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I opened my eyes as I felt a pair of warm arms embracing me, and a gentle rub in my hair, even a few kisses on my forehead.
And I immediately remembered that I must have fallen asleep.
I was about to move away when I realized Sam was holding me, but he tightened his arms and took my head to his chest.
“I'm sorry.” His whispers with a trembling voice. “I'm sorry, Adelia.” It was like holding back a cry.
I just kept quiet.
“I'm childish, I'm excessive, I'm possessive I know that. I ignored you, threw all the blame onto you when I knew it was my fault. But I don't want to admit that it's my fault. I'm selfish.” Whisper it slowly.
I chose not to give him any response.
“I should have told you about me wanting to be called softer, I should have been more attentive to you, I should have known you. But it turns out I was wrong. I can't.” Sam gave a momentary pause.
“Didn't I ask you to call me Sam. I should have come to my senses and remembered .. I really felt silly for being angry just because of a call.”
I squeezed the shirt Sam was wearing and came back crying on his chest.
“I'm sorry, sorry.” Her whispers are crying in my hair. “I haven't thought of you in all this time. I'm always busy and ignoring you, never been by your side every time you need me.” Sam's body shook. “This morning, when I wake up and you're not around, you won't know how panicked I am. I was afraid I realized you were leaving me. And earlier ..” he hugged me tighter. “When you say you're tired of facing me, I'm afraid, Del ... I'm scared.”
I'm shaking. I didn't really tell him that. I was just being emotional and couldn't control my speech.
“I'm sorry.” His whisper once again then broke off the hug and rubbed my wet cheek. “Sorry can't be the perfect husband for you.” He wiped my tears with his thumb. “Don't stay with me. Please.” Please with red eyes.
I hugged his neck tightly. “I'm wrong.” My whisper slowly. “I don't need a perfect husband. I just need you to spend a little time for me, loneliness it does not feel good.”
“I'm wrong.” Said slowly. “I was wrong. I never thought about your feelings.”
“Then we're both wrong.” I said later, hugging her tighter. “You were wrong and I was wrong too. We are both wrong.”
We were both wrong. I didn't talk to him and he didn't want to talk either. We've lost communication lately and made things messy.
For God's sake, he should have known that at any moment I would never be able to get out of his life.
Sam drowned his face in my neck. To hide the tears that began to drip from his eyes. I cried watching her, and for the first time I saw Sam crying and it was because he was afraid of losing me.
••
“So you want to call, Mas?” I asked while lying on his chest, his hands hugging me tightly.
Sam shakes. “I don't think it matters. I'm childish just because of a call.”
I looked up, rubbing his reddened eyes. “So what do you want to call? Dear?”
Sam chuckled softly, kissing my forehead. “It's lebay.” Geli's words.
I am smiling amusedly. “So what should I call? Stay Sam?”
“If Mas I feel like Tristan with your fellow lecturer. And besides Mas that's Vino's nickname for me right?” Sam seemed to think. “No one fits it.”
I laughed softly and kissed the chest of the field. “So I have to how?”
Sam smiled and rubbed my eyes. “Stay as usual, Sam.”
I smiled, stroking her innocent body. “Let's think of a suitable call for you.”
Sam laughs. As if I knew what was inside my head. “Do not be strange.”
I sniggered while tucking her lips. “Oppa?”
Sam laughed amusedly while shaking his head. I nodded in understanding then hugged her tighter, putting my head on her chest.
“Sam.”
“Hm.” Sam muttered with his hand stroking my hair.
“We're all right?”
“Ya, we are all right.” Reply firmly.
“Although there are no children?” I asked a little doubt.
Sam raised my face to look at her. “I have no problem with it, the presence or absence of children, you remain the person I need most all this time.”
My eyes are back to watering.
“Do not cry. You're ugly.” It choked me with laughter and tears. “I Just need you. I don't need anything else.”
My tears are flowing again. “But you definitely want to have a child.”
“I do want to, but that doesn't mean I have to force it to exist. I just want you, Adelia. It's just you.” His whisper kissed my lips softly.
I hugged his body. “Don't overtime too often, I'm lonely.”
Sam hugged me back. “I'm sorry, I've split the work with Aroon. Finally he wanted to jump into the company of grandfathers too. Starting tomorrow I won't be overtime anymore.” Whisper while peeping the top of my head.
“Appointment?”
“I promise.” Whisper really. “This year I almost lost you. I don't want that to happen.”
I smile. Nodding and tucking his lips.
Sam smiled faintly. “Wedding. People say first year is the hardest.”
I stared at him for a long time. “But we can get through it right?”
Sam nodded and then kissed my lips again. “As long as we are always together. We will always be able to pass through.”
Sam kissed my lips again, and now even started biting my lower lip so much that it made me tingle.
Everything's gonna be fine. I believe that, while Sam is beside me, holding my hand and holding me like this, everything will be fine. Isn't that what I've been thinking all along.
Because he's my husband.
Don't you?
My husband Sam is a man with a big ego, so as a wife I have to be good at putting things in place. Now I understand the meaning of my mother's words. Not only Sam, but I also feel childish.
But isn't this all a process of achieving true happiness? There is no really smooth road to reach the desired destination, there will always be rocks, pebbles and obstacles. It depends on humans willing to give up or choose to keep going, because we will never know what we will get after passing the obstacles.
••
Sam and I stared at the key to Vespa's motorcycle that Papa gave him. “Make you.” Papa told Sam.
Sam grabbed it and looked at me. Then look at Papa. “Motor Papa, make me?”
Papa nodded, stroking the well-preserved Juki. “Papa don't give you a wedding gift yet.” Said Papa while staring fondly at Vespanya. “You love money, you have more than Papa has. You want to give things, you have everything you want. So finally Papa decided to love you one of the most precious Papa has.”
Sam was grabbing my shoulder. “Papa has already given Sam a priceless thing. The treasure Papa has guarded the most during this.”
“Elaaaah, very adem words. This has become a family film Sandalwood kayaknya.” Chirps Vino who just came and parked his bike in front of the house.
“Lo spoils the atmosphere anyway, Vin.” My body is a little upset.
Vino only chuckled while shrugging like an innocent, after which ran into the house. Sam and Papa laughed.
Papa then smiled and looked at me. “Papa knows Adel is the most valuable for Papa. Including young people who just passed earlier.” We chuckle together. “But, Papa still wants to give you something.” Said Papa ngotak.
I put my head to Sam's chest. I know how valuable Vespa is to Papa. Vespa who witnessed the journey of his life with Mama, Vespa was as old as my age. So hearing Papa give Sam the Vespa, it made me understand that Papa not only considers Sam as a son-in-law, but his own son.
“Papa sure want to give this beloved Vespa Papa to Sam?”
Papa nodded steadily with teary eyes. “Now you have two valuable treasures Papa that you must take good care of.”
I grunt. “Papa equate me to motor?”
Sam coughed concealing his laughter while Papa glared.
“Yes times, just Mama who was suspected with Juki and Jazzy, Papa want to make me suspicious also with Vespa and Sam's work?” I snorted in annoyance, then Sam hugged my waist.
“Nbeckan.” His whisper peeped at my cheek in front of Papa.
I pinched his stomach and he just laughed.
“You are the same Mama, the same. Ngomel mulu, kayak duck.” Said Papa stepping into the house.
“Tuh, tuh. Papa's the same as Sam, his mouth asked for in cabein.”
“Kok me wrong?” Sam bit the tip of my nose.
“Iya keep you wrong.” I said not to lose.
“Ck, this woman.” He clucked while pinching my cheek. “Eat chicken noodles again, yuk.” Take her while pulling me closer to Juki who is already clean in the garage.
I rolled my eyeballs. We just finished lunch thirty minutes ago. “It's true you're still hungry, Sam? I ate a lot already.”
Sam laughed, putting a helmet on my head. “Still wanting to eat again. How's dong?”
I just clucked and sat behind him, hugging his waist which started riding the Vespa out of my courtyard.
••
Things got a lot better. Since Sam split the job with Aroon. It should have been like that before. He is no longer too busy.
In fact, I started to think that Sam became lazy to work, he spent more time at home or waiting for me to teach on campus. Even sometimes Aroon and Raffael would suddenly come to our house and rage at Sam, accusing him of being irresponsible with the job. And if you think Sam is offended by Aroon's words, you're wrong.
Sam doesn't care and bodo is very.
Since me and Sam have occupied this house. The apartment that Sam used to live in now belongs to Raffael and Aroon. But because Raffael reasoned that if he lived with Aroon, he could not be free then he bought another apartment that was right next to Sam's apartment first. They stayed there after working at Sam's company, and would stay at our house on holidays.
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Yes, that's the marriage...
Household life can not be equated with relationships during courtship. Who used to date looks adem-adem aja, after all .. in fact can not guarantee that after marriage also will be cool.
Marriage is not just about living together, but it brings together two different traits. Attitudes, opinions, ego and everything.
The problem will always exist. Although maybe most people will prefer to hide and show the good thing. After all, I also do not deny that problems must arise even though only a handful of upil. wkwkwkwkwk...
Being open to each other, understanding, believing, giving in and communicating is probably a small example that can be done to unite the two differences in marriage.
Duh, even a lecture... Haha
Yes more or less like that is the message that can be taken from the problem of Adelia the same Sam.
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