Oh My Fak Girl's
Episode 164

“Why did you meet him huh, why?!” raka shouted as he got home.

His emotions are really in the crown. He did not accept seeing Reva with the man, especially Theo had touched and hugged his wife's body.

“Mas, I gagged him. He came to the hospital and met Mamih. I might have theo right there with mamih. Me...” Elak Reva tries to convince Raka.

“You said you're nemenin papih. But what is the evidence? You go with that guy!” again Raka cuts Reva's sentence and Raka again spills her anger.

“Mas! Everything gag as you think!” exciting Reva.

“What? What is a gag like I thought? You want revenge on me, huh? You want to go back to your life with a lot of men you can choose at will? Whahuh? What else is going to suit what I thought, huh? What?!” gertak Raka's.

That instant also tears dripped from the corner of Reva's eyes. One sentence that he hated so much, just slid from Raka's mouth and tore his pride apart. It felt like Reva's heart was crushed instantly. Sick, Raka's speech was very painful.

Reva nodded while looking at Raka in pain. Raka apparently forgot that she also came with a woman that Reva hated so much. Doesn't he know that Reva's heart was also hurt?

“Thank you,..thank you for still remembering my past." Reva said with a trembling voice and slowly dripping tears. "Thank you for still reminding me that not everyone can accept my past including you." Reva pointed at Raka's chest. "Thank you for keeping it well and saying it at a faster time. Thank you for making me think that you are different but you are not.” Lirih Reva looked at Raka with disappointment.

All this time, everything Reva did was to bury all of her disgusting past. During this time he also thought Raka could really accept her now. If it was Laras or someone else who brought up his past, maybe Reva could just ignore it. But if it's Raka, it feels too painful.

Raka was brushing her hair in frustration. He was even more upset by what Reva said.

Reva closed her eyes for a moment letting the tear drip down. It would hurt too much if he had to hold it. All she did was to become a woman worthy of Raka without caring the thoughts of the people towards her. He believes he doesn't have to explain himself to anyone. Because those who love it don't need it and those who hate it won't believe it. Which one is Raka included?

He looked back at Raka. “If you cannot accept my past, we should never be in a sacred bond. You can have me with your money and leave me when you feel bored or fed up. Wouldn't that be fairer for us?” reva said with tears breaking.

“Good, now you're back to showing who you are. You said this because you feel theo is better than me right?! He has more of everything on my appeal. That's why you met him secretly right? Yes reva?!” raka shouted with widened eyes. Raka understood Reva's words with different perceptions.

Reva can only be bowed. His heart was broken, for whatever sake, he was more willing to rain blows or dozens of daggers on his body. He will remain on appeal to hear those words coming out of Raka's mouth.

Self-esteem, fuck it all. In Reva's mind, for Raka maybe Reva doesn't have it.

“Think as you want to think. And tell me everything you've kept all this time. If everything is too burdensome for you, you can leave it. Including me.” Tukas Reva in the end.

Yes, in the end Reva could only run towards his room.he could no longer stand in front of Raka who would probably let out more words that hurt him. Let's say Raka is right with all her sayings about Reva's past, but what does it mean that she accepts Reva with all her past if in fact Reva is still considered to be the woman Raka had in mind.

Reva closed the door of her room tightly and then leaned against the door. His body trembled, he cried as it was and fell down without the slightest residual energy.

“Prankk!!” there was the sound of broken glass as Raka hit the glass cabinet to spill her emotions.

“Aarrrgghh!!!” raka shouted with anger.

His eyes looked red with anger mixed with tears, his appearance was completely messy. He even let the fresh blood drip from his right hand. While Reva could only sit with a deep cry while covering both ears with both hands.

It hurts, that's all Reva feels right now.

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The night before the atmosphere of the house is still quiet and dark. Only a sleeping lamp was lit in Reva's room. He got out of his seat with a shaky step. He sat down at the dresser and looked at the reflection of his face in the mirror. He was pale with red eyes and the rest of the tears were not completely dry.

Reva again sobbed in front of her own shadow. He even hates when he sees a pair of eyes that imply pain and guilt. Reva rubbed her tears violently. He went to go to the bathroom. In full clothes, he flushed his body with a shower. He was crying under the water. He hoped that all his past could go along with the flow of water that flowed somewhere.

“Kelak, when you are born and understand everything, will you hate mother son? Can you forgive all your past baby?” reva said with a trembling voice.

He rubbed his stomach gently. Even he could not imagine if later this child would say the same sentence as Raka said. Enough Raka said it but not this innocent child.

Elsewhere, Fery was wrapping a wound in Raka's hand with an elastic bandage. Raka was still speechless with her blank stare and Fery did not say a word. Just this time Fery saw Raka was so devastated that maybe even his strength was only left for him to breathe and blink his eyes.

Finished treating Raka's wounds, Fery immediately smoothed out antiseptic and other tools. He closed the medicine box violently and left Raka.

“Ending cooperation, make GN regret!” said Raka who made Fery's step stopped instantly.

Fery turned around and looked at Raka. There were angry eyes on that cold face.

“Lo sure? Don't make decisions when you're angry.” Fery tried to warn Raka.

Raka raised her face and looked back at Fery. “Lo just need to obey everything.” Tandas Raka without debate.

What is the power of Fery, of course he can only follow Raka's orders.

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At 11 pm, Raka just arrived at her house. When I opened the door everything looked quiet. Only a night light was lit in the corner of his living room. Raka no longer saw the messy room and broken glass scattered on the floor. Everything is clean.

Raka looked back at her bandaged hand. His pain was not comparable to the turmoil of pain and anger that was on his chest. He walked to the kitchen to get a glass of water. It was like he never lost. He can smell the cooking. When opening the food cover on the dining table, there are some dishes that he believes were made by Reva. Raka ignored him, he had no desire to eat it. He just sipped a glass of water.

Raka walked towards her room. He intended to just take his nightgown and would sleep in the guest room. But when opening the door, everything looks quiet. There's no Reva there. Raka sat her tall body on the bed. He cupped his face with both hands then ruffled his hair in frustration. As usual, Reva had put Raka's clothes to sleep on the bed so that Raka did not have trouble finding but who prepared her somehow where.

Raka stretched her body and looked at the ceiling of her room. Sepi and himself seemed to be the perfect blend to describe his current condition. Raka sighed deeply, her chest feeling tight. For a moment he closed his eyes, the shadow of his quarrel with Reva now swirled back in his memory. The corner of his heart grimaced as he recalled the agonized look Reva had pointed at him but his logic still confirmed that what he was doing and saying was correct.

Maybe they need time for each of them.

At the hospital, Reva was sipping a cup of warm chocolate in her paper cup. He was still sitting alone in front of the ICU room where Indra was treated. It had been more than 2 hours Nida went to meet a guest who was one of Indra's confidants. Reva's heart is moved to look for Nida, she may need her help.

In the distance Reva saw Nida who was sitting down in front of 2 men who were still wearing her work clothes. Sometimes Nida seemed to wipe her tears and spoke again. Although disrespectful, Reva tries to get close and steals their conversation.

“We have sold some of our assets in the UK as directed by the father before the illness, but still not enough to cover our losses and return all the investor funds they requested. It feels like there is no other way and the decision has to be made.” Said the man with weight.

Nida looked at the two men softly. He must strengthen himself to face this reality. “Have you guys met with the directors to ask for consideration?”

The man nodded. “Mommy already. The board said that if we lose investors and shareholders who start turning against us, it looks like we can't survive. Even bu alea and pak edho could not convince the directors.” The man came back.

Nida could only be silent. Crying, it feels like it can't. And Reva, he could only lean his body against the wall while rubbing his chest that felt tight. Everything was so simultaneous and tangled up that it almost made him out of breath.

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