Re:START/If {Book 1.0}
Chapter 30: What he always does .... (Part 01)

Staring straight at what was in front, the black haired boy's eyes began to be confused. Exactly what was reflected on her eyeballs was the blonde haired female, the drops of water flowing from her wet hair at a glance making the child petrified with a tight mouth. He stood under the slow falling snow, with Fiola behind him and still not getting into the orphanage.

The woman who is not foreign to him asked a question, “Master Odo ...? Why are you staring like that?”

Slowly the mouth opened, the face of the white-shirted child seemed to scream without a sound. Blood flowed out from his nose, along with eyes that began to tear as if he wanted to cry loudly. Immediately the boy lowered his face, while wiping the flowing blood he said, “What's wrong .... It's just that Kak Siska looks different from before, yes .... Time in Main Church.” The woman realized there was something strange about the words, the blood flowing from the boy's nose and teary eyes made Siska momentarily stunned.

Odo walked to the side, then leaned against the wall of the building and began to duck. Seeing the boy holding his head with both hands and blood flowing back from his nose, Fiola anxiously walked up to him. “You why? It was still cheerful ... But why is your face now pale? Fatigue?” tanyanya while touching Odo's forehead.

The heat, the temperature of Odo's body was really high and made Fiola shocked. It was already not the temperature of an ordinary fever, the sweat of that child coming out soaking into the shirt made it like a sweat bath. That Huli Jing was really getting anxious the child, she looked confused as to what to do under such conditions.

Staring at him flatly, Odo put on a knotty smile and said, “Ya ..., maybe.” Blood did not stop coming out of his nose, continuing to drip despite having been wiped many times with his arms until his shirt was full of blood-red patches.

“Tuan ...? Hey, Mr Odo?! Why are you nosebleeds like that?” Odo could not clearly hear the words, he could only see the blurry motion of Fiola's lips.

Looking frantically at Siska, the fox woman said, “Can you let us in first? Please ...”

“Ya ..” Siska replied with a frightened face, seeing the amount of blood the child had shed.

Going inside, Odo was laid in one of the rooms in the orphanage with his nose stuffed with cloth and his body facing the ceiling. Sisik and Fiola accompanied him anxiously. The orphanage children peeked into the room as Odo put on the room borrowed from them.

A few minutes later, the blonde woman left the room and left Fiola with the child. The children of the orphanage who peeked out of the door were invited by the nun to come out to let Odo rest.

Opening his eyes with a glare, Odo looked at the ceiling without explaining anything to Fiola. But as a few minutes passed, the boy softly said, “Mbak Fiola, can you leave me alone ...? Please just tell Siska that I am exhausted ..” Huli Jing nodded, then left the room and said, “Don't push yourself too much.., Mr. Odo. I live there instead, if you should change your clothes first so that the sweat does not make you stuffy.”

Not until five minutes after Fiola left the room, Odo immediately sat on the edge of the bed with a grim face. As he looked up he muttered, “Serious? His reach really began to expand. What is this because the influence of the magic structure given Seliari ..., so Perception Speculation in the structure of Auto Senses is getting stronger results?” The boy laid his body back on the bed and spread his hands to the side.

What happened before was not a repetition of time or anything like that, such a thing could not possibly be done in a world without the possibility factor and Odo himself did not possess such power. All the events that had happened before were just inside the boy's head, an approximation and description of the super-fast thinking of a magic structure embedded with Auto Senses.

The anger, quarrels, conversations, and events that made Odo angry and sorry did not really happen. Everything is just a speculation from the results of the information that the child has about everyone around and where he is. A magic circle that Odo felt before entering was an early marker of the Perception Speculation magic's activation and made him feel a sensation like he had entered an orphanage before, then do everything that has crossed his head like that reality.

Basically Perception Speculation is one of the magic of the Auto Senses structure that serves to help Odo in performing calculations. Using the information that exists in his conscious and subconscious, the magic performs calculations and gives Odo a picture of what will happen if he chooses an existing piercing.

“But under normal circumstances .. if the magic is active I should only see events that could happen to me or around me. But ..., it felt like I felt it myself.”

Closing his eyes with his arms, the child still felt such a strong and murky emotional turmoil. It made her breath tight, her chest hurt, and it was as if it was holding her body to stay on the bed.

“The dragon's delinquent ..., so the side effects actually affected the other magic structures to this extent. It feels like there's a virus in my body .... Anyway, what was that? It feels outrageous ...”

Odo got up from the bed, then physically examined the body to make sure there was nothing strange. Pulling the cloth from the nose because the bleeding had stopped, he immediately took off his shirt. Silently for a moment, the boy stared at the oil lantern hanging by the door.

“What ... is it really one of those pieces that I feel and maybe I do? I ... want to do that?” His face returned grim, what he felt in the previous incident was still imprinted. The thought of regret being born in a noble family was still clearly ringing in his head.

“It is better that I immediately repair this magic damage .... Left unchecked, I'm like a madman ..”

Odo picked up the tunic Fiola provided for a change of clothes. Finished tidying up, the boy immediately walked out of the room to explain some things to those who looked anxious when he saw himself falling limp earlier. But when he just opened the door, something similar happened again and before he realized he had sat back on the bed.

“Eh?” Looking to the right and left, Odo was completely flustered. He was still wearing a shirt with blood on his arm and the door was still closed. Seeing that the tunic that should have been worn was still folded neatly near the table near the bed, he only realized that what he was doing was only in his consciousness.

“Ah ..., what is this? A loop? No, ‘kan? Was it just my consciousness that moved and drove itself?”

The boy's forehead shriveled, he really felt annoyed and immediately got out of bed. Quickly out of the room without changing clothes, Odo walked in the hallway with a slightly dim lantern lighting that hung on one corner. In a hurry to the orphanage's dining room, he accidentally runs into Nanra.

“A ..?”

Their eyes looked. When Odo was about to say something, once again before he realized he was sitting on the bed again and what happened earlier was just what was inside his head. This time it made his cold sweat come out, the boy started to panic with what was happening.

“A-What is this ...? What, anyway?! It feels like a pirated PC game that has a lot of bugs only. Pas play even back to start just ..”

Odo was about to pick up the tunic that Fiola had placed for him. Before taking it, once again what he was about to do was only Odo's consciousness was walking and himself was still sitting on the bed without moving.

Taking a deep breath, the boy immediately sat cross-legged on the bed. Putting on a meditative position, he began to access some passive magic structures operating on his body. Perception Speculation, Super Reflexes, Automatic Magic Settings, and various other passive magic in the unity of the Auto Senses structure one by one itself turn off.

But just as he was about to access the core of Auto Senses, a rejection reaction occurred and Odo's consciousness was forcefully snapped out. “Ah!? I can't access the structure?” Very quickly the entire passive magic unit that was on his body was reactivated by itself.

“Seriously? Why body? It feels like PC just broke ..”

Odo stopped meditating and got off the bed. But before his feet touched the floor, it turned out that what he was about to do was only happening in his mind and his own body was still sitting on the bed.

“Aaaaaaah ..”

Taking a deep breath, Odo tried to calm himself down and understand the situation. Considering a few things and checking for irregularities, the boy still could not handle the magic that lost control. As long as he used magic, Odo only realized how troublesome it would be if the magic implanted in his head lost such control.

Again, again, again, again, again, again, and again. Almost thousands of times Odo, in every 30 seconds he will again sit down on the bed. During the thousands of times he actually did not move from the place, only his consciousness was moving and what happened felt real to him.

“Oiiiiii! At least if there is a repetition of kayak gini made dramatic .... It's not important to repeat yourself!” Odo laid his body to the bed. After thirty seconds, he sat back down and what he did just happened in his head.

“Ah, samp—“

His vision suddenly faded. Crashing forward and falling out of bed, Odo quickly lost consciousness and the boy's sight was completely black. The sensation of falling was clearly he continued to feel. Deep, deep, and deep. He plunged freely into a giant hole so dark that it made his chest tight.

A fleeting light was seen amidst such distant sensations. Trying to grab it, the sparkle disappeared and instantly his entire gaze became bright. Taking a quick breath, Odo immediately got up and looked around. He was in a vast expanse of grass, invisible to a person to the limit of the horizon and the sky was so blue.

When he turned his head to the right, a gigantic tree that was so sturdy and majestic was reflected in his eyes. Odo immediately realized that he was inside his own Soul Realm. Smiling slightly thinly, he just remembered that there was a more powerful way to access the magic core.

“Ah, true too. If in here the influence of magic that lost control is not there.”

The boy got up and walked towards the green tree. Upon re-observing, the branches and branches of the tree are cut up. Odo's eyebrows shot up as he looked at the pile of books on the grass that were growing in number from the last time he came.

“Where is that lizard?! Sally! Seliari!!”

“You searched for me!?”

“Uwah!”

The dragon girl hung with her tail on a twig and came out of the leaves on one of the big tree trunks. Jumping down, he is seen holding a book and still enthusiastically reading it. If only it were truly a reasonable literary book, perhaps Odo's heart would be pounding with pleasure. A plain appearance of a young girl in a white dress holding a book with a hand wearing black gloves, it looked like something to her liking. Unfortunately, this is not what the child expected.

“Still read so. ...?”

“What do you mean that? D*uj*jin and Manga H*n*t*it's a wonderful literary masterpiece\, you know! Hih\, rough ...” The barefooted girl actually put on an annoyed expression. Glancing sharply from behind the book he read\, he said\, “Not that you have felt its greatness?”

“Huh!” Odo sniffed violently, put on an annoyed face and did not want to remember the incident. Staring at the dragon girl, he said, “Already, I didn't come for it.”

“Hmm, it seems like it is. I was also confused and shocked because you suddenly had a nosebleed like that .... Why?”

It was really a bad way to hide something, although Seliari's expression was not clearly visible but Odo clearly knew that there were lies in those words. “Eh? You don't know the cause? It's not because of the structure you gave me?” said the black hairdresser with the intention of following the lie.

“Not, no! The magic structure I gave you was just a key to maximizing Hariq Iliah. No side effects should.” Stop reading the book, Seliari seemed to try to think about the problem seriously. “Ah?!” Suddenly putting on a face like realizing something, he said, “Perhaps because I was just fiddling with some magic structures in your Magic Core ..”.

“Eh?”

“So the sound from the ceiling ..\, ah your magic ‘kan it? He said he had more amazing things than these magic books. He said Galge and Er*g* were better. To make it in this place\, he said it needed an upgrade of some things. That's why we changed some things. Well\, what a pity it didn't work. Your Soul's Nature has no strong mineral element\, so it failed ...”

“Wait ...” Odo was trembling. “So you said fiddling with my Magic Core?”

“Hmmm.”

“From here?”

“Ya.”

The black brat grinned sinisterly, stared darkly and shouted, “Se-li-ari!!!” He immediately pulled the dragon girl's nose violently.

“Sick! It hurts! Odo, what are you doing! Release him! Could have broken my nose!”

Stopped pulling his nose, Odo clutched his head tightly until a cracking sound was heard.

“You're this ..., whereas hitchhiking but mostly the whim, yes. Do I need to ancurin the head?! Basic lizard whore!”

“Serach! Your face is so scary, Odo ..!”

After that, the Dragon Princess for the first time in her life she was scolded with a clash and such harsh words, by a human. For more than thirty minutes, the dragon girl was forced to sit down and listen to Odo's words that tended to take the form of insults.

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“So ..., pari lizard, do you understand what you're doing?” Odo looked deeply at the girl sitting preceptively before him. They sat facing each other on the grass, completely in an inhospitable situation between them.

Closer to his face, the black hairdresser looked into the eyes of the girl who kept her face down and said, “See my eyes .... Are you listening?”

“Ya ..., I-forgive myself. I promise I won't do that again.”

Stop staring, Odo let out a light sigh and put on a lazy face. As Seliari lifted her face, the black-haired child glanced back sharply and said, “You are fervently fiddling with my Magic Structure just for such a reason?” The question made the dragon girl flinch. Not answering, he simply turned his eyes away with a fearful expression.

Odo stared at the Dragon Princess. Not saying anything, without going back to asking or forcing, just staring deeply in silence. As soon as he shook, he put both palms up on his lap and tried to look into Odo's eyes.

“I just don't want you to be broken, Odo.”

As if there was a thread breaking, the black hairdo instantly caught his point without thinking further. Slightly smiling knots with a displeased expression, he said, “It's not what can make me broken it's your act? If it keeps happening, I may go crazy for feeling firsthand the worst possibilities that can happen. You know, magic it's just right that I'm just in a state of observing myself doing my worst potential.”

“Because of that .... Odo, how many times have you used that magic in full?”

Seliari closed her eyes slowly, momentarily silent she opened her eyes again and said, “That is why you will be broken, my savior. Gradually if you continue to use it ..., you will lose your humanity.”

“Know do you challenge my magic?” Odo stared hard, full of annoyance and not clear mind.

“I know, because myself is in your magic core.”

The black haired boy understood the words of the dragon girl. The Soul Realm was basically the embodiment of the Magic Core, a world of consciousness that could be created from a person whose Magic Core reached a certain level in his cultivation.

“So, yes .... Fiddling around, it also means you can see the structure. Um, do you also see the function?”

Getting the question, Seliari momentarily smiled sadly and lowered her head. Without getting a direct answer, Odo understood that the girl in front of him had known the secret contained in the magic structure.

“You think ... that's how?” ask Odo with sayu.

“Agrible,” replied Seliari. “At first it looks like a beautiful pure white fabric strap .... But as it goes deeper, the hundreds of structures continue to grow in number until the millions and more tangle, bound to each other. Yes ..., it's like chaos.”

“Once, yes.” Odo smiled in relief, looked at the girl sitting preceptively in front and said, “That's your view of me.”

“Odo ..., please don't use that magic structure again? The word life magic that often talks to me that is also the magic structure is very unsuitable for you! It ruins your personality!”

Seeing Seliari desperately coaxing like that even though she was not used to it, Odo only smiled slightly. With friendly he asked, “Destroying how?”

“It ... makes you rot from the inside. Being an observer it makes a person rot from within, they will look down on others .... What's more, you watch yourself doing the wrong thing hundreds of times in seconds! Even though it's in the head and it doesn't really happen, it remains toxic and damages you!”

Odo smiled faintly hearing that. Slightly squiggling his legs and stopping the limp, he said, “You worry about me, yes. After seeing me use that magic a few times, has anything changed from me?”

“There!” seliari replied firmly. “You're starting to get more and more haughty! And also .... then ...”

“At that time?”

Upholding her body position and looking straight with confidence, the dragon girl said, “You became haughty to the point of not caring about your own feelings!”

“Hah? What doesny—“

“Delete ...”

The one word that came out from the silver-haired dragon girl made Odo's mouth close. Narrowing his gaze, the boy began to look displeased and actually began to harbor his anger.

“You ... also know it apparently ...”

“Why did you erase your own feelings?” ask Seliari. The girl's eyes looked teary, got that Odo just stared silently without saying anything. “I always observe you from here. At the time you said that, I realized that it was .. The moment you erased your love for that Demi-human girl, ‘kan?”

Smiling lightly, Odo replied, “Hah, so that's why you asked me to do such a thing with you .... But, do you know what you are? Basic lizard. Don't you know who I am, who are you?”

“Odo ..” Seliari's face grew sad. The insults did not hurt her, the dragon girl only felt dislike to see the change in the nature of the child.

“Send!” Odo extended his right hand forward, staring darkly and so coldly. “Give her magic control! The one that activated it was you, ‘kan? Doing that a thousand times, you really pissed me off,” he said with an expressionless face. The look in the eyes of the child is no longer resentment or hatred, there is only indifference.

“Takkan I hand over.”

“Hah?”

“Take me leave until you promise not to use it like that!”

Looking at the girl's expression that really looked anxious, Odo understood. Seliari does this because she really cares. Although at first saying a silly reason and making the child upset, but it was only to make the atmosphere not immediately awkward. Siliari really wished Odo had not changed his attitude because of the magic.

At the same time, Odo also understood that such magic did indeed greatly affect his nature. At the beginning of using one of these magic structures when fighting Giftmelata in the forest, Odo was not too aware of the effect because the start of Auto Senses spoke and it made him not have time to feel the effect. But while using that to fight the Black Dragon and have a conversation with Reyah, the boy was aware of the changes he was in.

Initially like pure white fabric threads, then then it gets tangled and coiled around each other. Exactly as Seliari said, Perception Speculation that is often used Odo is like that. Initially, the projection of the calculation results is no more than a road that is divided into two. Being able to see the end of each of those paths before passing through it, it wasn't too complicated to choose which one was better.

But after choosing, another path appeared with more numbers. It did not contain Odo's difficulties because he could see the end of each path. But as it continues and the road grows more and more, he increasingly underestimates the path he did not choose. It is the same as the person who is allowed to continue cheating, and over time the cheating is considered ordinary until it makes him start to think that what is obtained from cheating is the result of his own hard work.

“It's been that arrogant ‘m I?” said Odo while lowering his head and trying to fight the turmoil of turbid feelings in the mind.

“You are very intelligent, can realize it and hold it to not surface. But ... the emotion of something cannot be held forever. If you continue to hold it, you will definitely be damaged, Odo.”

“Ah ..., what is the consequence?” Odo looked down gloomily, held his own head and muttered, “Indeed I have lately seemed to underestimate my surroundings. Me ...”

“Think that the world revolves around me,” Seliari continued.

Hearing that Odo was surprised, he did think that way. After being told about the reality of the world from Reyah, Witch, and Rhea, the boy did feel as if he was the most important person in the world and considered his surroundings to be nothing more than a medium to fulfill wishes. Each time knowledge increased, Odo felt increasingly high and disrespectful to his surroundings.

“Did you intentionally do that to me ...? To the extent that I .. remember something I don't want to remember.”

“Ya .., I did it on purpose. When I saw you helping the Demi-humans in the alley with eyes as if staring from a high place, I rounded up my decision to do so with the help of your life magic.”

“Hmm ...” A little looked up, Odo said, “You are already familiar with Auto Senses, yes. So it's true that magic has escaped my power ..”.

“Start again,” reprimand Seliari.

“Hah?”

“Regardless of power .... Why did you choose that phrase? As far as I know, the Odo I know would not say such a thing.”

“What is it?”

“Ya!”

Odo fell silent, sighed and tried to accept that he had changed because of his own magic. He doesn't think change is a bad thing. If indeed the arrogant nature appears and gets stronger, Odo himself does not mind it. He accepted that trait because it was part of him. But, when he saw Seliari completely rejecting it, the boy slightly sighed in fret.

“Alright, we take tolerance.”

“Tolerance?” The Dragon Princess looked puzzled with her mouth slightly open, revealing her long canine teeth next to her.

“Yes. If it continues like this we will get nothing, therefore let's make tolerance .... What do you want? I want you to hand over control of that magic and promise not to tamper with my Magic Core.”

Seliari put on an understanding face, but did not like such advice. “I want you not to use such magic again,” said the dragon girl tightly.

“Hmm, I get it.” Odo nodded, then looked coldly and said, “How about this .... You handed over control of her magic to me, but I promise not to change it.  So when I use that magic, it will automatically be like doing what is in the calculation and prevent me from becoming more haughty.”

“Why does that prevent you from getting haughty?”

“I became more and more haughty because I was in an observer position in Perception Speculation. But right now the magic protocol is released by you. Therefore, when the magic is active, I like to play a role in doing what is in the super calculation,” explained Odo with a lazy face.

Sighing slightly and putting on a resigned smile, he again said, “The sensations of pain, thought, feeling, and what happens in that super-fast thinking will be imprinted because the safety is removed. Isn't that how pride can be prevented from growing? I became more and more self-aware of what I was doing.”

Seliari was silent hearing that. Seeing Odo's face filled with confidence, it didn't make him believe in the boy. What appeared on the boy's face already clearly symbolized a very high sense of self-appreciation.

Taking a deep breath, Seliari said, “Remove ...”

“Eh?”

“Remove that magic structure?”

The confidence in the boy's face disappeared quickly, turning into a sharp look full of annoyance like a naive young man who was rejected by his ideas.

“That's no longer the talk, Seliari. You've made me feel and remember bad things, you think I'm not mad because of that?”

“Hal bad? I feel like such a thing is important in life .... You must feel that in your mind and keep remembering it so as not to be a naive figure.”

Taking a deep breath, Odo was completely out of ways to persuade the dragon girl before him. Seliari's thought of getting rid of Perception Speculation was really strong, it was already intolerable anymore.

“Then, just remove the source of the problem,” said Odo annoyed.

“You want to remove the magic structure?” At once Seliari beamed.

“Not it ...! The source of the problem is something you fear. The hubris, you're afraid it's getting stronger in me, aren't you? In that case, just remove such properties from me.”

“Eh?” Seliari looked very confused hearing that. He can understand it, but there is something wrong with it.

“I can freely manipulate that kind of thing. You know I can freely erase feelings, don't you? It is the same with the natural properties of living beings such as pride ...” Stretching his hand forward, he confirmed, “I can remove the haughty nature permanently.”

“If you do that, why not just delete it from first?” seliari asked confusedly.

“I don't think haughty nature is a bad thing. Laziness, anger, envy, spite, greed, jealousy, love, and various other traits that exist in me are mine and also something that makes me. I don't think all traits are bad. I have sense, I'm not an animal .... I can keep it and press it.”

Seliari lowered her head, only to find out the real reason Odo allowed the chaos in his Magic Core. The child accepts everything, whether it is good or bad in himself. Thinking that Seliari was forcing her will and asking Odo to remove the magic structure, the dragon girl felt that she was the one who was arrogant.

“How? I don't mind .... Anyway, honestly I'm interested in what I would do if the haughty nature was missing from me.”

Raising his face and looking at Odo with regret, Seliari said, “May I slightly change the agreement?”

“Hmm, I heard first ...”

“I will hand over that control completely on condition that you do not change it .... But, can you seal that haughty nature and give her authority that trait to me? Don't delete it, can you give it to me?”

The silver-haired girl's face seemed choked, her eyes glazed over and began to shed tears. Seeing such a face from his usually minimal face, Odo understood how deeply Seliari thought and felt.

What changed was not just that child, the Dragon Princess also gradually changed and no longer felt lonely in her heart. He was already full of constantly thinking about Odo and what was best for him, the one who had defeated and saved him.