of water along with some vitamin pills that she gave me every night. There are vitamins to improve memory, vitamins increase endurance, and vitamins to maintain muscle, brain and nervous system health. When he came in, he would have stayed in my room if I hadn't taken his vitamins so quickly. Maybe he just wanted to make sure that I really took the capsules that he said were good for my body.
“Before twelve o'clock must have slept, yes.” said my mother gently before finally leaving the room.
Maybe there was no special interaction between us. But my mother was like that. She was always warm but also cold when playing her role as the mother of two children. I don't know what my brother thinks of him. However, I still love such a mother as a father who loves the figure of the mother as it is.
Yeah, well, my whole family's never been close to each other. Perhaps the father who has difficulty showing his love and affection makes this house feel cold. My own family rarely has serious conflicts, considering that all family members have a dominant plegmatic attitude so that there is no other color in our house. There is a warmth as well as a void that is difficult to define that covers this house. And strangely I often feel that my existence is not the result of the manifestation of the love of my parents.
Perhaps this is what makes me feel good about Theo, the only person close to me. There was a common fate between me and him so it was easier for me to accept Theo's presence than anything else. And I also feel an equation that maybe most people will oppose my opinion on this one. Somehow I felt that Lunar was always trying to look strong in school when he with all his energy resisted the attacks of pain because I wanted to look perfect in school in order to hide the void and inferiority I secretly hugged myself.