Only Substitute Women
Radit's Doubt

"Why can you be this good?" radit asked when it was just him and Shakila now.

Shakila smiled faintly.

"Yes, maybe this is how it used to be. I had to fight to cure a disease that I didn't know when it would heal" Shakila said, trying to keep smiling.

"Now you explain to me, what are you sick about?" radit's eyes stared, demanding an explanation.

Shakila did not answer. The woman just lowered her head not daring to look into the eyes of the man who was the best friend of the man she loved. The man who has always been there every time he got into trouble, the man who always put his interests before himself.

"Crazy, why didn't you answer? now you explain, what are you sick of?" let Radit come back. However, Shakila still did not open her voice.

"Shakila! don't you consider me your friend anymore so you don't want to tell me what disease you have?" radit's voice sounded soft.

"Well, I won't force you to tell me anymore, but anyway I have to tell Arjuna that I found you and you're sick" Radit reached into his pants pocket and pulled out his phone.

"No, Dit! don't tell him!" shakila prevented Radit.

" Liver cancer. I have liver cancer and I don't know when it's going to heal" Shakila continued, finally opening her voice.

Radit flinched, gasping in shock at Shakila's confession. "Cancer liver?" the man muttered softly and Shakila nodded weakly assenting.

"Is this why you left Arjuna?" hack Radit, with furrowed eyebrows. Shakila nodded her head.

"Yes,Dit. I don't want him to be so hard because of my illness. I don't want to get married to me, she just has to take care of me, I don't want that to happen!" clear liquid without permission, family from the corner of Shakila's eye.

Radit felt that something was pinching his heart and that it was very painful. "It turns out that your love for Arjuna is so great that you don't want to see him hard" Radit whispered in his heart.

Radit closed his eyes at a glance and sighed with a single bang, trying not to show any pain in his heart. Then he looked back at Shakila and stroked Shakila's head.

"But don't you feel like what you're doing is wrong? you just left, leaving a big question mark for Arjuna. Do you know, she was so happy when she came back from abroad, because she felt like she was going to marry you soon, but it turned out that everything was beyond expectations, because you suddenly disappeared without a trace. At that time, Arjuna lost his way. He turned into a beggar and likes to be alone," explained Radit at length without pause.

"I knew it would happen. But, I also know that Arjuna's sadness will not make him depressed because I know that he is a strong person. I feel like what I'm doing is the best way, Dit,"

"That's what you think. I'm sure if you told me about your illness, Arjuna won't leave you. He must have stayed by your side and maybe he would have tried to get you well soon," Radit looked fiery, inexhaustible with the hasty actions taken by Shakila.

Radit. He did not expect that what the woman he secretly loved was so heavy.

"Moreover now I know that Arjuna is married. I feel like I have no more spirit to heal," continued Shakila again in a soft tone.

"Originally you know, actually Arjuna got married because he thought it was the only way, made you appear,"

Shakila stared at Radit with a shocked look. "Why could he do such a thing? isn't that wrong? what if I really show up? he was going to leave that woman that day. Did he not think about how the fate of the woman who would definitely have the shortest marriage age? not only was the woman affected even the woman's family would definitely bear the shame, and it would definitely be a disgrace to the woman. Why could Arjuna be so selfish like that, thinking so easily without thinking about what the consequences would be, Dit. Poor woman who was unconsciously only considered a surrogate woman," Shakila said in a fiery tone.

Radit smiles. This is what makes the man love Shakila so much. The woman was really gentle-hearted and always thought of others.

"Actually, I've already said this to Arjuna. But, he was really desperate and thought that this was the only way, to lure you to show up" Radit said.

"What is the woman that Arjuna married, the good woman? or does he just want Arjuna's wealth?" shakila's tone had returned as usual

"The woman's name is Carnation. She's a good woman, and a jolly woman. She has only one mother, and used to work as an SPG in Arjuna's mall. He married Arjuna not because of treasure but because he was trapped with Arjuna's cunning sense" Radit explained.

"Syly talk? meaning?" Shakila scrunched her forehead.

Radit then tells the beginning and the cause of Anyelir to marry Arjuna, clearly without adding and also reducing.

"So that woman is a good woman. Thank goodness then. Now how's their wedding? do you think there are seeds of love among them?" shakila asked with a fast beating heart. The woman tries to be strong should Radit give an answer that makes her heart ache.

"It looks like their marriage is just a street on the spot. But, I don't know what if I'm at home. What is clear is that I see that they almost never spend time together" Radit replied, explaining what he knew.

There was a sudden feeling of happiness felt by Shakila hearing Radit's reply. Somehow he felt he still had a special place in Arjuna's heart. But suddenly he shook his head, dismissing the sense of happiness that he did not deserve anymore.

"Do you think Arjuna hasn't forgotten me yet, Dit? and why would he choose to marry a woman who looks like me? does he assume that that woman is me?"

Radit fell silent, confused as to what answer. Because actually he also began to feel that Arjuna's attitude lately slightly changed, where he always saw Arjuna always excited when going home from the office.

Tbc