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I still hugged Mama tightly, receiving a gentle swipe in the head when I heard Sam's voice say hello from the front. My body stiffened when I saw him enter the living room with a pale face.
“Mama into first. Finish it well.” Mama broke my arms and kissed my forehead and left me and Sam sitting in awkwardness.
“Ngapain you here?” I chose to open my voice first because it seemed like Sam had no intention of breaking the silence.
“Fetch you.” Flat language.
I still observed his pale-looking face. But even so, his facial expression remained flat.
“I don't want to go home.” I said as I grabbed the exam paper of one of the students and corrected it.
“Adelia.” Sam called me in a flat voice. “Don't childish this.”
What say? I immediately threw the paper in my hand onto the table again and stared intently at it.
“Press you to say?!” I screamed, no matter what Mama would hear. “You ignored me two days, Sam, for no reason and you thought it was a child?! Please, don't be selfish!”
Sam seemed to breathe. “We can talk ..”
“I'm tired, Sam.” My words are weak. “I don't understand what you want? You are getting busy while I feel useless as a wife. I'm tired.” I'm down.
“I never thought you were so~”
“But you act as if you don't need me and I'm the only one who needs you!” again I interrupted his words quickly. Sam remained silent. “You didn't even give me a reason why you didn't call me, chat me. Are you so busy that you forget that you have a wife!”
“I'm upset. Okay I admit.” Sam finally got emotional. “I'm upset that you can call someone else with a softer designation than you call me.”
“I don't know!” I was quick to sound frustrated.
“You used to call Tristan Mas as well, I can still understand because maybe you didn't know he was my brother. And you call him Mas as a form of respect. But your fellow lecturer? You call me Mas too? And I'm just you calling me name?”
I gawk. “Free because of it!?” I screamed loudly. “Just because of your trivial call to kayak gini same me?!” I shakes in disbelief. Everything was completely unthinkable to me.
“That call was never trivial for me!” sharp hatch.
I snorted then laughed while wiping away the tears that had somehow flowed since when. “If you want me to call Mas too, you should say, Sam! Not just be quiet. You think I understand what you want if you don't say it? I can't read your mind!”
“But you should be able to understand~”
“I don't know!” pissed scream. “So far I don't understand your codes and attitude and you know that. So stop making me the code is not clear. You better talk directly so that my brain can understand what you want!” cut me ketus.
I really don't know what else to say to Sam.
“I'm not as smart as you are if you forget!” Keep me cynical.
“You're smarter than that!” sharpened says. “You can definitely see for yourself if my family members no one calls her husband by name and~”
“And I'm stupid while you're smart!” I went back to angry. “Everything wrong me so?” I screamed hysterically. “Iya I was wrong. I'm stupid. I'm not sensitive!” I rubbed the watery cheeks. “Because I'm stupid you should have told me clearly. Because I'm insensitive shouldn't give me a code. And since I'm your wife, that doesn't mean you can blame me anyway. I'm tired, Sam. Cuckold your ngadepin which IS NOT CLEAR LIKE THIS!!” I said screaming and then sobbing.
Sam's expression looked as if I had just slapped him.
“Do you realize that you have been busy with your own business lately? Did you forget that every night I was almost alone at the dinner table, waiting for you who do not know when to go home. Do you realize you're starting to stay away?” I asked hoarsely and softly, then rubbed my cheeks. “I also can't love you son.” I said more and more and then immediately climbed the stairs to my room first.
Sam was still in his place.
I slammed the door and locked it, put myself on the bed and buried my face in the pillow and cried as hard as I wanted. All the sadness that I had been silent for a few months I overflowed by crying.
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I don't know how long I cried and was in my room until I heard a chat from outside my room. And I'm sure that's Sam and Papa's voice.
“You all right?”
I looked towards the door that was still closed. I heard Papa's voice probably asking Sam.
“Actually no, Pa. I'm not okay.”
I came back crying as soon as I heard Sam's voice.
He thinks he's the one who's not okay? Me either. I'm not okay, even I'm sick. Pain that somehow treats it.
“Sorry for making Papa's daughter cry. I've gone too far.”
I heard Sam's voice again. I buried my face in the pillow and covered my ears as much as possible. I don't want to hear his voice.
Until I finally heard the sound of the door handle being forcibly pulled. I raised my face and looked at the closed door.
“Di lock?” that's Papa's voice.
I know very well what Papa might be thinking right now. And sure enough after that I heard the sound of a key opening.
“Whatever anger Adel, he won't until hate you. Anger is a natural thing. He is so if he snags. In the mouth also melt. Yes Papa came down first yes.”
And just as Papa's voice disappeared I could hear the door open. I immediately pulled the blanket over my entire body and head. Sam shut the door and locked it. After that I felt He was sitting on the edge of my bed. He rubbed my arm covered in blankets, I was actually uncomfortable with this condition. But wouldn't it be better to be like this? I'd rather stay quiet and pretend to sleep under the covers.
I felt Sam move up onto the bed and hold me tightly from behind.
“Sorry.” Whispers slowly. “Sorry me.” Her impression while holding me tighter, as if not wanting to let go of me and make me cry again.
My tears are back. As much as possible I kept quiet and bit my lips down so as not to sob. I tried to calm myself by closing my eyes. Until I fell asleep in Sam's arms.
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TO BE CONTINUED....
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