
On our way home we were silent, I was reluctant to talk. My annoyance still cupped the liver cavity. I don't understand why Khanza gave Dr Akmal a chance to express his feelings, does Khanza also expect love from the Man?
Ah, naw. I won't let that happen, I have to make Khanza love me, I don't want him to love anyone else. Khanza is mine.
Hey, what's going on? Are you a greedy man, Joseph? Don't you love this woman?
Am I really a greedy and selfish man? But, really I'm not willing to let go of Khanza. What's wrong if I keep this marriage, she's my wife.
Along the way I just dissolve with my own feelings. I can't yet deduce the feeling I'm feeling right now. Am I jealous right now? I don't know I don't know.
Upon arriving home, Khanza went straight up without saying anything to me, I just sighed deeply, and shook my head a little. I should have been the one who was angry, but why did he sulk?
After putting the car into the garage, I immediately wanted to go up to the second floor, but I bumped into Mas Khenzi.
"Eh, Joseph! Just home?" the question stopped in front of me.
"Ah yes, Mas. Just returned from the hospital. How come the other ADCs are quiet, Mas? On where?" I asked who was a little curious because there was no other aide, because before leaving I saw two people guarding.
"Oh, purposely told Papa to go back to the official house. Yusuf is here, right?"
"Ah yes, Mas."
"Well, I'm going to the kitchen first." The flutter soon passed from before me. I just nodded and immediately went up to the second floor.
When I entered the room was empty, but the television was on. I swept the whole room with a glance. Where's my whiny wife?
I saw the balcony door open half. I'll be heading there soon. Sure enough, the woman was daydreaming sitting alone, what was she thinking? Are you thinking about Dr Akmal?
I approached her and tried to stay calm, even though my brain left many questions I wanted to ask.
You know what makes my heart go awry? She rejected me when I said I wanted to keep this marriage.
Even she said that she and her baby could be happy without me. Whatisthis?Really painful answer. Does he really want to part with me? And maybe after parting ways he'll accept the doctor.
I was upset, disappointed, and angry. I chose to leave him alone on the balcony, my intentions were to chat a lot, all so amberiar. I chose to stretch myself to temper my emotions.
Not how long I felt he also climbed up on the bed, and enveloped my body. There's an erratic feeling. He refused to sleep under the same blanket. It crossed my mind to have her completely, I was not willing to let go.
With an erratic feeling, I hugged Khanza from behind. My hand stroked her flat stomach gently. I kissed the top of his head repeatedly. He was just silent, yet, his body felt stiff.
Slowly I reached for his body to face me, Khanza once again just remained silent but did not refuse. Now that our faces were facing, I looked at his face deeply, my breathing becoming more and more irregular. I forced myself to kiss her raunchy lips.
Khanza is still petrified, so that makes my adrenaline rush. I'm trying to give the luma tan deeper. Slowly my hands began to calm down, but when I wanted to touch her sensitive body deeper, she released the pagutan immediately holding my hand.
"Mas Yusuf stop!"
I gasped, went awry, there was guilt, shame, disappointment, all blended into one.
"What's up, Dek? Aren't we married, and you're halal for me to touch!"
"But I can't Mas, because you don't love me!"
I just let out a heavy sigh, I again suppressed my patience and tried to understand her feelings, yes maybe at this time I can't love her yet, but by doing this I love her more easily.
"Sleep!"
I turned to the couch, I wasn't angry, just a little disappointed and kept my distance so I wouldn't be tempted to make physical contact again.
***
After one week after Tiara was treated, her condition has now declined, and my family are trying to persuade her to take her abroad for treatment. Finally Tiara followed my wishes.
"Mas, what if I can't get well? Are you going to find a replacement for me when I die?"
I gasped at his question as we slept playing with our beloved Son.
"What are you talking about, honey? You must be healed!"
"Jawab first question me Mas?"
"No! I won't answer!"
"But I want answers from you, ma'am."
I looked at Tiara's face and cupped her cheeks together. "Now I want to ask you what you want, honey, what should I do?"
"I want you to find my successor, find a woman who can love alfarizqi to the fullest," her reply made my heart feel bitter, I had betrayed her before she wanted to.
"Don't talk like that Deck. You will definitely recover, we will raise riszqi together."
I hugged her body that felt more frail, I always prayed for her recovery. I didn't feel my tears coming, I held her for so long, I was so afraid of losing her.
"Don't be sad, Mum. Even if my time stops, I will wait for you in God's heaven."
"No, Honey! Don't say that!" I cried but she was so strong no tears fell from the corner of her eyes. But his eyes seemed empty. My heart is getting stiffer.
***
Today I deliberately took the time for Khanza, because tomorrow afternoon I will take Tiara to Singapore for treatment.
Early in the morning I arrived at my second wife's house, when I entered the room, she was still fast asleep. Suddenly my heart felt guilty because during marriage it could not make her happy. Plus I have to leave it with a long time.
Slowly I sat on the lip of the bed while observing her beautiful face that was so peaceful while asleep. I don't know why now I love him so much, I carefully kissed his forehead.
I sat there waiting for him to wake up, but it seemed like Khanza was so sound. While waiting for me to play my phone, I tried to call Khanza's number and I saw my name on his phone.
Calling My Heart's
I was stunned to see my name on the contact. How is his heart with me? Why he gave my name so special in his contacts. Does he have feelings for me? Ah, I don't know I don't know about it.
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