Move Journey
An Intent
“Serious Umi? Bang Razi going to Turkey?” I was surprised when Aunt Risma who I used to call Umi told me that Bang Razi would go to Turkey a few weeks for a youth exchange.
“Later if the PKPA is finished, he immediately left” said Umi. And then Bang Razi came out of his room carrying the same book of Sirah Nabawiyah as a few days ago. “Zi, eat here. Haura made nih” french fries Then Bang Razi sat next to me while still reading his book.
“Abang to Turkey huh? Titip by kebab Turki yaa” said I and Bang Razi immediately put his book on the table.
“Ga all of you drop the dome of Aya Sofya Dek? There is also a Turkish kebab in front of the complex. I buy now can also” He said while then eating French fries.
“Ya already buy now only sana” Umi.
“Lah? How to buy kebab? This will be potato” said Bang Razi confused.
“So said Brother buy now also can. Yes, now buy” I said.
“Ya let's go Bang Razi invited me to come with him.
I followed behind him, but I kept quiet as he exited the gate, wearing the holster and the black hoodie with the black peci.
“Bang engga ride motor?”
“Jalan. All in search of breeze”
“Hah?”
Because the distance where the kebab seller is quite far from this house. It sounds very close 'Front of the complex' but this housing complex is very broad and this house is on the very end of the block. I was forced to agree and follow his steps while playing a mobile phone because there was an incoming chat from Nadhiffa who said tomorrow wanted to invite me to come to his father's study.
“Haura?”
“Ya?”
He was silent for so long, after I finished typing the message for Nadhiffa, I turned towards Bang Razi who was still loyal to him and his gaze was straight ahead.
“Abang again confused, you want to hear the story Brother ga?”
“News aja”
Then shut up for so long. I also did not immediately interrupt, maybe this is a heart problem because for several days he often kept silent while daydreaming about the book he was not actually reading...
“Type rich girl you want to be invited ta’aruf?”
“Mau bang. Because I do not want to date again, even if there are people who invite me to date and promise my marriage, I will refuse. Because a good guy in my opinion is not a guy who comes to promise a wedding but realize it”
Bang Razi then went back to silence. He continued walking while gazing at the streets with an empty look. I think he is in a state of inner trouble, about his feelings that he is now questioning, about the next step he should take immediately.
“Why so confused? Is there a God who can answer all our doubts?” I said, who then walked in front of him.
If I could say, Bang Razi tonight is so cool, Jakarta today is so friendly, why can't you think clearly? Though this time he can think healthily because the atmosphere tonight can calm his soul.
“Bang, brother want to marry?” I said.
“Hah?” he was shocked as if regained consciousness that he was daydreaming.
“Abang to marry?” I asked him one more time.
“Iya mau”
Then he finally made a sound. Voicing a strand of taste that he craves and makes him confused. He said, how many days ago he conveyed a good intention to invite a woman to ta’aruf, and to this day there is still no answer.
“Oh, so that's” I said.
The love that turned out to make Bang Razi not good to eat, not good to heart, and not good to eat. He was now confused waiting for an answer that never came. I guess, Bang Razi never thought of actually marrying someone in the near future, because every morning I see he just reads Sirah's book and reads her practice journal.
“Abang have asked for Umi prayer with Abi not yet?” I asked so because Bang Razi is a typical child who is very closed even with his parents.
“Not yet, because Abang is afraid that Umi Hopes more the same Ta’aruf this. Actually Brother is afraid of failing at Ta’aruf's”
I remember the study of Ustadz Husein last night. That everything that starts well, then the end result will also be good. Even though the result is separation, it is the best way that God has given.
I can say Bang Razi is the smartest person I know, but he is very funny to express his feelings, even to his parents who have known him since childhood. Bang Razi was a man who was ashamed of everything he had achieved, he was ashamed of every development that happened to him. It's strange.
“Later Try deh”
At the age of 22, I was pretty impressed with him. He is a teenager who does not even know what 'Hijrah' is because since childhood he has been taught religion and civilized behavior by his parents. He did not dare to ditch in every study, he had memorized 25 juz Al Qur’an and still continue to add to his shipments until now. There was a great pride when I told Bang Razi about my friends in college, not only about his good religious knowledge, he was also once the 'Best Speakers' Indonesia while still in High School and at that time he was 15 years old. How can I not be proud to try as his cousin's sister?
“Medium three yes Mas, The one double Cheese” Say Bang Razi on kebab trader.
“Abi hingga on buyin?” I asked Bang Razi because at home there was also his Abi.
“He likes. Except the real Turkish kebabs eat in Turki”
“Hah?”
“Serius”
Yes I believe. Um I'm the one that does taste a little different. He does not like the food of today, such as Burger, Kebab, and other junk food. The mainstay food is ketoprak, meatballs urat, yellow rice, yes Indonesian specialties really.
While waiting for the kebab to be cooked, Bang Razi told him about Turkey. He explained why he wanted to come there. Not just because of her beautiful country.
“There stands Aya Sofya, you know what? In 1453 the sultan Muhammad Al Fatih conquered Constantinople and I want to know the historical evidence of it”
“I also want to go there anyway Bang. Because it's really nice there, cool place”
“I want to learn history directly from his place”
“Damage is different ya”
“Clearly lah”
After the kebab ordered was ready, Bang Razi immediately invited home because the streets were getting quieter. I asked a little about the person he said he was trying to be invited ta’aruf.
“She's a health child too?” I said.
“Not, but in sya Allah healthy corporeal and spiritual”
“Darkening deh type of girl that Brother likes it kayak apa”
“Yang well”
At first, I thought that Bang Razi must have liked the pesantren women, or the ustadz children or the veiled ones. Because seeing Bang Razi who Sholeh, who always wanted to learn religion, who always thought of the afterlife, surely he would not want to get a woman whose religion is ordinary like me gini.
“I want to guide someone Dek, want to be a family leader who can lead all members of his family into heaven. So, there is nothing if one day Brother dapetin a new wife hijrah, the most important thing is he wants to continue to do good deeds with Brother to dapetinya Allah.”
“Abang interested in pesantren children?”
“That matters one purpose. Moreover, Brother has a mission to preach. He wants to, who has the same vision and mission as Brother. Or at least who understands the vision and mission of your life. I'll tell you deck, the world is only a temporary place. Here we are just ready to go to our destination. Here is the place to prepare supplies that will be enjoyed later, at the end of our destination. Choosing to marry someone, it means we will live on this earth together, and prepare the afterlife together. So the importance of having a partner who is a vision and mission is that we have an alarm so that you can cross the line”
“But the wrong bengga Bang, If I ask the same God made in the same soul mate Sholeh, who is handsome, who is good morals. Is it wrong to say his name?”
Bang Razi mala laughed softly, “I even thought that God is not jealous yes, you just faced him to ask someone who is not necessarily in love with you? While God is in love with you. Dek, you intendin this hijrah because of him? Because of someone or because of God? If it were for someone, you would never get him. Straighten your intentions because of God, in God you will get a good person even if it is not him. And the bonus is when you do something because of God, even if the result is not according to your wishes. You will be sincere. Trust God”
“Yes but not so Bang. I once asked God for the same meaning it must be the same. But, uh,. Lately I'm afraid that my wish will not be realized later I'm crazy Bang. His oath was horrified. So, I ask God that my heart be sincere, if for example it is with him, nothing. Because I am also afraid, I am afraid that what I think is good, but according to God is not good. I'm afraid that my own prayers are plunging me into a regret”
“With Brother's desire that sounds complicated, is Brother ready? What if for example later the woman is actually inversely proportional to what kind of desire Brother?”
“Actually, when a man has decided to get married, it means he is ready with all the risks that will happen later. What his partner looks like, how his habits will change, and everything. It is very important for husband and wife to adjust after marriage, how the rights and obligations of husband to wife and so should. Mankanya, we also need to join the pre-wedding seminar, because we have knowledge about marriage.”
“Abang ready for young marriage? Don't tell me you're following the trend now huh?”
Although I actually know Bang Razi is not a person who is consumed by the development of the times or trends that are hits. He lived as usual, as if he were alive. He is not a typical person who follows him to live for himself and all he wants.
“Because feel enough to catch up with the world. Brother wants to perfect worship, if you can now, why wait later? Moreover, we do not know until when we will live”
And that night, there were many stories along the way about an intention. A wish that I pray can be conveyed, may his good intentions be spoken by good people and I pray that it may go well and God will make it easy.