RAGASA
Ep. 78. Benjol

Caca looked down, holding her sister's headstone.The woman sobbed, while occasionally rubbing Saka's headstone slowly and gently, like rubbing someone's cheek.

"Son, I already know who Lo's killer is now. My three-year effort has not been in vain turned out,"

Caca smiled, releasing her hand on Saka's tomb, the woman turned to hold the mound of land that had been neatly on the wall.

"What should I do, brother? in fact, to hate people who kill you I can't, I already love him," said Caca.

The woman was crying, why did it feel this sick, knowing all the truth?

Caca always denied that Raga was not the killer, but when he heard the man himself say and confess, his heart ached and disappointed.

The woman still could not accept everything.

"Why do you have to leave me, brother? wh why? maybe if Lo were still here, it wouldn't be this complicated" complained Caca, still with tears streaming down his eyes.

"Gue hurts, I'm sick! but why are you all leaving me!" Caca slightly shouted, with eyes that kept looking towards the five tombs that contained his family.

"Why do you all leave me? I'm alone here, I don't have anyone, I know this pain alone, why do you have to leave me! hiks hyks hyks, why do you have to leave me!"

"Why do you leave me here alone? whyyy?! I want to come with you too, I don't want to stay here alone, I'm lonely, I need you!"

"Every night I can't sleep. I get sick, my head is dizzy, I often nosebleed. In fact, sometimes for the road I've been hard, why all of you so I ngelaluin all alone? wh why? you guys don't love me? come back, for me, I miss you guys,"

"Why do you guys stay on the ground? what's so good there? what good? to the extent that, make it back to me and continue to be by my side, like it's hard for you guys to do!"

"What mistakes did I make?why should I go through this?why should I?"

Caca suddenly held his head, then grabbed his hair, to neutralize the pain in his head.Rather than subside, the pain in his head became more and more so, to the extent that, the pain in his head became more severe, jubilant in his head was not felt at all.

"Sick, sick god! not only my heart is sick, but my body also hurts, when my suffering ends god? when?" Caca looked up at the sky, hoping God would hear his story now, and then raise his illness abruptly.

"When?!"

Caca banged his head hard on the tombstone in front of him. Caca did that to neutralize the pain, instead of being effective, the way it made the woman's head more painful.

Sighing tiredly, Caca leaned his head against Saka's tombstone, then rubbed the blood that began to fall towards his eyes, due to the impact that was too hard, and caused Caca's forehead to bleed and slightly tear.

Caca laughed, "This hurts, you can see right? how painful am I? why do you guys leave me? why are you guys fighting?"

"What do I have to do, so that I can get together again with you? what should I do? to get more warmth from you? do you guys have the heart, happy there without me?"

Caca shook his head, realizing that the treatment he had just done, could have made his own family not calm there.

Caca mustn't be selfish, this is already the path of his destiny. Caca must not blame fate, because Caca himself clearly knows, God's destiny is the best.

All Caca can do now is accept destiny and live it all. Believe in God, and rest assured everything will be fine in the end.

"You're sincere, sorry Caca has made a scene here" said Caca, looking regretful as he rubbed Saka's headstone, the closest to his reach.

"Mama, Papah, Omah, Opah and Brother. Sorry Caca yes? the quiet ones are there too. Caca okay here, do not think Caca, and you end up not calm there. do'ain Caca to always berapang nerima all right? Caca would have followed, if god had ngizinin everything,"

Caca suddenly frowned at his own confusion, why did the woman ask for prayers to the dead man? it should be Caca who prays here, not his family who is gone.

"Caca go first yes, Caca will come here often now," after saying that, Caca walked to get away from the funeral.

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Caca looked at himself in the mirror.The woman had already treated the wound on her eel last night, but why was it still impregnated and even a little bumpy? where in the middle again.

Is it possible to treat the wound too late? because, before going home and treating her wounds, the woman surrounded the city of Jakarta, until late at night, which caused Caca to treat the wound late at night as well.

Caca picked up the cotton and alcohol, and the woman was intending to re-treat the wound.

"Aish! how does gini hurt? yesterday's strike didn't hurt at all, '" Ringis Caca, rubbing his head slowly.

"okay! school spirit, no need to have friends, the most important thing now is to learn to make the right school."

"One more thing, learn to cuekin Raga. when Lo himself can not lukain Raga, like Lo's plan when finding the killer brother Lo, as if learning to make a cakekin him," said Caca, said, keep encouraging himself.

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Caca arrived at school in the morning now.not until the morning is five minutes kayak yesterday-yesterday.it is true, Caca arrived at his school early in the morning and right early in the morning. 

Caca entered her class, and it turned out that Raga was also sitting in her seat.

Caca was about to ask 'Kok tumben, leaving early in the morning,' but the woman paused, remembering her initial intention.At last, Caca continued to walk and sit on a chair, in contrast to Raga.

"We want to move seats? it's okay, I'm everywhere, just comfortable," Raga said, then sat in the same place as Caca.

"Gue wanted to sit alone," said Caca, without even glancing at Raga.

"Can't, Lo has to sit with me," Raga turned to look at Caca, her eyes bulging in shock, and the replex holding a scar on Caca's eel.

"Sick bego! just press it!"

Raga smiled, a curse coming out of Caca's mouth, which showed Caca could not really be angry with him.

Raga, who initially accidentally pressed Caca's wound, now switched to rubbing the wound slowly and gently.

"Why can I believe this?" Ask Raga.

"Don't hold it!" jolt Caca doesn't like it.

"Gue asked, how can I believe this? no need to hold it" said Raga.

Caca did not reply, the woman just silently let her wounds continue to be played by Raga, with a sullen face.

"Well on medicine? how can I get to gini?"

"Don't tell me you're a jerk!" annoyed Caca, why does Raga look so many times annoying?

Raga laughed, then blocked Caca's hand, to go along, "We're doing medicine again, let's not go bad," said Raga slightly pressing the word benjol.

"No need! I am taking medicine!"