Re:START/If {Book 1.0}
Chapter 12: Chasing backwards, running forward (Part 01)
Along the coast with a long stretch of coastline, I sat on the white sand while looking out at the sea. As far as both eyes looked, there were many carcasses of warships and warplanes. Leaking fuel tanks pollute the sea into a murky, floating corpses fill the waters, and a foul smell comes out of the area that should have brought that fresh. In some corners of the sea, the carcass of a giant humanoid creature that has wings, and at other points seen a giant carcass like a winged reptile whose body is split into two parts. Due to the blood flowing from both types of creatures, the color of the sea slowly turned red.
Observing what was in front of me, strangely I did not feel shocked or afraid, there was only a void whispering to me. Slowly raising his gaze and looking up at the sky, there was only a void of space from space. The layer of atmosphere that contains clouds as I know it does not exist, there is directly connected to free space with lunar debris that has been destroyed into four parts. The sun up there is shining bright red and not yellow, the heat is not felt by me, but looking back at the seething ocean and slowly evaporating the water, I knew that the sun was hundreds hotter than I knew.
I don't know why I'm here, but it's obvious to see all that regret and chest-piercing sadness. That ..., everything I saw was painful, as if it were all my fault .., the result of what I did.
Fed up with what I saw, I looked back. There, things look worse than I thought. Dozens, hundreds, maybe even thousands of bodies were seen lying on the rubble of buildings that were flat on the ground. Judging from the rubble, I knew that it came from a very magnificent city .., it used to be. As seen now, it was worse than just a dead city because there were so many corpses.
Children, adults, the elderly, women, men, countless and countless. The condition of the bodies was also very sad, there was a head hanging from the street cable, there was a severed head, there was a body electrocuted to a scorch, there was a full of hot lead shot holes, there was a, there are those whose bodies were destroyed by the explosion, some whose bodies were hit by debris .... Whatever the circumstances, they had all become corpses, lifeless and unable to move anymore. Looking at all that, I did not feel nauseous or anything like that, there was only a sense of regret and sadness that stuck out like when I looked towards the sea.
Observing something else from the view of the destruction of civilization, there are several wrecked spacecraft, giant chunks of asteroids in the middle of the city, seen, and the bodies of giant creatures that are almost similar to those in the sea. It seemed so unnatural to see those creatures, but strangely I didn't feel anything strange.
I stood up, then turned towards the large city that had become such rubble. Looking back at the scan, both of my eyes caught a strange figure in that scene of silent madness and destruction. Right at the end of the coastline where I was with the barren land, there was a girl wearing a plain white dress long to the ankles. His age was less than twenty and his hair was pitch-black, but upon seeing his face, for some reason it could not be seen clearly. My eyes were fixed on her, as the girl approached even as my eyes followed. To my right, he looked at me and started saying strange things.
“At the end it will all end like this, yes .... Indeed, every time ..., all beings in the universe have never learned from the failures of their predecessors. Discord, fight, seize, and never want to understand each other.”
The girl tidied up her dress slightly, then sat on the sand of the beach while looking out at the sea. I sat down next to him, looking back at the terrible sea. Just as I was silent and looking forward blankly, the girl opened her mouth again and said.
“Moyet though can fall from the tree ..., too many blessings can result in a wise man falling down .... Have you heard that? That is one of the maxims of the narrow-eyed people of the east .... But, is that true ...? If it is, why are you still here and still able to survive, huh? What coincidence? I don't think so .... It's been set, you know .... Unlike them, you are given the opportunity ... to change the result ...”
Opportunity ...? Change?Them ... who ....?
“They tablets, they .... The time you don't remember ...? A greedy woman who was always envious and jealous of her surroundings, and ended up dying very miserably .... A hitman who eventually repents and has a family, but in the end dies is betrayed .... A pathetic girl who raped her own father and ended up being sold for research materials for military purposes, and ended up dying without getting the happiness she deserved ..... A wise young ascetic who managed to bring much peace in the world, but in one day everything was destroyed and in the end committed suicide due to stress .... An old man who just wants to be with his family, and only for that reason is he even willing to destroy the whole world and himself .... A knight who fought desperately to defend the country ..., but was ultimately banished by the country he fought for himself .... A dictator who fails to rule everything .... An observer who stops observing, and ends up destroyed .... A peace-loving man who ends up being a serial killer and a .... Have you forgotten all those people? Yes, how else .... Huh, because it ... already set.”
Why ...., what did he say? I don't know the people he mentioned.
“About this, you know .... Everything that happens in this world, you know. Don't you understand, even if you've seen all that? I think it's strange for a person like you to survive this far, but honestly I'm very happy because this time the survivor is a creature like you .... You don't deserve to survive, but you can survive this world .... Yes, this chaotic and broken world .... You've seen nations destroyed, and seen all sorts of inhumane and senseless murders. Chaos and destruction, you see it and do not turn away .... Even though it is ringing in your soul, your sense of consciousness and self-identity never fades in the least. Institutionalized slavery, human hunting, civil war, biological and nuclear weapons war, human trafficking, inhumane prostitution, genocide, parents and children killing each other, tribal extermination, resource crisis and hunger, radical discrimination, killing each other only because of prejudice, revenge which gives rise to other grudges .... Didn't you see all that? No. ..., you've almost tasted more than half of it. .., haven't you? Do you feel sorry? Are you sad? Frustration with these results ....?”
“So yes, sorry .... If indeed you feel that way, rather than ending up like this .., perhaps it's better this being a new beginning for the world doesn't hurt. After all you are almost like a winner and are entitled to all that .... Therefore ..., at least you must really die first to be able to reassemble it ...”
Dead ....?
“Yes, dead .... But .., honestly I doubt anything can kill you right now. Therefore, let this myself kill you directly ...”
The girl got up, cleaned her dress from the sand, then stared at me. I got up, and stood facing each other with the girl. Without giving another word, the girl touched my chest and smiled.
“Now you have been marked ...” he said as he raised his hand from my chest, then stepped back. In a split second, the girl instantly disappeared from before me. I tried to find her, look out at the sea, into the city, and around, but when I looked up at the sky, I realized that she wasn't joking about killing me.
Right in the sky that was directly connected to space, a giant meteor that was moving fell towards me. Its size is greater than the bodies of giant creatures in the sea and land, greater than hills or mountains, and worse the number is not only one but up to a dozen. Seeing that, I can only gape. Aware of not being able to dodge or run, I closed my eyes resignedly, waiting for the giant space rock to hit me. The wind from the pressure gets stronger, and as the meteor gets closer to me ......
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Bugs!
Something hit my face. Opening my eyes and observing, it turned out that a glass gourd that had fallen from the top of the cupboard hit my face. Waking up and looking around, it turned out that I was feeling in my own messy room full of medicinal concocting tools and scattered parchment paper.
“It ... turned out to be just a dream, huh? It feels too original .., and it's a little scary .... Wait, is that really a dream?”
I was silent for a moment thinking about that. But when thinking and thinking again, the dream faded and I can not remember clearly. Feeling insignificant about it because there were more important things to do, I tried to forget about it and started cleaning up the messy room after I used to learn to concoct new potions and magic last night. Waking up and looking for the documents I've been compiling for the past few days, I found them on the table.
“Profit not broken ...” Breathing a sigh of relief, I walked towards the window and opened the curtains, then saw the scenery from the end of autumn.