RAGASA
Ep. 102. Visited

“I want to send myself to mother's prison. I want the same responsibility as what I have done in the past,” said Raga, looking at Renita completely, holding her hand.

Renita rubbed her son's cheek gently. This is indeed what his son had to do from a long time ago, Renita was willing to do it, although it will be left later. Importantly, his son was responsible, with what he had done in the past.

“You sure baby?” ask Renita.

“Yakin mom, I don't want to worry about Caca there, I want Caca calm there mom. I love him,”

Renita nodded with a smile, woman constantly cheeks her son, “Mother is not papa, if I stay later?”

“Gak papa darling, precisely mother seneng, if for example you want to be responsible, the same what you do,”

“Assalamu’alaikum mother! Dodi handsome, come again!”

Raga and Renita's mother exchanged lyrics and then laughed, when she heard the scream. Apparently, Dodi's back to what he used to be.

“For so long open the door. So I went in, because Renita's mother once said to me, if for example, consider this house, like her own house,” explained Dodi, crucifying Renita's mother, for example, then sit there without being told.

“Got polite si lo!” maki Raga's.

“This is my home, it's natural that I like gini!” dodi nyolot reply.

Mother Renita laughed, while rising from her seat “Mother wants to prepare food, you guys just chat here,”

“Each mother!” bima and Dodi replied.

“To Caca's house again yuk, I want to try a gun that I haven't tried it yet you know,” said Dodi, enthusiastically.

Raga sighed softly, it seemed like the perfect time, to tell them what the plan was.

“Gue wants to send himself to the police. I want to be in prison, make the responsibility of my actions first to Saka,” said Raga.

“Hah? When?” shocked Dodi.

“Now or tomorrow, anyway as soon as.”

“Lo won't finish school first? City bentar again passed youho,” timpal Bima.

“Gue don't want to procrastinate. Anyway, I've pinter,” reply Raga.

They nodded in understanding, whatever Raga would do, they would support her, let alone a good deed.

“Lo don't want to go to Caca's tomb first? From the time he died, you never went there, even though you were the closest person to him, before us,”

“Gue wants to go there kok,”

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Raga came to the cemetery, with a black shirt and black pants, not to forget in his hand there is a large bouquet that has now been placed on top of the headstone.

“Sorry I Ca, sorry for the brave new come today. Actually, I still don't accept you stayin me so anyway, but I'm trying sincerely here, which is calm yes there,”

“Kalo you are still alive nih well, you must be prancing around and teasing me, because I love a huge bouquet for lo,”

Raga looked up, the man tried not to cry in front of this gravestone he was holding. But could not, still, tears suddenly spilled on his face.

“Gue not crying, don't tease me. I just glimpsed this,” the man said, rubbing his tears roughly.

It seems, to remain silent Raga is not able to do. His heart still could not accept it completely, if it was true, the woman named Caca quickly left him.

Seeing that Raga had suddenly left, Alzam and the others immediately gave chase. In fact, to say goodbye, forget to do.

Until they were outside the cemetery, and saw Raga who sat down by covering her entire face. The man looked very sad, if the situation was like this.

The three of them approached, holding onto Raga's shoulder. Raga looked up, shaking her head, a sign that the man was not papa.

“Ayok go, I don't want to stay here long,” invite Raga.

“You sure you don't want to go in again? Lo will long live him,”

Raga nodded firmly, the man was very sure. Because even long there, it will make it look very sad, and Raga does not want it. Especially if his sadness is seen by Caca, Raga does not want to make Caca not calm there, especially that because of him who still does not receive left behind.

“Ikhlasin he Ga,” said Alzam, while rubbing Raga's shoulder.

“Gue try,” reply Raga.

“Not try it, should be! You must be sincere to him, you do not want Caca not calm and sad there right?”

“Difficult Zam, hard! It's hard to sincerely make him that,”

“Gue do not ask you lupain him, I just ask you sincere him Ga, what is the difficulty anyway for lo?” ask Alzam.

“Lo won't understand Zam, because I'm the one here, not lo!”

Alzam sighed long nafa, “How do I want to understand, lo her own just do not want to tell!”

“Udah is Zam, everything needs a process. Meningan us to Caca's house, he said Dodi want to try another weapon,” said Bima trying to calm down.

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They all always forced me to make sincere lo Ca, but they themselves do not understand, the same what I feel now.

It's hard to make just sincere lo, it's hard to walk what I should walk. I can't, and I won't be able to sincerely do that.

And they easily say, sincerely Ga, sincerely. Yes, I know, by the way sincere is that it is easy, very easy even, but the difficult it is to do it. Living life, without lo.

I want to be angry with God, I want to protest the same thing he is doing now, but I can't. Because clearly, lo belongs to him, to his creator.

I think I also want to follow you there. You must be happy there? Happy with your family who have long been that you kangenin.

You are happy there Ca, but you live a lot of wounds here. I don't accept you leaving, it's just that I still haven't accepted you leaving so soon now.

But no papa, with this incident, I so take wisdom and lessons. That emang, the person we love, will not always keep us here.

Because our dear ones, he still has a creator who loves him more. And our duty as servants, is to accept only.

Raga looked up at the sky, while continuing to monologue in his heart, pouring out what was in his heart now.

It hurts, but it'll hurt even more, if Caca stays here. All of this is fate, and clearly God's destiny is the best. What God has destined us for, it will always bring us happiness, even if it is painful at first.

It depends on how we deal with the destiny that God gave us. Because of the pain of fate and reality, it will feel lighter, if we accept it all.