Only Substitute Women
Get the fuck out of here!

"Would you come here? out!" peekkik Shakila, as soon as Radit entered the room.

Radit sighed and closed his eyes at a glance. The man did not fulfill Shakila's request at all. He was getting closer to the woman.

"Not that I told you, you went far! it's all because of you! why when I am sincere, you come and revive that hope. If you don't give that hope, surely the pain won't hurt this much" Shakila's voice rose again, accompanied by tears returning.

"I'm sorry! I never thought everything would change, including Arjuna. I give you hope, because I just want you to heal, Kila!" radit's tone sounded very soft.

"But now everything is getting sicker, Dit" said Shakila on the sidelines of her tears that did not stop flowing.

"Already, Son. Don't cry anymore! do you want to heal just for Arjuna? Don't you consider your mama anymore? Mama please, Kila, keep the spirit to heal even though Arjuna is not for you anymore. At least you want to get well for your mom and the people who love you. Arjuna still loves you, but we can't force his feelings to stay the same as they used to" Maya opened her voice. The woman's tears also never stopped from her entering Shakila's room.

" But, Ma! I no longer have hope. I know, I can survive, with the help of drugs. If in the near future I can't get a liver donor, I won't be able to survive anymore" Shakila really looked desperate now.

"You can't talk like that! what determines a person's life and death is not you, but God. As long as there is hope, you must stay upbeat, "Radit reopens.

"I don't want to talk to you! I beg you to leave here and never show up again. I don't want to see your face anymore! Don't always give me uncertain hope!" shakila said without looking at Radit. His words are sincere from the heart or only from the mouth, only he knows. Clearly, his heart grew even more painful as he blurted out those words.

Radit was stunned to hear Shakila's words that really hurt him.

"Shakila! you can't talk like that! remember he's been there for you all along!" snapped Maya.

"Alright,Kil. I know I was wrong. I shouldn't have instilled that hope in you again. But, I swear by anything, I really didn't expect that things would change. I just want to see you__"

"happy. You want to see me happy, because you love me, don't you?" sambar Shakila quickly, making Radit gasp in shock.

"Don't think I don't know, Dit. I'm not a fool who can't judge your feelings by what you've been doing. Now, I beg you to leave, for I cannot love you," continued Shakila again with glittering eyes as it was full of clear liquid ready to be spilled from her container.

"It turns out you already know. I don't care, you will repay my love or not. Because all I want is your happiness. Seeing you slumped, I feel my spirit in life also slumped. So, please don't ask me to leave. I promise I won't ask you to return my love, the important thing is that I can stay by your side, accompany you until you recover" Radit said at length, straightforwardly and firmly.

Shakila shook her head.

"No, Dit! I'm going to be sicker and sicker to see you stay next to me. I don't want to owe you more, to you. So, again I beg you, please get out of here!" drive away Shakila who turned her gaze in the other direction.

"I don't want to!" radit, he refused.

"All right! if you really want to stay here, can't you persuade Arjuna to come back with me? if I could I wouldn't ask you to leave,"

Radit was stunned to hear Shakila's request. He did not expect that the woman he used to know was wise enough, could turn selfish.

"Why are you silent? you can't do it? if so, that means you have to go!"

"Kila, why did you change like this? I can't do that!" radit shouted while shaking his head.

" If you can't do it, you have to get out of my life. I don't want to know people who have anything to do with Juna anymore,"

"Kila, is this really you? I don't even know you anymore? where was the old Kila, who always saw things from various points of view, and was always wise in making decisions?"

"The "shakila you mean is dead. The point is, if you can't make my request, it means you don't see me anymore!" shakila.

"Kila, you know, Arjuna right? he always had the commitment he said he had. No matter how hard I plead, he won't falter. Especially now, Carnations is carrying her child,"

After the woman turned around, Shakila again held her chest which again hurt even twice as much. Actually, the woman had been trying to endure the pain, in front of Radit. He turned his back on the man as well, so that the man would not see the look on his face in pain.

"Marine ...."

"Go!" said the woman in a slightly trembling voice.

Maya sees the look on Shakila's face and her daughter's eyes begs her to help drive Radit out of the room.

"Son Radit, please come out! please follow Shakila's request!" said Maya who finally understood the meaning of Shakila's gaze.

"But, Aunt .. I ...."

"Mante please, Radit, please go!"

Radit exhaled, quite heavily. His eyes squinted at Shakila's obvious body movements like enduring pain.

"Shakila, you__"

"Son Radit please come out!" Maya finally pushes Radit's body out of the room.

"Shakila, what's wrong with you, son?" Maya returns to Shakila, once she manages to drive Radit out.

"Sick, Mom! it feels so painful! I might not last long! please convey my apology to Arjuna and Anyelir later. Actually I was just pretending, expecting him back. I just wanted to see the response when I asked him to come back." Shakila spoke stammeringly on the sidelines of her growing pain.

"Yes, Son. Mama will tell you later! Now you don't talk, mama's gonna call the doctor!" Maya presses the button, which is right on top of Shakila's bed.

"Ma, Sa-say also that I will pray that they will be happy, always, Ma. I'm happy now. I can see for myself that Arjuna has completely forgotten me and loved that woman. At least if I'm not around anymore, I'm calm because he's been with the right woman. Say my apologies to Radit, too. I really don't intend to say those hurtful words, Ma. I just want him to hate me by pretending that I'm selfish. I want him to open his heart to others and not always hope for a sickly woman like me! I-I'm not strong anymore, Ma!" this time Shakila again drooped weakly unconscious.

"Shakila, wake up, son! don't talk like that! Doctor where the hell!" tekik Maya while pressing the bell button again, many times.

Meanwhile, Radit's facial features look tangled when approaching Arjuna, Anyelir and Haris who sit on the iron bench.

Suddenly the four people who were in the place, were shocked by the doctors and nurses who ran to enter Shakila's room.

Maya, who was asked to come out of the room, came out with cheeks that had been flooded with tears.

"What's going on, Auntie?" ask Anyelir, Arjuna and Radit together.

"Shakila, no longer unconscious! yes, God, if my heart were a match, it wouldn't be like this!" Maya falls flat on the wall.

Meanwhile, Carnations burst into tears completely unable to do anything about it, and Arjuna embraced his wife's shoulders to calm the woman down.

Meanwhile Radit walked back and away. The man's face was hardened and his hands were also clenched.

"This time no one can stop me anymore!" whispered the man to himself, staring at the four people who were in that place, taking turns.

Tbc