My Introvert Husband 3
So beaten

His keeseokan, Alana is still devastated by her sadness, after the departure of her father, she is increasingly hit by the loss of a fetus that is completely unknown to her presence. He shut himself up and isolated himself in the room. He repeatedly blamed himself for the miscarriage.

For a time, Ken invited his wife to stay at Mama Merry and Papa Gio's house.  So that Alana does not feel lonely, at least at Mama Merry's house, there are Jesslyn and Kimmy who can help to comfort her.

That morning, Alana was sitting on top of the bed with a slouch. His gaze was so blank, thinking of the sense raging within his heart and mind.

Ken went into the room and was seen carrying food and drinks on a tray and putting them on a bedside table, then he sat his body next to his wife.

"Alana." her call only made both of Alana's eyes glance without moving her body position.

"Darling, come eat, I'll feed you" Ken took the plate and tried to give him a spoonful of it.

"I don't want to..." Alana shook her head.

"Alana, you from last night did not enter food at all, please just eat a little," pinta Ken.

"I don't want to! Don't force me!" alana Bengpak.

"When are you going to be like this? with you shutting yourself up and grieving like this, can you give it all back?"

"Alana, Daddy wouldn't be happy to see you like this!" exclaim Ken.

"You don't understand!  You don't understand what it's like to be me! You'll never understand!"  alana snapped, she was crying.

"I lost Daddy and my son, Ken. I didn't want any of this, only for a moment I was happy to see Daddy healed, but God took it from me. And now that I have to lose my son, you'll never understand how tormented I am, Ken!" Alana looked at her husband and said with a sigh.

"Alana you think I'm not tormented? seeing you like this, I'm really tormented!" exclaim Ken. Alana just fell silent and looked at Ken, her tears alternately wetting her face and falling through her pointy chin. Ken pulled Alana's body and hugged her so tightly.

"Please don't be like this" he said in a softened voice.

"I don't know what else to do, Ken.." said Alana sobbing.

"You have to accept the truth. Not everything in the world will live eternally." said Ken while kissing the top of his wife's head.  At the very least, Ken's words and hugs made Alana a little calm. Ken again persuaded Alana to eat with difficulty, until finally the woman wanted to eat and want a bribe.

Ken's phone rang very loudly, making him stop his activities and immediately whisk his cellphone lying on the table. Ken picked up an incoming call that was none other than his client. Alana listened to her husband's conversation with his client, and shortly afterwards, Ken ended the call.

"You want to go to work?" alana asked as she chewed the food inside her mouth lazily.

"Yes, my client invited me to meet to discuss cooperation" Ken replied.

"Yes, go away." - Alana ordered. Ken looked at Alana with a look so deep, I don't know, he felt so reluctant to leave her.

"I'm fine, '" he added.

Ken nodded and stood up, immediately getting ready to change his work clothes. Shortly thereafter, Jesslyn is seen coming into the room after Ken calls her. Because it just so happened that Jesslyn did not go to college because of diarrhea, but now she has improved.

"What's up, brother?" asked Jesslyn who was still standing in front of the door while holding the doorknob.

"Sister, will go to work. Please accompany Alana, "command Ken.

"Ready, Brother." Jesslyn so excitedly let go of the doorknob and walked up to Alana to sit next to him.

"Ken rubbed Alana's face and watched her. "I go first" she hugged Alana tightly and kissed her forehead and lips. Jesslyn immediately closed her eyes when she saw the scene.

"Why did you close your eyes like that?" reprimand Ken.

"It's okay..." Jesslyn chuckles.

"Jesslyn, don't leave Alana alone!" ken is back.

"Yes, how chatty this big brother is!" jesslyn. Ken passed out of the room, he repeatedly turned to look at Alana as if her footsteps were so heavy leaving his wife at home.

****

Late in the afternoon, Jesslyn accompanied Alana in the room while reading her favorite novel. While Alana, she was just silent and daydreaming with a blank look. Even if Jesslyn read a book, she could not help but pay attention to Alana and occasionally invite her to talk. He felt that the mother-in-law with her sister-in-law, Jesslyn who usually saw the joy on Alana's face now as if she did not know him, Alana turned into a quiet and closed herself, she said, Jesslyn was also saddened when she heard the news of Alana's miscarriage, but she and Kimmy always tried to comfort her even though her efforts were in vain.

"Alana, aren't you bored?" ask Jesslyn. Alana just shook her head without making a sound.

"You wanna play snake ladder?" ask Jesslyn.

Alana fell silent and looked at Jesslyn "can.." she replied briefly.

"Well, wait here, I'll go to the bathroom first, then pick up the board" Jesslyn closed her book and stood out of the room.

When Jesslyn is invisible and out of the room, Alana gets out of bed and quietly walks out of the house without saying goodbye to anyone.

His legs led him to walk to the pharmacy that lies near the complex of his home-in-law, he was seen buying drugs at the pharmacy he visited at the time. After getting the medicine he bought, Alana quickly returned home and was about to go into the room.

"Alana, where are you from?" jesslyn's voice suddenly startled her to the point of making Alana slightly furthest.

"Jesslyn..." Alana immediately slipped the medicine in her grip into her pants pocket to keep it from being seen by Jesslyn.

"Where are you from? I was just looking for you" asked Jesslyn.

"Ehm, I-I'm from the park" replied Alana. He also had to lie.

"Oh, yeah, let's play, I've got the snake board, '" Jesslyn showed the board to Alana. Then, he pulled Alana's hand and invited her into his sister's room and told her to sit on the bed until their current position sat facing each other.

"Let's try Kimmy doesn't go to college, we can play threes as usual" Jesslyn said as she held the board game between them. However, Alana's chaotic thoughts did not catch what her sister-in-law said.

"Alana, let's get you to shake the chest" Jesslyn ordered. Alana agreed, he grabbed both dice given by Jesslyn and wanted to shuffle it, but, it felt like at that time he was really lazy to do anything including playing board games like this. Suddenly Alana undoes her intention to play and put the dice.

"I don't want to play this" Alana said.

"Then what do you want to play, Alana?" ask Jesslyn.'

"I don't want to play anything" Alana replied as she shifted her gaze.

"All right..." Jesslyn showed a bit of disappointment and cleared up the game that she had not been able to play.

Alana merylic towards Jesslyn who was busy cleaning her mannequin. "Jesslyn, I'd love some warm chocolate milk and tuna toast, would you make it for me?" her door.

"Of course, I'll make you some chocolate milk and tuna toast." Jesslyn excitedly got out of bed. "Let's wait here for a minute Alana." Jesslyn's voice was faintly heard as she moved away from the room.

When Alana had not seen Jesslyn out of her eyes, she immediately got out of bed and locked the door. He immediately spread his body on the bed until repeatedly changing his position that he felt uncomfortable.

He sat down and brushed his head and hair until it looked messy. His chaotic mind led him down from the bed and walked up to the mirror and stood in front of it.

Now, Alana is standing right in front of the mirror that reflects her entire body. Alana stared at her reflection, holding her hand and rubbing her flat stomach to make herself cry all of a sudden. Alana relaxed her body until she sat down drooping under the floor.

"I hate all this!" Alana held back her screams and hardened her cries even more.

"Why don't you take your life, you guys? why do you have to torture myself like this? what's wrong..."  Alana hugged her knees and cried.

Alana lifted her face and wiped her tears, she grabbed the medicine she had bought and she kept it in her pants pocket. Then, he stood up, walked up to the table and picked up the glass of water on the bedside table.

Alana took some medicine and swallowed it and dissolved it with water, then, she relaxed her body to sit under the floor while leaning her back on the bed divan. Alana closed her eyes, hoping to calm herself down, but still, she felt the same way. He felt increasingly chaotic and could not control the chaos that rumbled in his mind and heart.

The departure of her father and the doctor who said that she miscarried, repeatedly ringing so much that her head hurt when remembering it simultaneously.

Alana opened her eyes again, glancing around as if looking for something. But he did not find what he was looking for, his eyes suddenly centered toward the glass that still showed water in it. The glass that Alana had made to take medicine. He took the glass back and threw away the water that was still standing in it.

Pyarrr

The glass was split into pieces when Alana hit the floor of the room. Alana picked up one of the sharpest shards of glass. His eyes that were still in tears stared clearly at the sharpness of the broken glass. Alana couldn't think clearly, she didn't think of anything at the time.

Alana closed her eyes and stuck the broken glass into her left wrist.. He screamed in pain, but tried to hold it. He saw clearly, blood pouring down on his wrist. Alana stared blankly in any direction and left the broken glass still stuck on her wrist. His blood flowed to the floor, Alana's eyes grew increasingly withered until soon her body was lying on the floor and her eyes were now perfectly closed.

***

"Alana... Why did you lock the door? please open the door, I've made you chocolate milk and tuna toast!" call Jesslyn, but there's no inside. Jesslyn did not give up.

Geck... Geck... Geck...

"Alana.. let's open the door" cried Jesslyn.

"Why didn't Alana open the door?" jesslyn muttered in surprise. His eyes instantly rolled. He placed the tray containing the drinks and food on the table not far from the reach and called Alana back.

"Alana open the door..."  Jesslyn who had not received any sound from Alana looked so panicked. He banged on the door of the room getting louder.

"Alana open the door, what are you doing inside? why did you lock the door?" jesslyn's loud scream made Merry and Bi Moleey who were in the kitchen immediately approached her.

"Jesslyn, why are you yelling?" reproach Merry.

"Mama, Alana locked the door from the inside, she didn't want to open it" Jesslyn said in a panic. Merry immediately twirled the doorknob and tried to open the door of the room, but what Jesslyn said was true. Alana locked the door from the inside.

"Alana, what are you doing inside, baby? let's open the door, son. Mama wanted to enter." Merry's scream was accompanied by a knock on the door, but he did not find any sayings from inside.

"Mama, Jesslyn, what's wrong?" Ken and Gio are seen just returning from the office.

"Sister... Papa's... Alana locked herself in the room, she did not want to open the door of her room" Jesslyn said, her face still could not be separated from her panic.

Ken's eyes were perfectly rounded. Not much to say, he banged on the door as hard as he could, trying to open it and calling out his wife's name. However, he did not get an answer or a word at all from there.

"Alana... open the door!" Ken raised his voice.

Gio, who seemed to be panicking, passed away and took the tool and immediately went back to Ken and the others. "Ken, we better just break the door!" said Gio who was currently carrying an axe in his hand.

"Let's just Ken, Pa." Ken took the axe from his Papa's hand and immediately broke the door, he repeatedly hit the axe making the doorknob detach until the door was opened.

Ken immediately went into the room and was followed by Jesslyn, Mama Merry and Papa Gio.

And as they all entered, their eyes were made so shocked as they saw Alana lying with so much blood lining her hands and also the floor of her room.

"Well..." Ken shouted and immediately approached his wife, he raised Alana's hand and still saw a glass fragment stuck on his wrist. Ken pulled out the glass. He pulled the tie that was still attached to his neck and tied the wound that drained blood on Alana's wrist.

"Papa, please help Ken drive the car, please" Ken asked.

"Yes, son." Gio immediately took over the keys and quickly exited the house to prepare the car.

With his body and hands so trembling, Ken immediately lifted Alana's body and walked towards the car. He got into the car and hugged Alana's body tightly, even his elf fell on the face of the woman he now holds. Merry went with them. But not Jesslyn, because Ken and Mery forbid him to come along. Gio immediately drove his car at maximum speed to get to the nearest hospital.

On the way, Ken holds Alana's wrist for her blood to stop flowing from there. He looked at the plain face of his wife who had paled. " Papa, please hurry, please" Ken ordered.

"Why are you doing this,?" both corners of Ken's eyes look wet, he hugged Alana's body more tightly.For God's sake, he was so scared when he saw the blood that was still unceasingly flowing from his wife's wrist. Bad things running around in his mind made him even more frightened.

The car that Gio was driving now stopped in front of the hospital. Ken immediately went down to lift his wife's body to go in there and was followed by Merry. Some nurses and doctors who saw him, immediately told Ken to bring Alana into the A&E room or commonly called the ER room. Ken placed Alana on the bed and told the doctor that if his wife tried to commit suicide and stuck a glass of glass on her wrist. The doctor immediately handled it. The nurse tells Ken and Merry to wait in the room.

Ken's body instantly squeezed. "Ken... Is Alana handled?" ask Papa Gio who just came in and caught up with them. Ken simply nodded with reddened eyes trying to hide his fear. Gio wrapped his hand on the shoulder of the firstborn and rubbed it.

"Papa, Ken's afraid..." Ken looked at Gio with almost full eyes.

"What if something bad happens to Alana, Pa?" Gio saw very clearly, the worry on the look on his son's face.

Gio immediately grabbed him, hugged his son and tried to calm him down. "Nothing will happen, Alana will be fine" he said.

"Ken's really scared, Pa." Ken couldn't hold back his emotions, not even realizing his tears were now soaking up the shirt that Papa Gio was wearing. He was afraid of bad things happening to his wife.

Shortly after, the doctor was seen coming out of the room. Ken approached him immediately.

"Doctor, how's my wife?" ask Ken impatiently.

"You don't over-commit it, sir. Miss Alana we've handled it, fortunately the broken glass did not hit her veins" said the doctor. For whatever sake, Ken, Merry and Gio heard it with such relief.

"Miss Alana's under the influence of drugs, but you can meet her" said the doctor.

"We'll call a Psychiatrist" he added.

"For what, Doc?" ask Ken.

"I think the color, Miss Alana is under a lot of pressure, so let the Psychiatrist take a look" replied the Doctor. Ken said what the doctor said.

***

Merry and Gio momentarily look at Alana, then Ken told her to go home immediately because she did not want to bother her parents.

Now, Ken sat beside Alana's bed, looked at her mother and rubbed her head repeatedly.

"Why are you doing all this?" Ken landed a kiss many times on the face of the woman he loved so much. He hugged her for so long, pouring out the fear and anxiety that almost made his heart slip out of place.

"Sister.." The voice of the woman who was none other than Jesslyn made Ken look at her. Ken was astonished when he saw that his sister was suddenly there.

"Why are you here? I told you, wait at home!" exclaim Ken.

"I'm worried about Alana, brother. So I'm coming here, is Alana okay?" ask Jesslyn.

"You see it how?" exclaim Ken. Jesslyn shook her head.

"Son't told you! Don't leave Alana alone, but you leave her!" ken's screams made Jesslyn so scared.

"I'm sorry, Jesslyn, Brother. Alana asked me to make chocolate milk and toast, so Jesslyn left her for a while." Jesslyn still lowered her head and did not dare to look at her sister.

Shortly after, Alana's eyes blinked. His eyes adjusted the light of the lamp that was shining on him. Her blurry eyes now looked at her husband and sister-in-law so clearly.

"Alana.." Ken's face was so calm when he saw his wife was conscious.

Alana was still silent and watching around, she closed her eyes until the clear liquid was swept there when she realized that she was now in the hospital.

"Why am I here?" ask Alana.

"You hurt yourself, I found you in the room" Ken said slowly.

"You shouldn't have brought me here!" Alana's tears flowed through both corners of her eyes to make a pillow that rested her head wet because of it.

"Well..."

"You shouldn't have brought me here! I don't want to, Ken. I don't want to live anymore!" Alana cried out hysterically, she was about to pull out the bandage that was wrapped in a wound on her wrist, she was also about to pull the hose of her inpus. But Ken's hand quickly grabbed him and told Jesslyn to call the doctor immediately.

"Take me off, Ken!" Alana was constantly screaming and crying. He tries to thrash but Ken won't let go.

"Alana, calm down, please don't torture me like this!" ken.

"I don't want to live anymore, Ken. I don't want to!" Alana was crying.

"You want to leave me and let me live alone?" ken's question made Alana suddenly fall silent and look at him.

"Are you leaving me?"  Ken re-expressed the question. Alana was still unmoved, her tears were still flowing.

"Please don't be like this..." Ken spoke softly. Both corners of his eyes look wet feeling unbearable to see his wife.

Shortly thereafter Jesslyn returns with the Doctor who examined Alana and also with a Psychiatrist Doctor, she immediately injects a sedative to Alana. Alana still did not turn her eyes to look at Ken, until both eyes closed by themselves.

"Sister.." call Jesslyn. But Ken didn't care for him. He was still busy looking at Alana who was being examined by the doctor.

"Sister, when I was helping Bi Moleey clean up Brother's room, I found this medicine under the floor."  Jesslyn showed the medicine she was holding to her sister. Ken immediately turned to his arag.

"What medicine is this?" Ken took the medicine and watched it closely.

"Come, Brother. While at the villa, Jesslyn also found this drug in Alana's bag but it was already known to be at an external level, and it looked very new" Jesslyn said. Without responding to his sister's statement, Ken approached the Doctor who was examining Alana.

"Excuse me, Doc. I'd like to ask you about this drug, does the doctor know what it is?" ask Ken. The two Doctors looked at the drugs in turn and watched them closely.

"Whose medicine is this, sir?" ask Doctor.

"Our wife, Doc. My sister said she found this remedy twice" Ken said.

"Mr Ken, it's an anti-depressant drug." Ken was so excited to hear it.