RAGASA
Ep. 79. Perceived

Earlier...

“Not necessary! I am on medication!”

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“follow it first, what's the trouble anyway?” Raga pulls Caca's hand out, towards Uks.

“Gue don't want to come with you! And don't hold my hand!” press Caca, trying to release Raga's hand.

Raga is not at all pinched. The man continued to walk, and when he reached the UKS room, Raga sat Caca down, slowly.

“Sit's quiet here, I want to take the ointment first, bentar,” Sweat Raga.

Caca simply loaded his lazy eyeball, hearing the warning. Caca stood up from his seat, then walked out.

“Ngeyel very feeling, sit down first,” Raga back herded Caca sitting. After successfully sitting Caca, Raga slightly held Caca's legs with her feet, so that Caca could not go anywhere.

“Utututu, which one is bumped?” Raga was about to hold Caca's eel, quickly Caca brushed it off.

“Lebay is so Lo! I don't want to be on medicine!” 

“Be quiet first, he said he did not want to be called a lump again,” Raga said patiently.

Caca finally clucked, and let Raga do whatever she wanted in her heresy.

“Ca..” Raga called.

“Ca,” Call Raga a second time, because Caca did not answer at all.

Raga stopped smearing ointment on Caca's eel, the man then looked at Caca completely “Lo hear me say no anyway?!”

“Listen,” Reply Caca.

“Yes, why don't you answer me?” Raga asked, although it sounded tired, but Raga tried to say the word gently.

“Ga stop, stop acting as if nothing happened to us!” sick Caca.

“Lo deketin I used to make revenge right? Now, avenged or not avenged Lo as my brother, it's up to Lo! So, stop acting like we're close to kayaking first!”

Raga seemed not to hear Caca's words, the man even toyed with the woman's hair.

“Bad yeah so Lo first. Lo first, if for example I haven't answered Lo's question, Lo just keep asking questions until I'm angry and finally answer Lo's question. And I just found out, how patient Lo, ngadepin my cold attitude,”

“Ga—“

“Hust... don't talk first, I want to hug Lo,” without Raga's approval hugging Caca, making Caca certainly rebel.

“Do not rebel Ca, usually also you ask for a hug,” Raga said, increasingly tighten his embrace.

Finally, Caca silently let Raga hold her, without at all replying to the hug.

“Ca, um.....Do you still like me?” Ask Raga.

“Gak, why?” Reply Caca.

Raga suddenly let go of her embrace, then looked at Caca lekat “ Don't lie,” Goda Raga, while poking Raga's chin.

“From the beginning, maybe I never liked Lo, because I just don't know what the word like or love is. I treat Lo more than anything else, it's because Lo understands me the most. And one more, Lo has a mother, who I love very much with him, that's why I treat Lo more than others,” explained Caca.

“And maybe, Lo is also into me. Lo is not love or like the same, Lo is used to, accustomed to me in life Lo, so not love, Lo is used to!”

Raga turned her face away, then looked back at Caca after a few seconds, “Gue instead of Lo. If asked accustomed, indeed, I am used to Lo, but not just that, my feelings to Lo, not just just accustomed, but more than that!” 

“And from the origin Lo know Ca, Lo do not need to know the meaning of love like how. Because, love is felt, Lo knows how love is, so you do not need to know what love means!”  

“And another one, I don't want to hear the word from Lo's mouth, that Lo stopped liking me, because I would never permit it!” Raga Final.

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Surrounding almost the entire city at night, is the most effective time, to refresh the brain.

Caca leaned her body on the edge of the bridge, the woman massaged the base of her nose feeling dizzy. I don't know, his condition has been getting worse lately.

In the middle of the noise of cars and motorcycles passing by, or even humans who are passing by too, Caca closed his eyes for a moment, in the middle of a crowd like this, Caca always felt alone.

Feeling alone, lonely, the two words increasingly haunt Caca's life, after learning Raga lied to the woman.

Raga, that man is part of his life, but that was then, for now, Caca is trying to forget that word in his life.

In his eyes, the man who could be Big Brother and friend at once, the good listener, the fortress and shield were strong, perfect, and Caca was very, very affectionate with him. But now, Raga is a big liar in the eyes of Caca, a big liar who broke her trust and her heart.

Want to forget what happened in the past, when you see how good Raga is to Caca. But it is not as easy as clapping his hands to forget that, especially after remembering how his life, when his older brother Saka, left him.

Man is like that, a thousand good things, will disappear and disappear when we make a mistake, even once.

But we also cannot blame Caca, the woman who was lied to for almost three years, naturally the woman was angry and disappointed with Raga, the man whom the woman trusted.

Caca let out a long sigh and laughed, “Gue so remember the words I heard. The one who hates you will never hurt you, but instead, the one who loves you will hurt you,”

“Gue says it now, and it doesn't feel easy for the then. I love and believe in Raga, but Raga also lies and lukain my heart because of her actions. Meanwhile, how physically hurt I am because of the person who hates me, I never feel hurt in the slightest, in fact, it's what makes the ambition in me to find that person, and reply to his actions,”

Sighing again, it was not that easy to live alone in this world, Raga who Caca originally thought was his world, now suddenly disappeared, after knowing the truth that had been sought.

Trusting people too much is clearly wrong. Believing to win must be done, but if you trust someone too much is also a mistake. Because rest assured, how much you trust someone, we should not expect more of that human being, because basically, human nature is changing. So, don’t expect to much.

“Nona!” Alex's sudden shock came, making Caca hold her chest in shock.

“Ngangetin aja lo!” 

“I don't surprise you, it's just that you're daydreaming Miss, so you were shocked when I came suddenly,” Alex said.

“Oh Yes Miss, why are you here?” Ask Alex.

“I should ask, why Lo here?” Caca asked.

“I was coming home from work, and I saw you sitting here alone. I turn around and buy this!” Alex exclaimed furiously, while displaying a few scraped bags filled with plenty of food.

“FOOD GENERATOR MOOD!”  Alex shouted back, the man was busy removing one mica in a crackle bag.

“Ribet really like so Lo, herein one bag of his crackle I hold, let Lo not complicated,” Caca snatch the bag one bag of crackle, make Alex smile.

“Well dong Miss, you understand once,”