Our Love Is Not Over
Part 4's

Roni felt anxious, he was worried about whether to tell Raisa or not about her meeting with Elsa earlier. Judging from her reaction, Elsa was not suspicious. But still if you want to talk about one family member from Gautama, the feelings are so gripping.

The clap of a hand on Roni's shoulder resuscitated from his own daydream.

"What are you thinking, Ron?" asked Raisa who was suddenly sitting next to him.

"I don't think about anything, Mba," replied Roni who was still keeping her mouth shut.

"I've been sleeping, Mba?" ask Roni again to open the topic of conversation.

"Udah, it's 8 o'clock past. I won't let them sleep at night either. It's not good to be a kid sleeping at night. Actually even though we're adults, nighttime sleep is still not good."

Roni nodded in agreement.

"How much money did you spend playing all day with my kids?" ask Raisa.

"What the hell Mba was wondering that. Anyway I do not want to answer if Mba even want to pay the money I had spent for them. They're my nieces, so it's only natural that I please them."

"Also Ron, you also have to have savings, do you not want to get married? Don't want to have your own home? Your money is always spent to please them when you come here."

"My age is young, Mba. It's only been 32 years. When it comes to saving money, I have. But for the fun business of my nephew, I have also distinguished. So everything is safe Mba. I don't want to get married either."

Raisa can't say anything anymore. Because to advise about marriage, he also felt inappropriate because his marriage also ran aground. He just hopes his sister has a new family, instead of always worrying about him and the twins.

"Mba" said Roni again. Looks like Roni changed her mind. She did not want her brother to become more depressed and worried that Tidka knew anything.

"So at the mall I accidentally met Mba Elsa."

Look, just saying her name, Raisa immediately jerked and the look of fear looks so clear.

"Relaxed Mba, Mba Elsa does not know if Kimi is a child Mba. She thinks Kimi is my son. So, Mba don't worry. I also told you that I don't live here anymore."

Merely, Raisa's response still couldn't seem calm. It was hard for him to always hide from the Gautama family, but why was there always a reunion in the end?

One thing that worries her, Elsa may not have thought that the twins were the children of Edgar. Moreover, the face of his second bule and his son's blonde hair exactly once with Edgar plus there are dimples on the cheeks of the twins. Even if she doesn't know, maybe just a glance, surely if Elsa continues to observe the faces of her children, Elsa will know that Edgar has children from her.

"You're sure he's unconscious and suspicious? He could have just hidden Ron's shock. What if he told that to Gautama's extended family. I'm afraid, I'm afraid they're gonna take the twins from me."

That was the biggest fear and worry in Raisa's life. Fear of losing her two hearts. Although initially had refused but over time, it turns out the presence of the twins who were able to strengthen themselves to continue living life.

Still vividly remembered in memory, the memory of when Edgar asked Raisa to have a child.

"Ca," call Edgar to him. Caca was a call from the Edgar family to him.

"I know, it's very heavy for you. But I don't want to disappoint my mom and my family either. They were really expecting a descendant from me. Moreover, I am the only man in my family. Can't we just have one child?"

"You know my reasons, you know my principles. Why are you forcing me? You want me to go crazy?"

"No, it's not that Ca. I just want to please my family."

"Then what about me? You know I'm not ready for that. I'm still going through a psychiatric examination."

"Sorry Ca."

That memory made Raisa unable to not cry. Fear, worry, fear, anxiety, mixed into one. Maybe if there were no Roni and Pamela by his side either. Raisa does not know what in the early birth of the twins she can live or not.

Roni who saw the fear of her brother was only able to stroke her brother's back to provide support and tell him that he will always be there.

"There I am, there is Mba Pamela, we definitely will not let Mba be frightened in solitude. Pray that Mba Elsa will be completely unsuspecting in the twins. Lying to yourself for sanity is okay Mba."

Only sobs could Roni hear from her brother. During her life, Raisa was the only family she had. Raisa even always locks the door of the room when their mother used to run amok and beat Raisa. He didn't see it, but he heard all the commotion. Unfortunately, he was too small when it happened. If only he had grown up a little, maybe he would have helped his brother so that his brother did not have that much trauma until now.

Whatever makes Mba happy. I will always be supportive. Be strong Mba. If Mba was fragile, Kimi could definitely feel that. Mba probably just thinks they're kids. But Mba is wrong, they just mature before their time. They take care of their mother's feelings. Not wanting to make Mba cry or get hurt. That's why they've always been good and obedient children.

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"Ron, I'm off to work first. Don't be late for the twins to school. I've prepared breakfast and they're at the dinner table."

"Yes Mba, be careful on the road."

Raisa had to leave earlier than usual because at the restaurant where she worked there was a birthday event from one of the customers there. So he had to prepare a lot of food.

"If there is another event like this, our overtime pay becomes a lot of Mba. The energy we put out is even greater. Yes comparable anyway same wages. I sometimes like to think, when can I make an event like this, celebrate the same birthday of my family and friends in a fancy restaurant. Thought it was a seneng, but the abis was immediately dizzy with the money that must be spent."

Raisa who hears Rani's curses can only shake her head.

"That year is where we get older. Want to get massively or simply the same. Do we feel the same age as we will? Naw, right? Who ages us to what age God. What most people look for in a birthday celebration is a moment of togetherness and euphoria."

"Ah, Mba Raisa mah too slab so people. Once a dream loomed large-scale Mba. Yes, at least once in a lifetime."

"Once in a lifetime?" raisa muttered while recalling her memories with Edgar.

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