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A choice

“Bany bekel nya Bang?” I said when Bang Razi was preparing supplies for him to take to the Hospital.

“Engga, usually also segini” He said.

“Bang Razi emang if you bring that stock, Porsi kuli” Umi said which then came carrying a plate of balado shrimp that is still warm.

Then I sat down at the dinner table, staring at the balado Shrimp that looked good but I couldn't eat.

“Umi, Haura can not eat shrimp just one. I think the umi food this morning is really good” I said.

“Don't ya Haura. Last time you ate shrimp at Umi's house, your body itches all”

So, in addition to having a history of asthma that often relapses when the weather is cold, I am also allergic to eating shrimp and shellfish. That's why until the age of 20 years, I've only been to Puncak once, and only a few times stay in Bandung was not in the rainy season. Though he said, the two cities are very friendly air, but if it is too cold can trigger Asthma that I suffered.

“You ate a little really?” Bang Razi said when I just wanted to eat my breakfast. “Eat so much doang mah later at 10 already want to faint”

“Usually also segini” Serving food I Just one spoon of rice, about 7 feed directly run out.

“Zi, Your meal portion is the same Haura is different. You two are quite different standards too. Couldn't it be if for example Bang Razi ate his portion of Haura? Or did Haura eat her portion of Bang Razi's meal like that porters? The Prophet advised us to eat well, to eat before we are hungry and to stop before we are full. The existence of enough standard that we do not overestimate which will later end up being redundant, yes Bang?”

“Iya umi”

After breakfast, Bang Razi and I bade to leave, Bang Razi went to the hospital, while I was still as usual going through my days as a student on campus. Incidentally, he said Bang Razi had moved PKPA place in Kelapa Gading area, so I took his car to campus.

“Dek” Say Bang Razi when we just got into the toll.

“Why?” I'm still faithfully reading the journal just turned my head while asking.

“Abang already said the same Umi And Umi do not agree” he said slowly.

“Kok hgga agree?”

“Women that you want to invite Ta'aruf is a convert, only 5 months and Umi does not agree. He said, if you can find another one, I can hear Bang Razi's voice shaking. There was a voice of sadness that wrapped up every word he said.

“Abang bright?” Asked him.

“Anga may memcewain Umi”

“In fact, our Grandma is also a convert to Bang”

My aunt is indeed a very religious person, if the prayer in the mosque of Aunt I used to call Umi is indeed a person who is labeled as Ustadzah Mother Even though the profession is only a housewife. Her husband or the person I used to call Abi was a staffer in the office who was also an ustadz who filled out studies after praying in the mosque.

“Our views on a convert vary Deck, Including the way Umi looks and the way we also look at someone who has just known the religion we have adopted since birth”

I nodded in understanding listening to what Bang Razi said.

“Abang once said, if the life mission is preaching and Brother wants to have a life companion who at least supports what is the mission of Abang”

“Whose name is he?”

Then Bang Razi told him about the woman who had been around his mind for how many weeks, he had prayed Istikharah to get a clue because he was faced with two choices, he had to pray, the first is a woman who is none other than her college friend and the second is a convert woman who she met while completing the study.

“If you get it wrong, he's a child of the Faculty of Medicine at the same campus like Kafi, now again koas. At that time Abang met when he was studying in the Cengkareng area together with Kafi. He's Kafi's sister. Brother knew that he converted from Kafi because Kafi story at that time he was martyred during a routine study at his University and witnessed almost all Muslim students there”

“What?”

I was silent, my heart was sad when I heard the story of someone who decided to embrace Islam and learn to be a Muslim. I see many people who convert are more obedient than people who have embraced Islam since birth. Me included.

“Kok can she be sure and embrace Islam as her belief?”

“Dek, Allah guides anyone with any intermediary. Do you remember the story of Umar bin Khattab when he converted to Islam?” I nodded, then Bang Razi continued. “He embraced Islam, even though he was a person who strongly held the religion and customs of the ancients. God even guides someone who was previously very obedient in his religion, God gives the light that only God is worthy to be worshipped in”

“I have heard so much about the Prophet and his companions. I always felt that my worship was enough to get me into heaven. But when I heard the story about how Rasullullah worshiped, I always felt that I was not fit to go to heaven. The Prophet prayed tahajud until his feet were swollen, I prayed tahajud while brimming. Why not bang if we compare ourselves with the worship of the Prophet, I only realize that Rasullullah was promised heaven with Allah, but his worship is extraordinary Mashaa Allah. I, as the Messenger of Allah, should worship like the Prophet. Because I want to be in heaven with the Prophet Bang. But, again humans like me gini always take care of the world first, the afterlife later. Always postpone the prayer Just to take care of the problems of the world, always understand your own mistakes if you miss the morning prayer on the grounds of soybean. I was often embarrassed when it came to the study of a Ustadz convert. He studied Islam until he was finally able to preach Islam. While I was born with the religion of my parents, studying Islam is just that, just worshiping for yourself. To save yourself. Engga invites people to both save themselves from hellfire” Unknowingly I shed tears while speaking.

“Dek, without realizing it could be you are someone who triggers a change for the environment around you. For example, in the store, you invite your employees to come to the study, always close the order at every prayer time so that your employees are not late to pray. You spread kindness in your neighborhood. Preaching does not mean having to talk in front of many people Deck, starting from the smallest thing you contribute to make someone return to the path of God, it is preaching Dek”

“So sad kan” I said as I blocked the remaining tears at the end of my eyes. “Serus Abang will continue or how?” I said, returning to the first topic.

“You talk to Abi first.”

In the car, then Bang Razi threw me a difficult question. A question I didn't know was a serious question or just playfully.

“There was a brother who had good intentions with you Dek,” I was willing when Bang Andri spoke so.

“What good intentions?” I asked, because I can't be so confident. I wanted to know the truth between what was on my mind and what Bang Razi meant.

“If you want, he has the intention to acquaintance with you and if matchmaking In sya Allah continues to a more serious level”

I'm silent for a moment. What I have in mind is “I will still be in college”

“Bang, I'm still in college” I said slowly.

“Indeed why?”

I'm back in silence.

“Your lecture will only stay 2 semesters, tell your mother yes Dek, later In Sya Allah next week her people come to the house in Bintaro to make friendship with Ibu”

I still can't believe it. And just confusion. Because it's too sudden and curious as to who it is. Because, so far I am not close to any man and there is no one who tries to match me with someone.

“Bang I don't want” I said.

“Why?”

Suddenly I remembered him. Someone who is often in my prayer, someone I always hoped could be my companion, the person I pray will later worship together with me to go to the paradise of God.

“There's someone Haura likes Bang” I said slowly.

“You're dating?” I shook my head. Then Bang Razi asked again “Who is the person? Can you know?” I shook my head again. Because Bang Razi can't know who it is.

“Where ya?” I said starting which was when it started to get confused.

“Ya. The path is natural selection and your direction. Who will be with you, that is God's best choice. If he is someone you like, that means God is also rihdo over it, if for example it is not someone you like, you should be grateful because the person you like is not a good choice according to Allah.”