NOT WORTHY OF MY HUSBAND
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After the talk of the day .we agreed to postpone momongan and Mas Ridwan lecture again .During the four years of college Mas Ridwan I lived a pasan even less, all I did so that Mas Ridwan could go to college again and our future was better.

"Mas besuk I want permission to the factory a day to accompany you graduation" said I

"No permission dear will be cut" said Mas Ridwan

"But I want to keep you next to Mas's graduation" I said

"No need to let Mother and Aswan alone is enough" said Mas Ridwan.

"Deg.." My heart feels squeezed .How can he say enough Mother and Aswan alone who accompanied him while I helped the tuition fee he .As much as possible I protest not to accept

"This gas is not fair to me, I helped finance your college for four years when you did not ngijinin I accompanied you graduation , your path mas" I said while leaving.

Mas Ridwan then followed me with all persuasions akirnya I accepted his decision not to participate in the graduation ceremony .Maybe I'm stupid, want to be persuaded Ridwan .This is what love is that makes me stupid. After the graduation from campus my mother-in-law held a small little thanksgiving .Actually I want to give thanks only to my contract as our gratitude for our struggle to give Ridwan mas but what power Mas Ridwan more listening to his mother .

"Congratulations, Ridwan, you are now a scholar" said the mother of the neighboring mother who came

"Thank you Mother mother has been pleased to be present in my son's tasyakuran .Thank God my son finally became a hard-earned scholar I helped send school" said my mother-in-law

"What ..? helping to send her real school , all this time I myself struggled to finance her college and my mother-in-law shamelessly continued to burden us with every month asking for Mas Ridwan's salary .Almost all of Ridwan's salary was asked by my "inner mother churned not to accept the words of my mother-in-law, but I held all so as not to cause a commotion on my husband's happy day.

A month after graduation Mas Ridwab was accepted to work in a banking BUMN, but he never gave me his salary because I still work and have my own income.

"Yes... you will still have a full salary if you do not use your money for my tuition fees anymore and because I am still training my salary is also small at most to buy gasoline so you have not I give my salary yes" he said

"Yes mas.. I know really well" I said trying to understand his position .

Four months after Mas Ridwan worked at BUMN Aswan and mas Ridwan married Dita. wedding party held very luxurious. Very far from my marriage with Mas Ridwan I was honest I was envious but I could what.

A month later Dita was declared pregnant and it turns out I was also pregnant immediately I reported this news to mas Ridwan.

"Mas I have something to tell you" I said

"What about?" tannya

"Mas, I'm pregnant" I said to surprise her

"Are you pregnant, how can you deliberately not take a pregnancy-delaying pill" she asked in an angry tone

"Loh mas, you're now working already office what's wrong I'm pregnant anyway I've postponed it to four years loh mas is not enough?" I said.

"You're stupid or what the hell, if you're pregnant who's going to take care of that child" she asked

"I'm the one, who else?" much

"What don't you think? if you have children you should leave work .How we need our day to day" he said furiously

"Loh mas already work in SOEs I think enough to support me and our children" I said

"KAHAYA ... why are you so stupid like this, your brain where you can get pregnant" he said without sin

"Remove the baby, I'm not ready" said Mas Ridwan without sin

"No, I'm not going to kill this kid no matter what" I said as I touched my queen's stomach

"It's up to you to live poor" said Mas Ridwan

"Indeed all this time I thought I lived a good life" I said .

Since the incident that day mas Ridwan did not bring up any more about my pregnancy.

"Wah there is martabak, good manners" I said when I saw Mas Ridwan coming home with sweet martabak complete with the topping

"It's got Dita not taken earlier he called the mas tell buyin martabak" said mas Ridwan

"So mas want more Dita who notes bene your sister-in-law than your own wife, you can usually buy Dita martabak while I'm not" I said while crying since I was pregnant I became sensitive

"You didn't ask me not to blame me dong" he said lightly

"The reason you mas, when from yesterday you know I want martabak but you always refuse to buy it for various reasons" I said still sobbing

"Hallah you are much better anyway, you will have money to buy by yourself while Dita she is just an ordinary housewife" she said without burden

"Remember, in your fortune there is my right.For this long you never gave me money on the grounds that I already had money and remember you can go to college again it's my sweat there" I said then left the Ridwan mas.

"Oh my God, why did I become this crybaby" I muttered.

"Ceklek "door opened Mas Ridwan entered the room with the martabak

"Yes this is for you, later on I bought it again" he said

I just keep quiet. Honestly I no longer want it after the debate earlier, my mood suddenly deteriorated to see Ridwan mas enter this room

"You want this how the hell, he said he asked after being given silence" he said snapping at me

He notya persuaded me but instead snapped at my snaps. I'm just he's resigned to being scolded by her. After being satisfied with cursing me Mas Ridwan to my in-laws' house until the morning he did not go home no matter what he did there.

"Yes ..you are at home" asked my neighbor as I was about to leave for work

"Where are you going in the morning?" much

"Not at home in-laws, you're having your seven-monthly Aswan Ipar" said my neighbor

"Deg .. "even my sister-in-law's seven-monthly event I was not told, actually these people thought of me what. All this time, I just nodded and gave up.

"Working later I have to ask Mas Ridwan, what's my fault until there is an event in his family not to tell me" I muttered. I rushed straight to the factory where I worked with a million disappointments. In the afternoon until night I waited for Mas Ridwan's arrival but I waited until the tomb did not reveal the trunk of his nose.

I tried to contact him but he did not lift the picture from me, my message was only read by him without any reply at all.