RAGASA
Ep. 97. The Pain of Raga

Raga woke up from her sleep, but the results remained the same.The situation was the same as earlier, her room was a mess due to her actions, which indicated, the incident was indeed true.

"I know at last will be kayak gini. I find out everything about lo, make revenge bales.why time I did not continue my life without a grudge. maybe now I'll never know you, and I'll never experience the pain of living in a kayak now, either,"

Raga laughs "So gini it feels, living in the people we love? so gini too, it feels like Caca, when his brother left him. This might be karma for me Ca, because I killed your brother so I would feel too, how the pain, how the pain, when we're in the same house as the people we love," 

Raga slightly shifted her antenna, when there was a knock on her door.it was the sound of Renita's mother telling her to eat. 

Raga let out a long sigh, the man did not even feel hunger in his stomach at all.In fact, from morning until now night, the man had not put anything in his stomach at all.

"Darling, danger mama right? eat first, you haven't eaten in the morning!" shouted bundanya.

"I'm not yet a laper mother" replied Raga, in a soft voice.

Raga took a photo that was on the nightstand.plastered photos of the two of them with a smile. Raga hugged Caca's shoulder, while Caca, the woman hugged Raga's waist.

Raga turned around, when she got a sudden swipe on her shoulder, "You got a hug?" bargain the bunch while stretching out your hands.

Raga nodded, then hugged her body, "Mother said, Caca will not be okay.but in reality, Caca left me to make forever mother,"

"And also, Caca himself said, will not leave me, but the truth? he's not here right now!"

"Why? why in this world should there be reality? why mother?"

Renita rubbed her son's back, left behind by the people we love is not easy.he also felt lost, but want how else? this is all fate, no human being can go against that word. 

And reality, as well as destiny, we cannot fight what reality gives, although sometimes, reality does not match what we want.

Two words are born, to teach us, that how much we want later, we can not expect more of it. Because reality and destiny determine everything.

And it's not that, because of destiny and reality, we can't be the human beings we want to be, because they're both, too, which causes us to be the human beings we've so many times wanted to be.

Wh why? because those two words teach that, something that happens inside of us, it is the best.

Initially, maybe many of us are difficult to accept fate and reality, but over time, we ourselves will realize, that what is happening now is indeed the best. 

"I just met Caca, just now we're both better, but why is Caca leaving me so soon?"

"Tell Dodi, it's my fault.Why do I want Caca to go to his family's tomb try? if for example, this is not possible,"

"Why didn't I say no? wh why? if only I had a time machine, I would be the daughter of time, the daughter of time where Caca would go to his family's grave I would say no. or also, I'm the daughter of time, I'm the daughter of time, it's a place where you don't know Caca at all, and you'll never want to know him,"

"Liat mama," said Renita's mother, making the man look up.

Renita rubbed her son's cheeks "Feed first yuk, emang stomach is not lacer what? not fed from earlier?"

Raga shook her head, holding her mother's hand, "Raga won't eat, let Caca come here and angrily Raga, so Raga won't eat,"

"Darling..don't believe it,"

"Well, how's mom? normally Caca would be mad if I didn't eat, so I wouldn't eat, let Caca come here,"

Chequelek

The door of Raga's room is open, featuring the head of the family in this house, namely Mr. Wijaya. Wijaya came in, approached his son and wife.

"No reward, no laper,"

"Want to wait for the laper? by when? or do you want to drag him to the dinner table?"

"I don't want to eat yet" said Raga.

"Well, bring Raga some food here, let me take care of Raga," Renita nodded, then let go of her embrace and walked out.

"Why not eat yet?" Wijaya asked, sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Not hungry yet, pah,"

"Well, any other answer,"

"Let Caca come here" said Raga, hugging the photo she had taken.

Wijaya was seen sighing "How can Raga? don't freak! you know that, right? if you do something like this, make Caca there sad now?"

"Ikhlas, that's all we can do as a people." 

"But Pa—"

"But why?" sela Wijaya's.

"I can't, if Caca leaves I'm like a gini..."

"Can't why? there is with the absence of Caca, you have to keep living.You think, you doang who feel lost? papah too, Caca has been considered as papah's own child.but why papah kayak gini? because papah knows, this is best for Caca. Kasian if Caca continues here, he always feels the pain of Raga. either from his physical or inner. Maybe because God took him from us, he always felt the pain of Raga, because God knows, this is what's best for him."

"Don't be selfish, you don't want to feel hurt here, because there's no Caca? is it with Caca here, Caca doesn't feel hurt? he is here tormented Raga. his disease, his family.nothing is okay, when we are in love with a disease that is not trivial, with a stick of Raga... nothing is okay! and you, you always think of yourself, without thinking of Caca. In fact, you love the hell not the same him?"

"Darling Pah.. hyks hiks hyks, I love him,"

"Yes continues? why do you think it's gini?"

"Don't force me to reward, it's not easy for me, make it all of a sudden okay when Caca isn't here.I don't want to lose him, I don't want to lose him, but I don't want him to be in pain either,"

Wijaya hugged the body of his son who was crying.It is not easy indeed, living life with abandoned people we love.

"Well, don't you force it, papah just want it, you still live your life even though Caca doesn't exist. papah knows this is not easy, but you will continue like this? you don't pity Caca? you don't eat, he gets angry a lot, right? especially if you look like you're a gini, Caca must be sad there,"

"I don't promise Pah, but I'll try,"

Wijaya nodded, rubbing his son's back "Look, that's a picture of you as Caca right?"

Raga nodded with a smile, the man showing a photo of himself and Caca to his papa.

"When it's here, papah can definitely imagine how to look at Caca's face, Caca must say gini 'Raga lo eat! you want to get sick?' he must have said that wasn't Ga?"

Raga laughed, although it was different from her eyes that kept shedding tears "Yes, she must have said that, and she must have said gini as well."

"It's good to be like that?!" said Raga and Wijaya papah in unison, making the two men laugh.