Our Love Is Not Over
Part 8's
After work, Raisa immediately cleaned her body first before meeting the twins who were heard playing in the room. After taking a bath, Raisa enters the twin's room and is greeted with a hug by the two.
"I'm sorry, Mami's a little late coming home, there were obstacles in the way."
"It's okay, Mi. The important thing is that Mami has come home and is with us" replied Kia.
To be honest, he came home late for printing a photo of Edgar first to give to the twins.
"Mommy wants to give you something."
"What Mi?" ask them both enthusiastically.
"Tara!" Raisa shows a picture of Edgar to the twins. Mia immediately grabbed him and looked at his papa face with a smile. But there was one thing that made him astonished. There was a hand held by his papa. The man's picture isn't there but his hand is there. Kia who also saw that immediately expressed her opinion.
"Mi, next time if Mia asks for another papi photo. Don't follow Mi. I don't want our presence to be a barrier to papi."
Raisa who did not understand Kia's words could only raise one of her eyebrows while asking her why.
"Why? What do you think it is? You're not a barrier."
"Yesterday Cana told me that if papa and his mother decided to separate, because his father had a lover again and said, Cana also saw his father and his lover join hands in front of his own eyes. We are okay if we can not see the new papi photo again. Cana said, the happiness of her father is with her lover, so she also blesses and does not want to be a barrier to the happiness of her father."
A second later Raisa was shocked to hear the words coming out of Kia's mouth. No, the twins are not a hindrance, they are an encouragement to his life. He was wrong, wrong because he deliberately hid the existence of the twins because of his fear.
Raisa hugged Kia and explained, "You guys are not a barrier. Papi may be happy with his girlfriend, but it's impossible to think of you as a hindrance. So don't think like that. Can't be!"
"Then, why hasn't Papi ever seen us?" it was Mia's turn to ask.
To be honest, Raisa was confused to answer how else. But, Kia immediately answered Mia's question.
"I understand Mi. Mami and Papi must have separated, right? That's why we don't live with Papi. But you don't have to be sad or scared anymore. I promise I'll make Mia never ask you about Papi again."
Whether to be happy or sad, Raisa can only be silent with her overcast eyes just waiting for the rain. But of course he did not want to show it in front of his twins.
"Mi, doesn't Papi want us?" asked Mia again which made Raisa unable to stem her crying anymore. She immediately hugged her twin daughters and cried silently for the unsuspecting twins. Then, after weeping, Raisa rubbed it.
There were not many words spoken from Raisa's lips, she just said that she would make dinner for both of them.
After Raisa comes out of the twins' room, the two argue with each other.
"For you anyway! Mommy's so sad, right? I told you not to keep asking for this it's about papi."
Kia knew very well that their mother was crying. She just pretended not to know so that her mom would feel relieved.
"Cok be my fault? You also want to see the new papi photo, right? You must also be curious about papi why he has never been seen even in front of us. A lie! If you say mommy is enough! Even I often hear you're delirious about meeting papi."
Kia still denied it because she was completely unconscious.
Kia, who was ignored by her twin, chose to get out of the room and found her mother instead of cooking, sitting curled up in the corner of the kitchen. He wanted to get closer, but somehow he hesitated. She was afraid her mother would get angry. As a result, Kia went back into the room and sat on her bed while continuing to look at Mia who had not changed her position.
"Mia," call Kia.
"Mia! Mia! Mia!" call Kia again a little loudly.
"Mami cry," he said, which suddenly made Mia wake up and immediately sit on the bed as well.
"We only have Mommy. I just don't want my mom to be sad. Can you work with me not to keep asking about papi?"
"Did Mami cry about it?"
"Maybe" answered Kia.
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Raisa feels like she has failed at being a good mother. She thought her presence alone was enough for the twins. Turns out, it was wrong, however, the twins still need the figure of their father. He is confused as to what to do in the future. It seemed impossible, he suddenly came to the Gautama family and said that they had grandchildren and Edgar had children from him. Raisa wasn't ready to see their reaction. He feared that the hatred would grow even greater for him.
"How do I get through all this? While I'm just being a fragile mother."
The door of Raisa's house opened by itself, apparently the one who came was Pamela, her best friend. Pamela who saw that Raisa was helpless immediately hugged her.
"Take everything out, don't hold it. Later if it's better, you have to tell me."
Pamela's presence is always at the right time. He did need someone to be by his side at the moment. At least to look after her children when she is fragile.
After a long time, Raisa's cry began to subside. Pamela brought Raisa to sit on the sofa to make it more comfortable when telling stories.
"I'm a bad mom, La. Me, me, I can't bring them together with their papi. I'm not ready, I ... "
Raisa almost cried again, but Pamela immediately hugged her again. As a friend of Raisa since BC, Pamela knew a lot about the suffering that Raisa experienced.
Pamela is very proud of Raisa for being able to get through it all until now.
"You're not a bad mom. You are a very good mom. Didn't you see them grow up to be beautiful, healthy little girls? In fact they grow better than other children who have intact parents. They are not naughty, they are cute and easy to blend in. It is all thanks to your upbringing. Which means you managed to be a good mom. I don't know what makes you this way, but remember one thing, you've come this far, you have to be happy, so that the twins are happy."
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