Our Love Is Not Over
Part 12's
When Raisa returned home, she felt very lonely. There was no cheerful voice and a sweet smile that greeted him home from work. There were no sounds of fighting that he usually heard every day. Raisa realizes that if her life is for the twins, without them, she feels empty. If in the past, he had the heart to abort his fetus, maybe at this time he will regret it.
"Thank you, you're already present in Mommy's life. Coloring mami life that initially only there is black and white. Forgive Mami, for almost aborting you."
In her own time, Raisa was always fragile, even now she was sitting limp on the floor of her house while hugging her knees. Fortunately, the twins were not at home, so he could spill his heart to the fullest. During this time he only pretended to be strong, pretended to be fine, and pretended to be cheerful in front of the twins, when in reality, there was a lot of thought by Raisa.
His life, his past, the people he loved but hated, the people he loved but left him, and the people he loved and should be happy with.
Can he make the people he loves happy when he is not happy, and has not been able to make peace with his past?
Bad memories from childhood always ring in Raisa's mind. How not, almost every day, he was subjected to blows by his own biological mother. I don't know what's wrong, he doesn't know. He always obeyed whatever his mother wanted. By the time she turned 10, she knew why her mother hated her so much. It turns out that he is just a child from the results of his mother's dark relationship in the night world. He doesn't know who his father is.
Every day, at school, Raisa always get insults, taunts from her friends if she is an illegitimate child born outside of marriage. He has no father and no idea who his father is.
Already not getting affection at home, Raisa also did not get sympathy outside the house. It was as if he was a piece of trash that had to be thrown away and spat at every day. But, he tried hard to live his life even though in the end he was traumatized. Trauma that Raisa wants to lose when she is with Edgar. Unfortunately, not yet the trauma recovered perfectly, Edgar instead chose to release it. Since then, Raisa has never been seen by a psychiatrist. He was just trying to be okay and endure the pain in his mind.
Wishing her two children could grow up with love and affection and abundance. He really did not want, what he experienced, experienced by his two twin daughters. Don't come, Raisa doesn't want that to happen.
The reason why at first he did not want to have children is because he was aware that he was not able to and mentally still sick. She was afraid, very afraid, of being a bad mother. Even until now, Raisa always considered herself a bad mother. Until he was alone, he always cried while staring at his two children who were asleep on the bed.
Raisa's cries began to subside, she had to come back strong for the twins. Thinking about the past will only make him weak.
His eyes looked towards the wall clock that had shown at 9 p.m. The twins must have slept. Raisa decides not to call Pamela even if she wants to.
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"Mba Raisa, the twins are coming, right?" rani asked while chopping vegetables.
"Yes Ran. Focus on your cooperation. Later if your finger is cut off it must hurt," said Raisa while advising Rani.
"Yes Mba, just calm down I'll be careful."
Raisa and Rani also do their respective tasks until the break. They take turns cooking in the kitchen with other chefs who have rested first.
"Mommy!" call the twins sitting in a chair close to the window.
Raisa's smile immediately expands when she sees the greeting of her children. A day without seeing each other, it felt like a year.
"Are you bought by Aunty Lala?" asked Raisa who was directly to the point' when sitting in front of the twins.
"Many Mi" replied Mia.
"Did you say thank you yet?"
"Udah dong, Mi. Mami will always teach us, if given something the same people should say thank you as a sign that we appreciate the gift."
"Mommy's kids."
"Yes dong!" answer them both with pride.
"Where is Kendra, Mi? He said he wanted to love us lollipops," said Mia who had previously continued to wander in search of Kendra's whereabouts.
"Om Kendra's still working baby, wait a minute."
"Aren't you aunty?" Rani who actually came with Raisa was not even considered her presence by the twins. As a result, he could only listen to the doang.
Raisa and Pamela can only shake their heads. Where can a person as big as Rani not be seen, the basis of the twins is not aware.
"Auntie is angry at this." Rani starts sulking.
"I'm sorry Aunt is pretty, but Mia's really unconscious, hehe."
"Yes, yeah."
Shortly after, Kendra arrives with two lollipops for the twins, sitting next to Rani.
"Well, lollipop!" the twins were so happy and enthusiastic about receiving the lollipop from Kendra.
When she wanted to eat it, Raisa forbade it.
"I can't eat that first if I haven't had lunch. Your stomach will hurt."
"But Mi ... "
Mia wanted to argue but was immediately taken the candy by Raisa.
"Eat first, only after that Mami allow. You're the same Kia."
"Yes Mi," the two replied with bowed faces.
Both have always followed. Even when they eat, they are very good. Moreover, the menu fried chicken favorite of the twins, Mia with fried chicken part of her thigh and Kia with fried chicken part of her chest.
The atmosphere of lunch on that day was very crowded because of the many random conversations that were discussed. Moreover, the presence of the twins who always make fun wherever they are. Make people who were tired of working so have the spirit to start working again.
"Tante Rani, Mami must be very fierce, right while working. You see, even at home if I and Mia are lazy to do PR, it must immediately sound the dangerous alarm."
Raisa's eyes immediately glared, while Pamela, Rani and Kendra laughed. Every word that comes out of the mouth of the twins there is always a vocabulary that makes the stomach tickle.
"Not a dangerous alarm anymore Kia, but it's already a bomb-rich, ready to explode just like that" replied Rani who deliberately exaggerated.
"Even not only that, just one of the vegetables can be diomelin at rest. Om got so angry with your Mami, "to fight Kendra who wanted to ask for a defense from the twins.
"Hihi, Om Kendra's sister. But, even though Mami likes to grumble and get angry, it means Mami cares about Om. Mami wants Om Kendra to do better. Isn't that right, Mi?"
"really so. Mommy's son is smart."
Now Raisa can smile again. Both twins were always smart to make him upset but smart also in relieving his sense of regret.
"Are you a child, would you like to?" bargain Kendra.
"No want! Kendra has less money!"
Kendra frowned while the others laughed.
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