My Desire
A Confession

"Where are you going..?"

"You go to mom's room.."

"Mother's company street - street.."

"Well.why do you want to walk - which way..?"

"How about shopping..?"

"Hmm. it seems like fun." said Azkara. "Then he'll call Abi. he'll be able to help us get our things.."

"Finame to your sister.."

"Borrow for a little while, ma'am." said Azkara. "Totally possessive.."

"You know for yourself, if something is already his, no one should touch it.."

"But Abi was a man and a servant. It would not be good for El if I was too close and possessive.."

"Ah, that's the decision.."

"What's this Azka why argue with mom..?" said Haiden who arrived - suddenly appeared.

"I want to walk with mom. let Abi take me.."

Haiden was silent.he thought for a moment.The office would feel lonely without him.. Haiden was already used to Aira's presence.

"This is also for the sake of the mission you gave me." Azkara whispered in Haiden's ear

Shit..he took advantage of the command I gave him, sighing "Well you take Abi. but don't you have him bring your groceries.."

"Just calm down, brother, I'll take good care of him.."

Haiden immediately said goodbye to Harika and Azkara. Today there was something lacking with him.

"Abi.today you take us shopping.."

"Well, lady, I'll be ready.."

Before long the three of them with some bodyguards went to the shopping mall. It only took them thirty minutes they finally arrived.

Harika and Azkara enter a famous clothing store. Abi was just behind them and looking. Suddenly his eyes were fixed on a dress with a floral motif of green color with a velvet skirt of dark brown color.

If I had money, of course, I would have bought that shirt. He came up to the shirt and held it for a while. Softness..

"Hmm. good." said Azkara from behind.

"Oh lady.yeah this is indeed good.the material is also soft.."

"If you like it I buy it.."

"I love this type of dress.."

"You..?" tanya Azkara furrowed her brows.

"Eh. I mean my lover miss. yes my lover.."

"Oh your lover." said Azkara mangosteen. Soon you will be in my trap Aira Inner Azkara.

"I'll buy it for you. well itung - itung as a gift.."

"What gift is miss..?"

"Well because you've been looking after El and also Mom.."

"REally..?" aira's eyes sparkled

"He em. right." said Azkara. "Bak asked this one for help huh." she ordered while pointing at the dress that Aira liked.

The shopkeeper immediately picked up and removed the hanger, then handed it to Azkara.

"Thank you." Azkara replied. "Where's the fitting room..?"

"There, miss." replied the waiter.

"Nah Abi. try you can change clothes there.." Azkara's orders are trapping.

"Well miss.thank you." said Aira with a happy face. His aura could radiate from the look in his eyes.

But just a few steps he realized his mistake. "Sorry lady.how can I try. I am a man.."

"Ah. yes I forgot." said Azkara. "I'm sorry Abi.."

"It's okay, miss.."

"Yes try to check whether the size fits the body of your lover.."

Aira examined the size "This is fitting miss.."

"Well, take it to the cashier's desk and I'll pay for it.."

Aira brought the shirt to the cashier. Azkara watched him from afar. Heh your female soul must have been struggling to see these beautiful clothes. Just wait for Aira after this you will definitely be tempted again inner Azkara smiled with satisfaction.

"Hey you're daydreaming..What are you looking at..?"

"Mom just wait and see the results." said Azkara then immediately followed to the cashier's table.

Once in the clothing store the three of them headed to a cosmetics and perfume shop.

Azkara chose some powder and lipstick. "Take it here." call him.

"Yes, miss.."

"Try to see..which color do you think matches..?" Azkara showed some lipstick to Aira.

Aira's eyes widened to see the colors - good colors. Even those colors he had wanted to try for a long time. Azkara looked at the expression of Aira who had turned into joy. Looks like the mission went well.

"Hey why bengong..? come on, which do you think is best..?"

"Hmm. I think this one's coral color or peach tea.."

"Good.. will look beautiful on the lips." said Azkara while taking a tester and trying on her lips.

"What do you think..?"

"Wow.the color is really pretty miss.." praise Aira with sparkling eyes.

The color is really good, later if there is free time and get a vacation from the master.I will buy it with Eka and Nayla Inner Aira.

"You want to try it..?"

"Eh. yes I want miss." replied Aira spontaneously. Oops.. Aira.

"You have to give me an explanation when Abi comes home" Azkara said

"It's okay. don't be afraid.explain it later when you get home.."

"I'm sorry, miss." said Aira, looking down.

After choosing some cosmetics and perfumes. The three of them will be home soon. During the trip Aira was just silent. Frankly his heart was not calm as his disguise was known to Azkara. How about it sound in your ears too. He will certainly be expelled.what about the fate of workers in the company Baskara. Everything raged in Aira's mind.

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That night in Aira's room.

"You're a woman..?"

"Yes, I'm sorry.."

"Who's your real name..?"

"Denaira Kamania Abimana.."

"I don't mind Aira, but you lied to my sister.."

"Yes I know I have lied to you. But I have a reason..but why did you know so quickly that I am a woman..?"

"I'm an Aira art worker once I first met you I knew right away that you were a woman. Your posture, your manner of speaking, your manner of walking.. then I prove it by taking you for a walk.."

"Miss is very clever.."

"I'm waiting for your explanation Aira.."

Aira recounts from the beginning she agreed to disguise herself as a man. He did it for the workers in the company.

"Why do you want to do it Aira..? do you never feel that you have been lied to and used by your family..?"

"There's a lady.just I assume it's my return because they want to raise and house me.."

"Hey give back what..! home, the company is actually yours." Azkara said furiously.

"Even when one day you asked me how if Om Baskara could not pay his debt.. so I've dashed my hopes slowly to have my own home, out of the Baskara family circle, because I know I'll be a servant here for life.."

"Evil..! so wicked..!" azkara. "You should fight for your own happiness.."

Aira let out a long sigh "It was originally like that miss. but after I stayed here for a long time and felt the warmth that mistress Harika and master Haiden gave me I could feel the meaning of a family again.. moreover, Miss Eda, Noah, Mustofa was also good to me so I chose to stay.." explained Aira. "And there's one more reason, too.."

"What is Aira..? tell me.."

"My parents died in an accident at that time I woke up before finally fainting and was taken to the hospital, in black and using a car with the "Ls" symbol is like this family crest. They kind of confirm whether me and my parents are really dead.."

"What..! really it..?! does El know.."

"No miss. I did not tell you. If I tell you, you will realize that I am a woman.."

"True too.. do you suspect the accident was on purpose..?"

"Yes, miss.."

"That means they've targeted you and your parents.."

"And also one of those men I've met here.."

"Who..?"

"Name's Roberto.."

"Roberto..? he's uncle Kemal's bodyguard.."

"Certainly miss.."

"But.. why Roberto..? there is no way my uncle was the mastermind of the accident that befell your parents.My uncle also did not know your family and also my uncle was a good man Aira. indeed he often quarreled with El.. but his heart is good.."

Maybe now Miss Azkara has not what you have been doing all this time because she lived a long time abroad.. it wasn't my porch to tell me about the matter Aira thought.

"I can't accuse anyone - who is Miss. because all of that needs evidence.but the evidence seems to disappear without a trace.. and I just got a bright spot working here.."

"So that's also the reason that makes you stay in this house despite being a servant for life..?"

"Certainly miss.."

"I'll try to help you Aira. I'm sure we'll find your parents' killer soon.."

"Thank you, miss." said Aira, clasping Azkara's hand. "And please do not say this to anyone miss. someday I will tell you with the master and mistress.easily - hopefully they can understand my position.."

I'm sorry Aira I promised I wouldn't tell anyone but my sister Inner Azkara. "Well, I promise." said Azkara. "Rest me I'll come out.."

"Yes, miss.."

Azkara exited Aira's room and headed to Haiden's room.

"How's..? already know the reason..?"

"Had it.."

"Good tell me.."

"El. I really feel sorry for him. I beg you if you like him please don't play with his feelings like other women.."

"You're crazy when I play with their feelings.they're the ones chasing me. And I'm not sure how I feel.."

"Okay. okay, I know you're like you're always responsible for your attitude.."

"Tell me quickly.."

Azkara recounts all of her conversations with Aira including the accident that her parents experienced..

"Well, when he met Roberto he was very hysterical even chasing the car that Kemal drove without stopping.."

"By hearing her stories and her life story, I have come to appreciate all that is in me.."

"I'll help investigate.."

"Thank you El.." said Azkara. "Well, if you're restless tonight, you can't sleep. Just come to her room. I'm sure Aira is currently sleeping soundly.."

"Damn it. I'm not a cowardly man who acts in silence.."

"Okay, my handsome brother is not a coward.I as your sister just give advice." said Azkara with a smile. "I'll rest first. Good night El.."

"Night.."

After Azkara's death, Haiden looked restless. Shit..why do I think about Azkara's advice.I really can't sleep Haiden's restless mind. I haven't seen him all day. Haiden picks up and opens his iPad, appearing on the screen that Aira is asleep.

"It seems like tonight I have to be a coward just for comfort in sleep." Haiden muttered. He immediately picked up his pajamas, put them on and walked out of the room. Stepping firmly walking towards the room of the stamp of familiarity.

"I knew you'd do it El.." murmured Azkara who saw her sister coming out of her bedroom walking towards Aira's room. It's just that you haven't noticed your feelings El Inner Azkara.. I hope good things will happen soon in this house.it's time you felt my brother's happiness.

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