Oh My Fak Girl's
Episode 38's

Raka's face still couldn't hide her pity. He walked quickly to his study followed by a smiling Fery knot looking at the face of his best friend. Various greetings and nods he received, he just ignored it.

In her study, Raka dropped her body on the sofa and lay there with a loud, clear-sounding snort of breath.

Not yet relieved of his sense of regret when he saw Reva barking back at his anger, his heart almost stopped as Reva drooped helplessly. It felt, Raka's heart fell to the bottom of her stomach. Really surprising.

The various swear sentences that he uttered did not actually make his feelings improve. He hates times like these, when he growls upset at worrying about someone who isn't even aware of his feelings.

“Bro! lo calm down a little, reva is fine now.”

Fery tried to drive away the tense atmosphere that enveloped the room.

Raka opened her eyes that had been closed. He tried to get up and sit on the edge of his sofa.

“Why is he so stubborn!”

Raka rubbed her face violently. It was still clear that she remembered Reva's angry expression as she looked at him coldly.

“Bro, you have to understand it means reva. He just wants to do his job right. Lo should be proud he has a great sense of responsibility in his cooperation.”

“Yes but he gag needs to also rebut me! He forgot what same position he had with me!”

Raka still couldn't take it when Reva yelled at him.

Fery just chuckled. Apparently his best friend started to hit “Like forgot” like Reva.

“Laughter again lo!” raka jolted with a look like he wanted to tear Fery's mouth apart. But Fery did not bother. He knew that the cold, stiff Raka would not be that bad to him.

“Lo forgot yes, you will again act as an intern. Where is he with lo talk!” ledek Fery who had made Raka fixated and began to wake up.

Raka snorted in annoyance, not at Fery's remarks but at the reality of the choice he took.

“This is the risk if you gag want to see the original form of lo.” Connect Fery still with a smirk on Raka.

Raka looked at Fery cynically then turned her face away in annoyance. “Cih! All women are the same! Just want to be good with men who have money and have a position!” there was disappointment on Raka's face. Reva who he considered different turned out to be the same as most women, would only hear when the one who spoke before him was higher in status.

“Hahahaha it turns out you still haven't known him!” gelak Fery who feels funny with Raka's words.

“Means lo?!” again the cynical look that Fery received.

“Bro! lo don't forget, this lo again in the office Adiyaksa corp. the Reva was horrified, yes definitely the orders of his superiors! Where is he more horrified the talk of his apprentice friend.” Fery's emphasis on his last two words made Raka appear to be thinking hard. “And again, a lot of guys who make money doi, but he still gives the same standard of service to the beetles. And you who look carelessly in front of him, he still want the same peace, right?! That means, he gag glare the same money you have!” fery with complete confidence.

Raka's face changed again. He exhaled slowly, as if he was beginning to know the point of Reva's anger. There was guilt in her heart, as she recalled how Reva had fallen unconscious before her.

Raka ruffled her hair in annoyance. Regret is the only thing that dominates his feelings right now.

While Fery just chuckled amusedly at the behavior of his friend who was beyond reason. Raka who was stiff, cold and unconcerned with the thoughts and attitudes of others towards her, turned into Raka who was so thinking about the feelings of a girl.

Of the many beautiful-faced girls with sexy looks that tease her, only Reva can make Raka look at her closely and show her attention. Fery shook his head in disbelief as he recalled the journey of his best friend's life whom he often called “Si Kaku”.

“Crazy, you fell in love with men!” exclaims Fery while punching slowly the upper arm of Raka.

Raka just fell silent, he did not care about Fery's ledge. The ones in his mind right now were only Reva, Reva and Reva.

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Reva's condition in the taste began to improve. He immediately returned to his work desk that was neat without any files.

“Dim, where are the files here?” ask Reva who is confused.

“Download bu lenna.” Answer Dimas immediately.

Without lingering, Reva immediately met Lenna who was cleaning her things.

“Excuse me ma'am..” Reva knocked on the door of lena's wide open room.

Lenna just smiled and let Reva in. His eyes looked puffy with a bundle of tears that had not been completely erased. Reva sat down in front of Lenna uncomfortably.

“Where are you going?” ask Reva slowly.

“Loh why? Mommy got a reprimand? Is this because my work is not finished?”

Reva was not out of thought with what she was seeing at the moment.

“Not, this is because I am indeed incompetent to work here. I always come home on time because I take care of my sickly child so much of my work is neglected. And I ended up charging you a job that should have been my obligation. Forgive me Reva.”

Lenna was embarrassed. But his regret could not get him back on his job.

Reva's heart was blown. However, Lenna is a strong woman who struggles alone raising her 2 children who are starting to grow up. Plus the health condition of his youngest child is not too good, of course, making it difficult to divide time between work and family. Up here, he understood Lenna's dilemma.

“I'm sorry also for not being able to help mom a lot.” said Reva with full seriousness.

Lenna just nodded. His left hand took a tissue and wiped his still watery eyes. In silence, Reva kept thinking about Lenna's current condition. He must have needed his job badly.

****

This is where Reva is at the moment. Being in a large house with a minimalist design owned by a psychologist recommended by Gunawan doctor. The middle-aged woman with a calm naturedness was named Marini.

Reva's eyes were covered in a black piece of cloth with her body lying on a comfortable therapy chair.

“What is Reva feeling right now?”

Marini asked in a soft voice, making Reva's corner of the heart crisp. This is what it feels like to be asked the news with all my heart. Although it's a professional job, Marini's question really touched Reva's heart.

“I...” Reva sighed deeply and then exhaled slowly. There was a feeling that was difficult for him to describe.

Marini patted Reva on the shoulder, trying to strengthen. He knows how hard it is to know the side of someone he does not want to tell.

“In this month, I often have nightmares. I find it very difficult to fall asleep and sometimes even feel scared and anxious and worried about meeting the same dream. But lately I've been feeling worse. I often have headaches with shadows that just pop into my mind. A few days ago, I said what was on my mind without me noticing. And I did something I didn't really want to do. I feel like I don't recognize myself.” Bright Reva while sniffling.

“What kind of dream does mba Reva mean?”

“I dream…. Looking at a girl walking under the rain, she was cold and I could feel the cold. He was scared and I could feel that fear. I myself do not know what the girl experienced but I feel that I have not only seen her but that it may have been me in the past.”

“Means reva?”

“I was raised in a home. The reason for what brought me to the home was that I myself did not know. But according to the mother of the home, suddenly he found me lying unconscious at the door of the home with a body full of wounds. I thought, maybe my parents didn't want me and just threw me away. Therefore, as much as possible I forget the incident but the longer the more often the shadow rotates in my mind.” Dengus Reva who then sobbed.

Marini let Reva momentarily in her tears. He asked Reva to open her blindfold and offer him a glass of water. Reva drank it up.

“Mba Reva can still continue or want to rest first?” clean the Marini warmly.

“I still want to continue.” Sahut Reva who returned wearing his blindfold and lay down.

“Mba Reva, every human being in grace is called a coping mechanism. It is our psychic way of responding to every event that happens to us. For unwanted or negative events, our bodies will usually suppress or suppress bad and traumatic experiences to our subconscious. But there are times when someone forces us to forget something unpleasant on purpose and we know it as repression . Emotions will never die. They will still exist as if buried alive and can appear at any time in a worse way. And our Psychic is like a cup, if it continues to be filled even on strong press, he will break so that all the memory continues to spin in our minds uncontrollably.” The Marini clearly.

Reva is back. Most of what Marini said was true and Reva felt it.

“I often do.” Reva said in a soft voice.

“What do mba Reva often do?”

“I often do repression. I try hard to forget every incident that I find unpleasant or annoying. I hate every bad thing that happens to me. I always hoped that when I woke up, I would not remember all of those things. But lately I have been having trouble. All the events that I tried to forget, instead spun obscurely in my mind. I also feel confused whether this is true I think or just my hallucinations.”

Chat after chat keeps rolling. Sometimes Reva peels and curses at every bad experience she has ever faced. Being an****girl and wasted Adrian being the 2 most painful things for Reva.

Marini nodded in understanding. Reva is very open to tell the problem even though sometimes he does not tell a story too clearly because there are some stories that do escape his mind. But until this point, Marini could only strengthen.

“Mba Reva has heard the saying that, a person will not be given an exam beyond the limits of his ability?”

Reva just nodded. He removed his own blindfold and sat up straight staring at Marini.

“That's what's happening right now. Everything that happened to Mba Reva, certainly did not exceed the limits of the power of mba Reva. Mba Reva also only needs to deal with it, because the most important thing is how mba Reva faces the problem, not as big and difficult as what the problem is.” Firm Marini.

Reva bowed listlessly, trying to digest Marini's intentions.

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