My Boss Samuel's
73. Explanation of Sam

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“By me in.” Without having to let me know, of course, he will also come in.

Ck!

I sat cross-legged on the bed and leaned my back on the back of the bed. I'm still down. Then Sam sat in front of me, he had not continued his conversation even we both had a moment of silence for about five minutes. Then Sam lifted one leg up on the bed and turned his body towards me.

“Del ..” call him slowly.

“Hm.” That's all I can get out.

Ck, indeed I can answer moreover, there is no way I will answer it with 'yes dear'. I could fall in my pride.

“You're not crying, are you?” There was a worried tone from the sentence Sam let out.

“Now.” Still short.

If I'm honest, you'll worry again, ciyee....

Sam breathed for a moment. “Sorry for the incident, sorry for making you cry. I'm sorry, Adelia.”

“Sam I ..” does not seem to be Sam's goal to hear any opinions from me. He was willing to reveal what I should know and it seems like I should be a loyal listener for now.

“Please trust me.” Ask him before Sam continues his story.

I may still doubt but what's wrong I'm trying to trust Sam. A relationship must be based on trust, I decided to nod in response to Sam's request. Then Sam looked straight ahead, as if he wanted to take me into the story he was about to tell.

“I have a little story, I hope you want to hear it.” The request then immediately continued the story.

“Dulu ... right after I was born, the doctor gave me news that was not at all wanted or maybe something that did not want to be experienced by Mama. The doctor said that your uterus has cancer glands and suggested your uterus should be removed immediately before the condition gets worse and dangerous. Finally Mama was forced to do all that, although I do not know but I am sure the condition of Mama at that time must be very hit and it is not the will that Mama.” wants Is it true what Sam said, why it sounds so sad.

“As time went by Mama tried to forget that harsh reality by raising me as best she could, very well. My mother gave all her affection to me. And right at the age of two years Aroon was born and Mama was very happy with the birth of Aroon. She said, Aroon is very similar to me so Mama feels like she has two twins.” There was a smile coming out of the corner of Sam's lips.

“But it turns out that I can't get along with Aroon since a long time ago, he always cries if playing with me and I also don't know why we can be like that. I had a special reason at the time, I said that I didn't want to have a younger brother. I want a loving sister like Mama. Without me realizing I've been making a mistake ever since then not even realizing that there's something wrong with me.” Sam snorted softly while shaking his head.

“Should they all realize that something is wrong with me.” Imbluk slowly. I saw a regret on Sam's face.

Maybe Sam is thinking back to his childhood.

“After that Mother brought good news, if she was pregnant again. I don't understand what it is to be pregnant and Mama says that Mommy will give me a baby sister. At that time I was very happy, especially after I found out that the baby's sister was a woman according to my wishes. I love the baby who is still in the belly of the Mother that beat anyone, even defeated Aroon as her brother. Every day I always want to be near Mother, actually not near Mother but near the little sister I want.” Sam looked at me and slipped my messy haircut behind my ears.

Sam took my hand and held it warm.

“Until finally the baby was born as I wanted, little sister. She was so beautiful, she was so petite and cute, the first time I saw her I immediately put my love to her. Even I told everyone that Natalie was mine, if she was a toy she should not be touched by anyone but me. I always treated Natalie with affection and affection and it carried on until we were grown.” Sam's breathing started to get heavy, what happened to him? All I can do is return Sam's hand.

“Then the worst thing I never wanted happened to me. I lost Mama, the woman I love the most in this world, Mama just left me with the affection she always gave me.” Sam paused for a moment, I saw there was a tightness he was trying to endure. Sam tried to catch his breath for a moment before returning to the story.

“I was so devastated by Mama's passing that I blamed myself for not being able to love Mama, so Mama left. I've lost one of the most important women in my life. Then that's where my selfishness began to appear, and unfortunately again no one noticed it including me.” From there Sam began to take a long breath and then exhale it.

“I started to see Natalie as the person I wanted to take care of because I didn't want to see the woman I loved leaving me again. The first selfishness I did was when I heard Natalie had a lover and wanted to marry him.” Until here my heart began to respond to Sam's story with a feeling of pain, I could feel how much of a taste Sam gave to Natalie.

Sam closed his eyes for a moment and looked at me again like he just wanted to make sure I could still hear the story well.

“I'm not letting Natalie have a boyfriend and she's getting married. I get angry with all my family members, I don't want Natalie to be owned by anyone she can only be owned by me, Natalie is mine. Until one day Natalie hated me she didn't want to see me. I'm starting to get scared ... The shadow of losing the woman I thought was meaningful in my life will now happen again. Until Dad and Dad decided, they wanted to hear what I really felt for Natalie. Many times I say I love Natalie, I don't want her to be owned by anyone. Then Papa decided something very out of his mind and I knew it. If it's true I love and want to have Natalie Papa willing to marry me to Natalie.”

“Once Papa said that and concluded that the feeling I had was love. But I can't believe it, I'm not sure what I feel with Natalie is love. Is not love and want to have can not always be interpreted with love. Until finally Papa gave me the last choice, if it's true that I don't love and don't want to marry Natalie, Papa begged that I could let her marry someone else.” Sam gave a momentary pause.

“It certainly took time for it all, until I was completely willing and saw Natalie get married to Destian. After that my relationship with Natalie returned to good again, shortly after that Natalie was actually married to Destian. I feel like everything feels different even though there is still love I have for her. She already belongs to someone else and is not mine anymore.” Sam's fingers rubbed the back of my hand and from the corner of his lips I could see a small smile appear there.

“After that I decided to go with Papa to his home country, to London. I wish I could find something new. Long enough, almost a year until I finally decided to go back and meet you ... Adelia.”

My heart started pounding when Sam finally said my name. His hand moved towards my cheek and brought my face to meet his. Should I be happy now?

“I met you and without me knowing you managed to steal my entire limelight. I like finding a new world that can make me forget all the bad memories I've had, a world I've never felt before and I'm sure I call it love.” Sam stroked my cheek very gently, his shady eyes looking at me deeply. “I felt that love the first time I saw you. Your face, your smile, your nature even your voice, everything in you makes me really fall in love, Adelia. Obviously this is a very different taste that I have never felt to anyone before.”

Is it true that everything I'm listening to right now, is Sam telling the truth. Why did I know that Sam loved me so much? Please convince me again Sam, make my heart really believe after all the stories you told me earlier.

Sam began to pull my nape slowly forward and drew closer towards him. Now my forehead and Sam's forehead are stuck together, even now I can feel the heavy breath that Sam let out hit my face. My heart is beating more and more erratically followed by a heartbeat that seems to have no stopping.

“I don't want to lose you, you're my life, Adelia. I don't even know if I had to live my life like that if you were to walk away from me, it would probably be worse than before. I was almost crazy earlier if you were really angry with me. Please ... Trust me, stay by my side and don't stay with me, baby.” Sluggishly.

For the first time I heard there was a man who was so sincerely begging me and asking for something, he was not one of my family members neither Papa nor Vino. He was a new person who made it into my life. My lips immediately shook I could not hide this feeling anymore, my body began to tremble as if my defense was at its maximum.

I cried and hugged Sam's body. I put my face to his chest, I cried all over there. There was a pain in my chest cavity I didn't know what kind of pain it was, which obviously my heart was in pain hearing the plea from Sam's mouth. Why did he ask me for trust? Why would he want to be by my side? Why can't I leave Sam? Wh why?

Even now I'm starting to be unsure if I can actually leave Sam's side.

AARRGH!

It seems that Sam purposely let me cry in his arms, he held me warm with his hands even incessantly rubbing my back. Now that I'm ashamed, I'm ashamed to look so whiny. It took me almost half an hour to calm myself down and slowly started to stop crying. Although sometimes still as much as I like but I still try to stop it.

“Sam ..” I finally got my voice out again after a long time I held on, although it sounded raucous and slow but I'm sure Sam heard it.

“What?” he asked slowly, still rubbing my hair.

“If I can't always be by your side, may I ask to leave now?” I don't know what I'm thinking but I want to say it.

Sam held me tight. “Do not!” said.

I felt happy when I heard that word.

“Never say you want to leave me, Adelia. Because I will do everything I can to keep you by my side.” Sam gave me a long kiss right on my forehead.

The tip of my lips began to be interested in making a smile knot when feeling the affection Sam gave me. It seems like it's enough of this grief drama, I still want to use my eyes normally tomorrow morning.

For now what Sam says is enough to make me believe, even if I can't promise but I will try to trust him. And I will also try to grant her request, I will always try to be by Sam's side.

Then I chuckled softly while hitting Sam's chest. “And I've told you, don't be too sweet. You don't fit!”

Sam snorted softly and then took off his embrace. He looked at my face which might now look even more miserable than before. Then Sam smiled with one hand rubbing my cheek.

“Iya I forgot, I promise not to repeat it again.” The next second we both laughed together. The incident that had happened just a moment ago seemed to disappear in my mind.

Right now I'm happy, and it's good that I feel with Sam. A thing I always wanted.

Suddenly I was surprised by the arrival of someone from the end of the door. He put on his innocent-looking smile.

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